Day 23: What is a type of spirit you would like to learn more about or work with more and why? Journal about it. After you journal, do a bit more research into that spirit and record your discoveries!
I have been procrastinating/avoiding this entire challenge because of this one prompt.
I can’t explain why, but I get really nervous with this kind of thing. Maybe I’m worried the information will be wrong. Or that it will be right but it will color my judgement about a spirit in a way it shouldn’t. Or both, or neither, I’m really not sure. But I’m also terribly nervous talking to spirits. Asking what species they are, and more generally just talking to them. Asking questions beyond things like “Do you want a cookie?” is frightening for me. I’m not sure why. I’m not good at talking to humans, either, and talking to spirits is even more difficult. And thus doing research is so many spoons.
Really I should learn more about angels, given E. He’s been here since mid August and I still feel I know very little about him or his species but asking is so scary.
“It shouldn’t be, child,” he says but a n x i e t y d i s o r d e r. Even just asking Aze for a confirmation of general species category took days for me to build up the courage to do. I checked with a pendulum, and heard her clearly, and I still feel I might be wrong.
Hopefully, someday, my brain will calm down about this and I will be able to do proper research (where do I even start though?) but I don’t think today is that day. I have butterflies in my stomach and that nervousness that makes my eyes want to bounce from one place to another without stopping just thinking about it.
Day 24: Spend some time connecting with your guides. Helpful guided meditations: [x] [x] [x] Youtube is also a great source for guided meditations! This workbook may also be helpful to some. [x]
A while ago, sometime I think in August, when I made my first pendulum, I asked it if I had a spirit guide.
Should I try to contact them? I asked.
Though I was unsure if that was a reference to being so new to spirit work (it was more thought than practice at this point), or if the guide didn’t want to be contacted for unimportant things, or something else, I didn’t know. At the time, I didn’t ask.
I asked a pendulum again today, and got the same answers. I asked if said guide only wants to be contacted with some sort of emergency, and it said yes. This is all I know, all I have to go on, but as such, it’s the only indication of the desires of said guide. So, I’m respectfully leaving this prompt here. Let’s not annoy the guide.
Day 25: Do you work with any past life spirits? Either spirits of you from your past lives, or spirits that you knew in your past lives. If yes, what are your experiences with them? If not, would you be curious? Why/why not?
Oh my stars I am so curious.
I have had two different past life fragments do automatic writing through me, and they had interesting (albeit dark and unpleasant) stories to tell. There’s one more who I felt as a presence the other day, got a description, but not much else. I try to get information from them when I can but they have mostly been quiet lately.
As for spirits I knew in past lives, there are two that I remember--well, a third is mentioned in the past life writings, but I can’t remember anything more about her. Two come up over and over again in my thoughts. I’d love to meet them, to talk to them. In some of the past life writings, one was implied to be dead but the truth of that was questioned--part of me does strongly feel he is still alive. The other spirit wasn’t mentioned in the writings at all but she doesn’t feel like part of my imagination, either.
So I suppose you could say I don’t work with any past lives spirits (unless you count the fragments), but I’d love to.
