‘ you have to stay awake. can you do that for me? ’
it’s all too alluring to just lie there , body thrumming with immense pain & accept his current state. which makes it fucking easy & if there’s one thing bakugou katsuki hates is going down the easy road. funny how he STRIVES to overachieve even while on the ground & worried over by all might. all might , of all fucking people. maybe this is karma. a punishment for all the shit he’s spewed , what he’s been the catalyst to ‘cause he still feels the blame for all might’s state.
if he wasn’t fucking weak ( like he is now ) , if he wasn’t a goddamn fool , none of this would have happened. he wouldn’t have the former no. 1 hero hovering over him , frail arm coiled around him. nothing would have changed. but that’s just the funny thing , right ? it all comes down to being weak. realistically every hero is weak at some point , but they equally bounce back. so why hasn’t katsuki ? all might has a reason , what does he fucking have ?
he wants to scream at him scream at him to fuck off ! tear away at his arm ( he could probably still easily wrestle away if he wanted to ) , crawl on his goddamn knees. GET THE FUCK BACK UP !
but he can’t. his body’s tired & so is he. he’s so fucking tired.
tired. tired. tired of everything. his bravado is all but tattered. his head hurts , his eyes sting , his mouth tastes stagnant with blood. giving up sounds so damn good. he can’t yell , he can’t push him away. he can’t do anything. he is so fucking weak & he can’t stand it.
( you have to stay awake. can you do that for me ? ) repeats like a shitty record in his head amidst the pleading of his wounded pride to toss in the towel. it’s making his head hurt as teeth clench tight enough for it to throb even worse in response. he can’t. he really , honest-to-fuck can’t , but even if he can’t he has to. this isn’t his end , this isn’t where he plans to be whisked away without getting his two cents in. he isn’t going to disappoint the fallen symbol of peace & he sure as hell isn’t going to disappoint himself. not anymore , not ever fucking again.
it hurts more than he can explain & it shows on his battered face as he forces himself to sit up further. all might’s arm follows with a surprisingly steady hold against his shaky back & the young fucking bakugou tries to ignore it. it’s arrogance , he knows it is , but he wants to support his damn self. he ignores the slippage of tears with that same arrogance.
“ ‘m not … ‘m not gonna ‘m not gonna give up. don’t y'fuckin’ think i am ! ‘m fine. ” he thinks his screaming , but his voice is small. he isn’t fine , but this is how he is going to push through his pain. physical & mental by repeating it. he’s fine. he is fucking fine ! he’ll stay awake as long as he has to for all might for his shattered pride.
💥 illness and injury starters ! accepting.