Ok so as probably none of you know or probably care that much, I have Trichotillomania. It's a body focused repetitive behavior BFRB that basically compels me and gives me satisfaction to pull out my own hair. And it comes and goes, especially if I'm stressed out which has been a lot lately because college. When I get bad I control it by putting on 3 hats and a scarf when I go to bed which works when I'm laying in bed with all this stuff on, but I lay in bed a lot so oftentimes I find myself pulling without the hat and then I do a mirror check and lo and behold, I'm about a clump worth closer to having a shiny bald spot and not just thinning hair or an irregular hairline. It's been getting bad lately, I'm pulling in class, while talking to friends, while hanging out with friends, while doing hw, in the library but the real damage comes at night when I'm in bed because I'm not in public to keep myself in check. I've gone to therapy for it which did nothing because I always got tired of whatever stimming thing that was suggested. Mostly putty and spin rings. Either I got tired of it or it got too bothersome to carry around all day. But tonight I just realized that potentially a thing to help me is smoking. A few weeks ago I got a vape (I'm trash, I know) and I've been smoking a shitload. But I think it could be the thing for me. It's a repetitive behavior, it tastes good, and chills me out. I don't recommend smoking if you've never smoked before but if you have trich and can't stop and smoke already or smoke occasionally, it is an option that worked for me. The end, thanks for coming to my TED talk.