#angel wright

[sp4cebunny]

Homestuck oc x canon stuff cuz i love these two

Doodles

Gacha stuff

Gif thingy i did cuz it looked fun

[stellar-sys]

This is the worst reason for a journal

I still don't feel like it's real

2 days ago, I woke up to an empty bed and a text from my spouse of 9 years that said "You made me promise that if I couldn't take it anymore I would go. I can't handle your temperament anymore, you scare me" I-- I'm at a loss for this, I've been without my medication for almost 3 years, and I have anxiety, bpd, and way more. I was doing everything I could. I tried keeping the house when I wasn't sick. Then I got diagnosed with MS and they wanted to open the polycule.

Fuck I'm so stupid.

I hate that when they dipped when I can finally get my medication because I found out today that my university will get me medication and therapy, so I can finally have what I need, how fucking cold is that.

La, la la, now everybody's singing

Yeah, that's kinda what it feels like. Is this really happening?

[stellar-sys]

Finally a fuckin' update

Whhoooooo boy it's been a time, but I think I'm finally safe at a plateau enough to give an equitable update.

2 months ago I was diagnosed with Multiple Schlerosis

3 days after that diagnosis, I was fired from my job.

I've been searching almost constantly for work, but little so far. I have already filed a lawsuit for my employer violating the Americans With Disabilities Act and the case is ongoing, my lawyer was confident last I'd checked.

I've had 2 MRI's one of my brain and another of my neck and my spine. There's some evidence of demyelination at the base of my neck, and she has formally diagnosed it as Progressive MS, which means if I want peace from flare ups, I can hang it up. I don't get remission.

I absolutely should be asleep, I'm gonna have to set alarms because they're dropping off the steroids tomorrow after 8 some time, so I'll need to be up early to sign for them. At least this one comes in an applicator rather than a regular needle so it should hopefully be less painful.

But upon reading my file, I discovered that she was able to change a diagnosis I've spent almost ten years trying to fix!

I don't have to worry about a bipolar diagnosis that's brought me nothing but the wrong medication and nightmares.

I'm sure the difference between them is negligible at best, but bipolar is a chemical balance, it's happenstance.

She changed it to BPD, which I do agree with. I display those symptoms, but I wasn't made that way. I was traumatized. Horrifically, and that's the difference, and having a doctor see that and call it out for being there was-- somethin' /pos

Chat I also have a boyfriend now?? And he knows about my DID??? AND WE'VE SAID I LOVE YOU??

Maze is having a blast most of the time making me blush. I never should've let them be able to talk to each other, they've unified against me now

I'd be lying if I said I didn't like it though..

So the first day of the shadow phase is a net 0???

Fuck it I'll take it.

That's mostly it for now, Maze and I spent the night chilling and repairing spoons while fortifying my soul for tomorrow, probably about to head to bed.

Lmk if my little band of watchers wants me to rb some ask memes, or anything else you wanna see from me. I've got a writing sideblog for the MC of my next book @all-eyes-on-the-sky

[stellar-sys]

A random memory

I had totally forgotten this until now, but I just remembered when I found a Facebook profile of pictures of my system at the park.

I still have no idea who the actual owner of that account was... It's still up probably.