#andromeda royle

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Went looking for HER last night, she's always gone wandering. I find HER when I wake up. She's still me, but I still feel like she's mine to protect and love. Someone separate from me. They say we're a system- two parts from the same person. It still doesn't make sense most days. I have all these memories from a past life that probably never happened to anyone but me. I feel fake in every way. Who even am I?

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Hope is my Sunshine, kept me alive.

Found me in a coma- saved my life

I will marry her. She loves me dearly.

I won't let us be scared

It's time to be Brave with you

So, H.E.R, do you say I Do?

-A.J.R

6/25/2024

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Salt Timeline:

Kanaya is bitter when she realizes she can no longer control and manage space, it's gotten too big and she's overwhelmed and Aranea comes into the picture to help lift her of the responsibility of being the primary Sylph in the dream bubble. Aranea needs to regulate with salt due to her Cerulean nature and she keeps losing capacity to retain information unless it's a little bitter. The bitterness reminds her that the people she's mind melding with are still flawed and that putting Kanaya on a pedestal and expecting her to take care of everything when she's overworked is going to doom the timeline. The Sylph of Mind comes in and unburdens the Sylph of Space to make room for the idea that maybe you can't control everything. Maybe you don't have to, and a lot of people get hurt when you make empty promises and ignite hope in people with failure to take meaningful actions. It's easy enough to say that you care and are going to help, but being salty allows you to realize that maybe the people around you aren't always the ones you should be around. Purity and morality OCD are going to destroy people who want to speak out against injustice but struggle with finding a voice. Sometimes the people you are around are the ones that are allowing the rot to set in, and the stagnation furthers the rot. Rose stays around Kanaya because she loves her, and Kanaya loves Rose, supposedly. But to love someone is to have the courage and respect to call out people who actively hurt others. Just because someone says, "Trust me, I'll handle this" does not mean they can or should. Trusting someone who actively ignores the suffering of people who aren't their friends is holding the session back.

There is no safety when victims are silenced. You are loved and you belong. We all belong and deserve a chance to feel our collective grief.

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No I don't consistently use tone tags- I don't know what they mean and a lot of other people don't. Not everyone is in your micro discord communities and is going to take time curating and using content warnings for atypical triggers- like I'm sorry I'm just too busy to coddle with /nm /gen /srs kind of stuff.

I get people struggle with reading tone over text, I do too but I don't need everyone else to learn a whole new code just to interact with micro communities I hardly interact with anyways. I don't even know what my tone or emotions are to even pick ones because if I use the 'wrong tone tag' people dogpile you anyways.

Incompatible accessibility needs I guess.