#ankhos things

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I think about my characters with service/emotional help animals a lot. Dallon with a service berd (essentially Falcondad but in humanstuck he'd have a parrot or smth) Vaneda with a doge (she'd probably have an Australian shepherd to keep up with her energy) Viveka just runs a pet store let's be real here And Ankhos with a cat (a three legged rescue who sits on his books all the time)

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Ankhos problems: Tfw when you wanna strip for your mate because you're just that comfortable But you're really insecure about your body and how he might see it So you just end up awkwardly taking off your vest and unbuttoning two whole buttons before giving up, then hiding your face in his chest and feeling like an idiot.

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Pale for all of your main trolls?

Funnily enough nearly all my main trolls are taken in pale, but let's do it! it'll mostly be descriptions then how they're working on that in pale.

Dallon:It's a matter of give and get for Dallon, once he sees you've given him all you can, he will give all he can in return, and try to do more as well.He needs to be able to be open with his feelings as he views having anything other than 'sassy and sarcasm' as weak and revealing. It takes a lot of trust a time for him to be able to do such a thing. It took a while for him to even be able to open up completely to Vel in red, let alone pale.He needs a sort of unquestioning person, who will let him speak on his own terms, most of the time. Vel seems to know when to whack Dal into expressing his feelings, and while dal may not like it at the time, usually they can work it out and dal is crying/but feeling better afterwards.He needs to feel safe with the person he's with. Vel has made himfeel safer than anyone, and that helps add in the openness factor. If he feels safe, he feels like he can open up. Especially on his quiet days.Giving back, oh damn if you treat Dal you will get his all in return like 5real. He will give his all to make sure you feel comfortable, safe, and like you can talk about anything and not get judged, because he really doesn't. He will help calm you down, pick you up, whatever you need he'll give it. And he's doing just that for Vel.

Ankhos:This little fluff of nervous just needs a backbone sometimes. He needs someone who can help him get over a few of his nervous ticks and mindsets, but also someone who can help him unwind and calm down. While the extremes may seem a bit much to some people, it's a balance to his own extremes and he knows how to follow. Ilidae somehow balances out and is slowly helping him with both, though some of his antics get Ankh really nervous/worried for him.When giving back, he's not really sure what to do, new to the whole pale thing really. But with Ilidae it's pretty easy to find out what to do most times, make sure he doesn't anger any highbloods or burn anything down, and make some tea/cookies/teeny blanket fort to help calm down later. There's most certainly more, but simply watching out for Ilidae is what he's best at, and asking what's wrong or if he wants to talk about it when something is obviously bothering the little 'chilla (when Il gets his hair messed up is when ankhos gets even more mother owl and will care for Ilidae so much because the distress ;n; )He's also fiercely protective, and would take on Tezcat again if it meant keeping Ilidae out of harm.Vaneda:Someone needs to help her calm her shit sometimes like damn son you are not an energizer bunny. She's very imaginative and tends to need a nice dose of reality even if it's light or in the form of someone a lot more down to earth than she tends to be. There's also the teeny case of her pent up anger. Doesn't happen very often but it can be a little...drastic. Just help her not get to that point, and keep her calm. Uacsec is doing a very good job.Giving back is where you see the 'holy shit generous' and 'oh my god i didn't know you could actually get serous and give actual advice that's wise.' She's very very generous with her time and will not leave until she has helped to settle you down or let go of whatever pent up feelings you have. She's trying to do that with Uacsec as best she can, but what he isnt telling her is worrying her, she just wants to help.Viveka:I don't even know with her.She's a huge motherly troll to ALL MY TROLLS. Like if you asked any one of my trolls they would be able to say Viveka has helped them in some way, or they knew/know Viveka. She's very in tune to what other people need and will act accordingly, getting that they need or treating them how they need. She is also, however, very no nonsense and if you try to pull the wool over her eyes more than the once she lets you have about something she will shove it back down your throat and knock you down a peg. So if you're trying to hide something, she won't pry until she sees it's an obvious problem. But don't LIE about it. Not beyond kicking ass to get someone tuckered out to open up. She can be gentle, but she won't take any mess.I don't even know if she needs a moirail. She is her own moirail.

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Wait, if Ankhos is missing one eye, I can draw him with an eye-patch.

Yes.

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Doodling Ankhos with a robotic arm and eye because I am trash.

Eye is on the right, arm is the left.

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Muse of the Month

Seeing as it's almost halloween

And his page is literally 2spoopyowl

This week's muse will be Ankhos.

On PC his handle is reticentAugury

Pester the owl!

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To continue what Ankhos was saying, because it won't go away like darn.

It's a mix of both for him. He wants to kiss Giomes, he wants to say he loves him, he wants more than anything to make him happy. But he also feels that in order to do that he /has/ to do all those things, that he at least owes him that for everything Giomes' has done for him.

And what kills him is that he just can't right now. He'll get so close to saying it or even kissing him on the cheek and he just locks up and ends up leaning on him and hitting himself mentally for not being able to do something that seems so basic.

He's tried reading the books, he just gets flustered/nervous because even when he imagines it, with no right frame of mind about how it feels or is supposed to, it hurts. Maybe a bit less because he knows Giomes said he would go slow, but it still does. He knows it's messed up, so he figured he may as well try that self pailing thing to see if it would feel any different, but he couldn't. He just stopped because he just couldn't and he doesn't know why. Maybe he's afraid it still will, even if he knows himself.

He's a mix of 'i need to' and 'but i cant, what's wrong with me?' and he feels angry at himself and like he's broken. He needs time but he wants to make Giomes happy now because he thinks that's what he actually needs to do.

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Who out of your trolls or kids would be most likely to go grimdark at any point in their session? Who would be least likely?

Well Nixe has actually gone grimdark in canon session, so there's that

Dal also does but it's forced grimdark by Tezcat

I guess the least likely but most terrifying grimdark has to come from Vaneda, Ankhos also has a terrifying grimdark form but he manages to fend it off.