only 10 Minutes (ok its 20 minutes)
hey again, well believe it or not I have been meaning to write and had so much to say and there I am and ... nothing ... . Well maybe not nothing... but nothing really important.
But as I read the other day, apparently writing, just starting and letting it flow for 10 minutes everyday is supposed to be real good.
So thats what I am doing today and sharing :-).
Ah but now I do remember what I wanted to write about.
Its the weird change I am sort of having... its transition at its best. I am temporarily extreme annoyed by people. And I dont mean just one or two people, but actually everyone.
Today I sat with my dad, cause he invited me for breakfast... and there I was sitting and moping and being frankly a little shit. Why...? Well, because he got on my nerves. The way he puts the unused cup on to the other table and with it his napkin, which he rubbed his nose with. The way he asks me everyday, the same F**** question. ... (I hate when I say that that annoys me, makes me feel ungrateful and more annoyed with myself.) But it really really gets under my skin, the minute he asks how my boyfriend is, which he does daily I could freak out! Its ridiculous I know. But what to do... ?
Then my beloved colleague came and her talk about the same shit over and over .. well that kind of got me going inside. And the other one, who always... ALWAYS needs to also have a story. The story will always be slightly better than yours and definitely not letting anybody-else talk meanwhile.
And yesterday... the girls. Well two of them really had me. With totally different things. One because of her, well I’ll say it frankly unbelievable ignorance for “Life” or ... normal peoples jobs?
... uh shit 10 minutes are over ... but I am not. I just keep going 10 more minutes.
And the other, because of her issue(s) with money. Whereas, while I am writing this I am realising, it is actually my problem at the moment. PUH ...
Maybe all these people kind a annoy me, because I am just generally annoyed? With myself? Cause I spend to much money and my plan is sort of not working yet.
What the heck ... Worst thing is knowing that at the end of the day one is the little shit in the whole story. But thats just the way it is sometimes. I am really trying to learn exactly this. Acceptance for being a little shit.
So 20 minutes are over believe or not. It has been great! Thanks