i'm anon who wrote their first longfic, and yes it's not in english you got that right.
first, thank you for your kind words???? i didn't expect that at all. I don't think myself as disciplined... i just got really obsessed with the story, it was too alive in my head.
i see what you mean, 90k is a pretty big fic, but don't think i got a lot a feedback in my oneshots 🙃 maybe that is the reason my hopes where too high this this story.
i will post my work on other platform any time soon, although i'm not fond of it. i also thought about translating the whole thing to english next year (i will have more time then to do it properly)
i became really close with my beta, although we started working together when i already finished the story, we did the whole editing process together and she hold my hand until the last minute of posting the fic. she saved my life lmfao. And she says 1: i need to be patient (as you also said) the fic dropped not that long ago. 2: government conspiracy can be a triggering plot, you know: bombing, missing persons, extortion (and i am transparent with my tagging) that's not everyone cup of tea, i get it.
the part you didn't understand: yes, i feel the mods are used to the same people participating in this fest every year, and i didn't feel welcomed at all. Again, maybe it's just my insecurity talking.
thank you, again, for you encouraging words and for running this blog! 😘
You're welcome, Anon! (Anon's original ask)
As for getting obsessed... welcome to the brainrot 🤣 I have also recently (i.e. 5 months+ at this point) gotten said brainrot and may or may not also have a WIP sitting in my drafts that just passed the 90k mark 😅 I'm glad you were able to create something so amazing!
Ah yes... hope is a double edge sword... 🙃 I'm sorry it's been a let down. Good luck on posting! And to your future plans on translating your fic. No matter the outcome, you did good, Anon :)
Oh! I'm glad to hear that your beta is so supportive! Waiting can be nerve wracking, and ooh yeah... the plot and subject matter in your fic may not be everyone's cup of tea indeed, and that does not help with the range of people you can reach as an audience. I cannot stress enough that writing and publicizing/marketing your work are two different things that require two different skillsets. Hopefully, you'll at least learn where your skills, efforts, and limits are and be better able to set expectations for yourself ❤
Ah, I see about the mods... I'm sorry. That is incredibly discouraging. If you feel like you cannot talk to the mods involved to change this, or that even after talking, nothing has changed, it may be better to cut your losses and move on. In the end, you need to do what is best for you. And life is too short to let strangers on the internet make you unhappy.
You're welcome and take care, Anon! I'm cheering for you on your writing journey, wherever that may lead :)