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[fcrdcollins]

STARTER FOR: @anikashaw​ EVENT: Valentine’s Day Bachelorette Auction.

To put it simply, Ford originally was going to stay home tonight and watch TV with TJ. Mainly because he hasn’t exactly been in the event mood, especially in regards to recent events that have transpired in his life. He really wanted to lock himself away and maybe sleep away all his troubles. That usually helped. But something inside him changed last minute. Maybe it was the open bar and free food or the simple idea that people he cared for were being auctioned off and he kinda wanted to see the kind of commotion that creates.

So, here he was, snacking on a heart-shaped cookie and drinking a beer. He’s tossed in a few bets for Anika, just for the fun of it. They haven’t exactly found common ground yet, though Ford hopes they will soon. In truth, he needed family right now. Family that wasn’t his wicked mother who has now stepped into the picture again. He puts his worrisome thoughts to rest as he approaches his once pseudo-younger sister, grabbing another cookie on the way. “Who you hoping wins you tonight?” He asks, eyebrows shooting upward. “I’m kinda hoping a brawl breaks out. I’m bettin’ on Andy to start swinging soon.” Great ice breaker, Ford, really great.

[rothane]

What is a fear that keeps you up at night?

MUSE MONDAY — honesty hour.

An eyebrow arches upward, a breath of laughter leaving her. “Just one? I think the list of things that keep me up is about a mile long.” She worries about whether or not she locked the doors properly, about what she’s going to say when the kids ask where all the money they have comes from, about how long this truce with her parents is going to last, about Blake and her struggles, she worries about Andy’s record and what it means for their family, whether or not he’ll end up behind bars again, she worries about the amount of alcohol she watches her husband slam back on bad nights – God, what doesn’t she worry about? “I worry that the reputation my family has is gonna hold my kids back one day. The name Thane isn’t really looked at too fondly by half this town, between the club and all the people Cronus burned while he was alive. I just hope no one holds that shit against them.”

[scthcartcr]

What has been the most difficult part of being president of the Primordials? Do you always feel like you're on the right track or do you spend a lot of time evaluating your own decisions?

MUSE MONDAY - h o n e s t y  h o u r

“Dealin’ with a bunch of fuckin’ impulsive idiots who ain’t got shit for brains. Swear to fuckin’ God, I never realized how many fuckers spewed garbage out of their fuckin’ mouth before thinkin’ ‘til I had to listen to ‘em. Fuck, it gives me a headache. And then there’s the whining. Don’t get me started on that,” he huffs, his eyes practically rolling so hard they disappear into his skull. “I’m pretty confident in the decisions I make– most of the votes too. Usually we’re on the right track but losin’ people don’t feel too good. Means I made a mistake somewhere ‘long the way and I ain’t one for makin’ mistakes. It’s so fucking annoying, especially when it ain’t my fault. Which– it’s almost always not.”

[mayaswollman]

What are some ways in which you manage your anxiety?

MUSE MONDAY — honesty hour edition.

Maya thinks long and hard, trying to figure out how she deals with her own anxiety. Everything that comes to her mind seems so negative, even after years of therapy working on the topic at hand. She exhales slowly, “Breathing helps, for sure. I never used to believe those breathing techniques but once you get into them they really do work. You have to let them. Reminding yourself that nobody gives a shit also helps. Like, really, nobody fuckin’ cares.” Maya’s words stop for a moment, once again trying to muster her thoughts. “Managing my anxiety sometimes feels very impossible because I try too hard. I terribly want to seem….undeniable, for some reason. I want to seem undeniably beautiful and smart but undeniably original and completely my own while still being endearing. It’s um, really hard to navigate that while also being extremely anxious. Especially in social settings. My brain has a lot going on and it’s a lot to keep track of so my anxiety ends up taking over everything as some way of survival. I have to be honest,” Maya says, taking a small beat between her words, “I haven’t really figured out how to manage my anxiety. It’s still always there. Sorry, this wasn’t very uh, helpful at all. But it’s the truth at least.”