Apr 1
Hey chat. We're so back + it's gonna be ok + I love it here + I'm gonna live forever.
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Hey chat. We're so back + it's gonna be ok + I love it here + I'm gonna live forever.
Yes, the past can hurt
But the way I see it
You can either run from it
Or learn from it
So it took me almost a decade to realize I've been sabotaging my own healing process because I'm a dumbass- but I digress. I've had all this support for so many years, but of course I haven't realized it until now. Everyone I have met along the way has given in effort and support at one point in my life. All thats missing is my own effort.
I'm not sure whether to apologize or to thank the people who have put so much into trying to get me in a better place. I already made small steps to getting better; I'm going to therapy soon, I'm doing my best to look to the brighter side, to take complements and advice. Everyone says recovery isn't the easiest road, but its one thats worth taking.
I'll be happy one day. I'll get where I want to be one day. I just need to put in the effort to make that true.
THEY FINALLY FOUND THE FUCKER WHO STOLE MY PHONE HOLY SHIT AFTER ONE WHOLE MONTH
I have a tablet again but unfortunately I can't pair it with my laptop. Anyway I redraw that godawful ms paint track pad sketch (below) v
hmm i should post some more positive stuff. i feel bad for making my mutuals feel bad. lol. well aside from all the horrible shit going on in my life atm there is one highlight. i reread watchmen at the library and still really enjoy it. its got solid art and writing. also i have a newfound love for dan dreiberg/nite owl ii. gee i wonder why......
How I felt at the function yesterday (they loved me)
They all just started talking about how bad my ex fumbled at one point because they thought I was so cool. Yay!
The manic part of manic depression is so fucking worth it. I feel fucking fantastic. Everything is gonna be so much better once next week is over.
I'm gonna have so many friends and be so loved. It's gonna be a beautiful web this time around.
You reading this, you're gonna love me too.