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[cassylvan]

TWO DAYS UNTIL IRON LUNG

[kafkalogist]

richard gansey is poc (wears glasses) and queercoded (obsessed with his friends) and that’s why u guys don’t like him

[cassylvan]

i have this fun feature where when i draw in the evening i cannot fucking sleep at all bc my brain does not want to do anything but draw and that is why i am awake at almost 4 am right now. i am very frustrated and in much pain but i did just finish my second two-panel comic in a day. can i pls sleep now?

[cassylvan]

Jonathan Sims is real and i saw him at the farmers market

[cassylvan]

so i'm in the last month-ish of a bachelor's in psychology, and one of the capstone class options (and i stress OPTIONS), the one that i'm taking, is the historical developement of psychology. i know we talk plenty about how ethics classes should be a requirement of STEM degrees, but i'm losing my mind about how neglected ethics is in a humanities subject like psychology. especially being that it IS psychology. the whole subject should fucking revolve around ethics. and sure, most of my classes have had a short unit on ethics in modern practice, but the more time i spend in this history class, the more i lose it about how cleanly all the discussions of ethics just gloss over eugenics.

obviously psychology as a science has a pretty fucked up history. welcome to field shaped by several dozen wealthy educated white men who thought it was a mental disorder punishable by death to not be a weathly educated white man. and i know the field is laced with eugenics, but this history class is really making me realize how deeply rooted it is, and also making me freak out about how swiftly and 'yeah, people used to do terrible things' a HISTORY class is dismissing it. the eugenist movement was not a passing trend of the 1900s!!! this bullshit is still very much in practice!!! and it's hardly stealthy!!! it's just a little less acceptable to say the quiet parts out loud anymore!!!

the psychological testing movement was born out of the idea the genetics determined everything and it was deeply influenced by literal founder of eugenics Francis Galton (who was knighted!!) whose life's goal was to determine how to limit a population to 'good stock.' from Galton we got Knox and U.S. immigration laws that were just not even thinly veiled but straight up unveiled racism, xenophobia, and ableism. and from the testing movement we got IQ, and in this day, fucking STANDARDIZED TESTING, standardized testing on which school funding is determined. why isn't anyone in my psych major or my education sphere mentioning that educational testing and funding policies are just redlineing all over again! devaluing people categorized by intelligence testing is eugenics! it's racial eugenics! it's ableist eugenics! but i 100% guarantee most of my classmates are not putting this together. the only reason i am is because i have a vested interest in disabilty justice, which is inherantly tied to eugenics. if not for that, i wouldn't be putting this shit together. i KNOW my classmates are oblivious to this. i know because in that one period my history class spent talking about eugenics, when the professor talked about how [insert 19th century eugenicst whose name i don't remember] 'theoretically' advocated for the extermination of delinquents, criminals, and epileptics, a student asked "why epileptics?" i mean short answer because humans have incredible capacity for hatred and prejudice. but like it's not even theoretical. humans imprison, sterilize, and kill other humans based on imagined heirarchies of worth, but outside of WWII, this is not taught. and i know this student was well meaning but asking why about exterminating only one of those populations is bonkers if you think about it for more than five seconds. actually delinquents and criminals shouldn't be exterminated either! but i digress.

one of my big fears about this whole glossing over/ignoring psych's eugenicist foundations is that this may be happening because my professors hold deeply rooted eugenicist beliefs (as many of us do, society is built on this and we ain't immune to propaganda) and are unwilling to confront it (and therein lies the problem). obviously this is deeply systemic, but educators actually have some power to do something about it! and i am very very afraid, from purely my own experinces, that we are creating a whole population of graduates entering the psych field who unconsciously believe that disabled people are subhuman (amongst other things).

anyways i'm a month from graduation and not feeling great about this stupid degree. eugenics is so so so deeply foundational to psychology and it's just becoming more and more clear to me. but the fact that it's not actually clear and i'm having to dig it up and put it together is such a huge ball for a psych department to be dropping (maybe this is just a byproduct of my shitty school and others with psych degrees have had better experiences?? I pray??) and by this not actually being taught in a fucking history class boy are we doomed to repetition. i also think the history of the subject should be a first year requirement, not an optional capstone, because obviously it is incredibly important to know and face the bullshit, and because if i had pieced this shit together in my first semester i would have just switched my major to math in the first place. anyways. 36 days until graduation.

[cassylvan]

hey neurodivergent friends any of you been able to re-hyperfixate on an old hyperfixation?? if so how??? my current hyperfixation is emotionally draining and i want lord of the rings back

[cassylvan]

whee whee yippee portfolio site update. this format doesn't look as good on mobile but what can ya do with a free site creator

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[cassylvan]

god i miss 2020-21-22 queer lotr twitter so fucking much. i was mostly a lurker bc i was a shy teenager at that time but that microcosm was so wonderful despite the fact that it was obviously born out of the horrible isolation and fear of the pandemic.