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i dont feel too well

when i think im over it, im suddenly crying at 12 am on a random saturday night

ive accepted that im an extremely flawed person, that its hard to fix those bad parts of myself. ive even come to accept that people will eventually leave me after they get tired of every mistake i keep repeating, no matter how much they believe they can handle every part of me

even if i am content with this, the isolation, the self harming, the constant misery, i am still human and i cry.

but my abysmal self-worth believe that grieving of what i lost is selfish, i cant just complain when i did this to myself

i dont know how to fix myself. i keep hoping that i will get better, that time will pass and i'll miraculously feel better. i keep hoping that something will save me, either by getting therapy or talking to god. but i dont think neither will. i keep getting my appointments postponed, or get a really shitty psychiatrist, or just not be listened to by the adults that are supposed to help me

and im a sinner to even beg for god to come and save me.

everything just keeps crumbling apart, im too weak to hold anything together. at many points i even considered killing myself. i live near the train tracks now and its just so easy to. Go. but alas, i am a coward

i dont know anymore. ive been writing this since 12 am, crying all the way through, its now 3am. what does venting my frustrations out achieve? i do not feel better, i do not feel relieved. if anything, i feel more terrible than before.

maybe i am undeserving of peace

#anon.vents #vent post #crash out all bcz i thought an old friend sent a strawpage #how pathetic

i had a nightmare and i dont have anyone to talk to about it

goodnight, Anon

#anon.vents #vent post #at least inkay was there #that was nice #i guess

imso tired. I jusr wanna go home. Canr i sleep innmy bed? Cant i stay there? I dkrnt care how dysfunctional this family is, i judt wanna go home and finish my school year unbothered.

#anon.vents #vent post #Moving sucks #Aint even moving no more we got kicked out #I hate it here #I wanna go home #Im so tired #So many arguments #I literally just want to sleep in my bed

#anon.vents #vent post #had an argument with my sister #well. it wasnt really an argument #she was just being a dick #and me being the emotional wreck that i am. fell for her ragebait #so yay. i fucked up my vocal chords for this #oh and that shadow guy in the art is the voices in my head lmao #i may or may not have delusions but thats a story for another day #but just saying that This Thing is my main inspo for inkay mk dynamic #by the way.#live laugh love self projection

i opened up my drawing program bc i wanted to draw smth for oomf but then my lines were so wobbly and the buttons on my pen werent working i might actually cry if this drawing tablet breaks im going to crash out