#antideadpressure

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DEAD WEIGHT

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[maxskellington]

Beholder of desirable shapes

(ok to rb)

[maxskellington]

I be like

*splits on friends and instantly regrets it*

[maxskellington]

[maxskellington]

Kinda hard to judge myself based on my best when the worst of myself is just so so dark and slimy and harsh and ugly and sad and dark and disastrous. Im very good at ACTING normal and putting on a face around Normal People but I fear deep down that I’m just a very self centering weirdo who does best when I’m by myself and am supplied with everything I want.

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I don't approve of physical violence in these sorts of contexts usually, however I think getting to slap my ex in the face, at least once, full fucking force, would fix a lot of my problems.

[maxskellington]

It's so unfair that one person can just fuck me over so hard and then not hear a word of it. They can just walk away without facing any accountability or guilt.

I feel incapable of socializing almost entirely now. I feel undeserving of love and company and companionship. I feel like I'm not allowed to be happy anymore. Idk.

I know shit never would've lasted, you said it yourself, you didn't care as much as you ever said you did. But god dammit you couldn't have ended things in any better way??

[maxskellington]

Why can't I just quit my job and kill myself I hate this shit sm