#annotated-catastrophe

[j-snapdragon]

Would you rather only be able to wear orange clothes, or have your clothes constantly shift random colors while you are wearing them?

random colors for sure. orange does not look good on me 😭😭😭

[the-hugger]

I'll hug you in every color

In every single time

In every saturation made

Across every type of line

I'll hug you every season

When leaves fall and decay

And whether we are near or far

I'll hug you through the space

I'll hug you when you're scared

But also when you're bold

From the times when we are young

Until the days we're old

I'll hug you in the pages

Be it graphite, ink, or paint

When the paper's fresh but also

When the lines are faint

I'll hug you too, in words

Be it poetry or prose

And know that whether tale or myth

I will hold you close

I'll hug you some in fiction

But it will too be real

Whether in abundance

Or scrambling for the next meal

I'll hug you tight as serpents

That make you lose your breath

I'll hug you soft as starlight

Even if that's all that's left

Until you wish for solitude

You'll be in my arms

If you're weary when you wake

I'll turn off the alarms

(submission)

This is beautiful.

[puppett-boyy]

Howdy! Have you ever broken a bone?

If you haven't...

*holds up a baseball bat*

hahaa silly i dontt have bones! anymroe!

i did break my leg once thoguh. i fell down the stairs ajd it hurt a lot

[fixation-central]

What is something about you that you wish more people understood?

oh gods wow you're really going for the jugular huh

hm

i wish more people understood the way i sometimes just dissolve. like i need floor time and people to just stop and not many people do, even when i want them to, and. it would help a lot. if they did.

thank you for asking <3

[gyokujyn]

How much do you think you've changed as a person in the past year?

This was a good year to ask this because I finally started therapy this year.

When I was a teenager, my mom took me to a therapist who she was friends with who basically told my mom everything I told her, in flagrant violation of doctor patient privilege. I've been too angry and afraid to do therapy since then, but I know I really need it. Despite being weirdly self aware and pretty good at advising others, I am not in a position to help myself unaided through the things I need to work on to be a better person and, most importantly to me, to be a better parent.

So, I'm happy to report that I've been putting in a lot of work in the past year to change with the help of my therapist. And it has sucked, but it's getting better. I'm working on my anger. I'm working on my rsd. I'm working on my abandonment and attachment issues. I'm working on my self image. I'm working on safely feeling things. I'm working on coming to terms with so many things in my life that I've never dealt with and just compartmentalized instead. I'm working on being a whole person and not just the parts I need to get through each situation I'm in.

And, the more I do, the more I realize that this isn't something I'll ever be done with. If I had a thousand years, I would never finish this work. But, that's okay. I started it because I wanted to be a better parent to my kids, but I'm starting to get to a point where even though it's hard work, I want to do it for me. And (Jesus Christ, I'm crying), I really never thought I'd feel that way about it. I'm so grateful.

[estellardreams]

Would you trade your eyesight for a wish?

My eyes are already bad. I wear glasses. And I'd prefer to keep the sight I have.

[the-hugger]

Can you hug @annotated-catastrophe? :)

[the-fallen-three]

Do you fear being forgotten? Or do you wish people WOULD forget you more?

This is a terrifying question! ive been thinking about my answer to this, and frankly, its complicated. Everyone leaves behind a legacy to be remembered by, even if its just footprints. But to be honest? No, i dont want to be forgotten.

Theres just something haunting about no longer.. existing, in a way. to be completely forgotten is scary, if you think about it. I mean, to dissappear, from everyone's memory and view? Id be alone, isolated. id be okay with it, for a bit, but id start to wonder what had happened.

Did they ever care? was i an annoyance? did i only matter to them because they needed me? or, did i ever need them?

Would i forget myself? would i remember who i was? would i remember anything? would i know if i ever did exist? would i forget myself?

But onto the second question, theres few things i think people should forget about me. Everybody makes mistakes, i make more than i can really count, and i dont want my image to be perfect, because i want others to know its okay to be flawed.