#anwar.txt

[drjacobnash]

amazing that the best night buck had in eddie's house was when he was balls deep in tommy and tommy was balls deep in him as they flip fucked their way through the night.

and now hes moved out and dipped. its not a home if tommy aint there. this is unreal. amazing. love it for them

[drjacobnash]

Hii! If you read any, do you have any bucktommy fic recs?

Hiii!!!! oohh i have so many recs idk if i could list them all lmao

so fics i can rec rn, off the top of my head, its these ones. theyre not my only faves (i have a lotta faves lol) but ive read so many that sometimes i cant remember everything right in the moment lol

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Comfort by bekolxeram (@bekolxeram)

Hey, I Just Met You, and This is Crazy by IDontGoHereEither (@herrmannhalsteadproduction)

I belong to you (and you belong to me too) by wikiangela (@wikiangela)

Take My Words (and read 'em everyday) by talktonytome (@champagnetommy)

Tommy Kinard's Guide To The Best (And Worst) Places To Take A Nap by salty_autistic_writer (@salty-autistic-writer)

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call me a spade, call me heartless, call me whatever you like, just call me. call me. call me. by xTarmanderx (@xtarmanderx)

I Find Myself Back At Your Door by Harmlessvarietyofgardensnake (@harmless-variety-of-garden-snake)

I think I've found my way home by torturedslothdepartment (@kinardsevan)

Just Trying to Keep Up by IDontGoHereEither

on the matter of the heart by evcndiaz (@userautumn)

the only good way through is together by writerdot (@andforyouevan)

Won't You Come By and See Me (I'm a Love Letter Away) by dharmaavocado (@dharmaavocado)

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All Of You, All Of Me (Intertwined) by unhingedangstaddict (@unhingedangstaddict)

Awful quiet here since love fell asleep by Cecily_v, liminalmemories (@cecilyv & @liminalmemories21)

Everytime I Try To Fly (I Fall) by typicalopposite (@typicalopposite)

I Can Go Anywhere I Want Just Not Home (Everything Has Changed) by unhingedangstaddict

No crying in baseball by prufrocks (@geddyqueer)

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100 days by Citrus_orchid (@cosyvelvetorchid)

baby baby baby (put a baby in me) by queermccoy (@queermccoy)

fever's high with the lights down low by kirkaut (@kirkaut)

Hard Cock From A Man With A Clipboard Would Fix Me by Sterekorgtfo (DustinMcDreamy) (@sterekorgtfo)

It Could End So Sweetly by Harmlessvarietyofgardensnake

Please find me, I'm hungry by harmonic-intervention (BackseatSerenade) (@harmonic-intervention)

raspberry. by evcndiaz

terms of endearment by zeraparker (@zeraparker) full disclosure i did request this fic and it lives rent free in my head

what are your intentions? by screamlet (@screamlet)

You tell me to be patient by harmonic-intervention (BackseatSerenade)

i feel like i know/figured out everyones tumblr but if i got it wrong lmk

i also have a bucktommy fic tag where i reblog all the fics i like and read or find on tumblr. its a mix of complete and on-going fics. its at 700 posts and im sure itll grow from there lol.

[drjacobnash]

everything eddie said to buck pissed me off. with friends like that who needs enemies. wtf. hating and getting angry at your friend for opening up to you and then saying you coulda somehow done it better. so fucking awful. wtf.

[drjacobnash]

season ending with homeless buck. fucking wild. i hope s9 opens with him basically living in tommys place and neither one bothers explaining themselves

[drjacobnash]

buck is forever haunted by the last things bobby told him. that he'd be okay, that the others would need him, and that he needed to walk away and let bobby die. and that no one seemingly knows this bothers me. for all that bucks been asking about them in his own way, have they asked him? they have their families that they go home to. who does he have that he won't feel he's burdening?

he opened up to differing degrees to the priest, bobby by way of catholic confessions to god, and aunt pepa. people he thought wouldn't be burdened by him and his grief. and that hurts. it hurts to see him like this.

so what I'm saying is I really want tommy back so buck has someone that's his. only his. someone he can go to without feeling like he's taking up space he shouldnt. someone he can open up to and cry on. I want him to have tommy.

[drjacobnash]

woke up and im still pissed at what they did with eddie. at what he said to buck. I just don't get what they were thinking. I thought eddie dealing with grief in aggressive ways was something we saw him deal with in S3 and in S5 after what happened to him in both those seasons. that he got help. I don't get why they wrote him backsliding so hard.

its been how many fucking seasons and you're telling me he hasn't done anything to deal with this side of himself he knows full well exists? he still reacts to grief with anger and violence?? that's not something I can just look past cuz this isn't his first time going through grief. its not catching him by surprise. and the last time in S3 he punched someone's nose into their brain, and in S5 he trashed his whole room though that was compounded with the aftermath of him being shot, but still. this is a problem. a repeated pattern of behaviour. and I really thought we moved past this.

and I'm really annoyed with eddie for using chris as a band-aid for whenever he's fucked up, instead of apologising and owning up to what he did, distancing himself from his own actions. what is this. anger might be a stage of grief but that doesn't excuse eddie and it doesn't mean buck has to just take it. he put his hands on him, buck flinched. im so angry.

[drjacobnash]

dual mpreg bucktommy where they both try to tell the other they're pregnant but shit keeps happening until they can't put it off anymore

[drjacobnash]

even if we dont get tommy on screen we can get tommy mentions, tommy allusions. hell, the season could end with buck standing in front of a door knocking, camera angle changes to be the other side as it swings open and we see buck smile that smile and breathe out "tommy" almost like it soothes a part of him to see tommy again.