PSA: The truth about my extended absence and ridiculous inactivity
Don't worry, it's nothing serious or dramatic. It occurred to me the other day that I basically haven't been around since Christmastime. And that warrants some kind of explanation. This new year has been full of changes and stress and trying to find my place amid everything going on. I've never worked so hard at my job. My evaluation process was gruelling and panic inducing for me, and I had to bust myself like I never have before. Everything else fell by the wayside...including things like eating and sleeping. And when I'm that slammed, exhausted and anxious, the last thing I want to do is write. It killed my muse and my motivation and I was just never around or online long enough to get anything done. Personally and privately speaking, a lot has changed too. I'm happier than I've been in ages, but like with everything else that's new, other parts of my life have had to adjust accordingly. My priorities have changed. I feel...balanced now, which is rare for me. And for a long time, I was afraid that coming back to writing and the community would throw me off. I'm still worried about that. I like that not everything revolves around replies now. It feels healthier. That being said...I do miss writing. And I'd like to come back at least somewhat and continue the stories and plots I've built with people. But it won't be like before. I fully intend on keeping my balance, which means replies a few times a week. If that doesn't work for my partners, I completely understand and you are well within your right to drop me. I hope we can continue under these new parameters. I think that if I commit myself to twice a week, I can cut down the stress I associate with writing and start enjoying it again. It becoming work and overwhelming was always part of the reason I was so flaky and inconsistent. This is just a trial basis. It might flop. I don't want any of you (whom I've tagged) to think I've forgotten or don't care. This has simply been a very transformative time and I'm still trying to figure out where tumblr and role play fits in all of it. I hope you understand.
