#apogarena2

[blaircollingwood]

Family Man || Nighttime OS

I leaned against the stone wall of the building.  My eyes were closed, but I was awake.  Ara was keeping watch while I was supposed to be sleeping, but I couldn’t drift off.  I let my eyes open and looked over at Ara.  It was getting dark and she was probably tired.  I was starving.  I hadn’t eaten anything since breakfast.  If I let her sleep now, I wouldn’t have to share.

“Hey.”  I said, so she knew I was up.  I rubbed my eyes for an added effect and crawled over so she could sit against the wall.  “Your turn.  I’ll watch.”  I said.  She nodded, seating herself next to the wall.  I climbed out of my sleeping bag and let her have it.  Hopefully I wasn’t too cold tonight.  After her eyes were closed I rummaged through my pack for some food.  I found the can of stew I took from Starling’s pack and pulled it out.  I used the dagger to open the lid and folded the edges so they wouldn’t cut my cheeks.  It was cold, but it still smelled scrumptious.  I drank the broth, saving the hearty chunks of meat for last.  I sat across from Ara and watched her sleep for awhile while I drank my stew.  After I finished I licked the insides clean and stuffed the can back into my pack.  I didn’t want to leave any evidence that we were here, and the lid could suffice for a razor if I needed it.  I turned around and looked out onto the shore.  For some reason, my mother came to mind.  Small, fragile, and alone.  I was never home much, and when I was I didn’t pay much attention to Maria, but really, I was the only thing she had.  I was sure she didn’t love my father anymore, I mean, how could she?  Maybe she did, maybe that’s why she never did anything, maybe that’s why she refused to leave him.  I looked down, slightly regretting how I had treated her my whole life, now that I didn’t have a chance to say goodbye.  I wasn’t going back home.  I wouldn’t let myself.  It’s not like they wanted me to anyway...right?  They never loved me.  I ruined their lives.  They could have finished school.  Maria could work in a shop and Russ could be somewhere other than the mines.  But instead they were stupid and had me.  It’s their own damn fault really.  

I sighed, looking out onto the shoreline, trying to remain alert for any sounds.  I glanced back at Ara a few times to make sure no one was holding her at gunpoint.

Despite whether or not my parents loved me...I guess deep down, I did love them.  They were awful, and stupid, and had no idea how to fucking raise a child but I guess, without that I wouldn’t have become the person I am.  I wouldn’t have spent so much time on the streets.  I probably would have become some frilly dress wearing Pop like Maria, and I would be dead by now, that’s for sure.

So I guess in a way, I owe them my life.

I wondered if they were watching.

I hoped they we

[a-for-alexandria]

So I Guess This Is Goodbye | OS

"Instead, your trackers will be alerted to explode if you are within 100 feet of your allies." I looked over to Icarus and he looked at me and for a few seconds, we didn't say anything for a couple of seconds and it felt as though the silence dragged on for hours. We were going to have to split up, and it felt like the last time we would ever see each other again. I held onto his hand for a second before standing up and wrapping my arms around him. I was scared for him more than I was scared for myself.

"It's going to be okay. We can't be near each other but it doesn't mean we can't stay safe right?" I looked up at him hopefully and I knew he just didn't feel the same way. I held his face in my hands and pressed my forehead his. "We split up, hide out. Don't do anything stupid Icarus okay? When it's over come find me at the lighthouse I'll be right there waiting for you okay?" I could tell he didn't want to, but we had no choice, we were never going to have a choice any more and it pained me so much. I kissed him softly on the lips and hugged him again before leaving his side.

I ran east towards the coast of the sea and turned back and waved at what I thought was Icarus. I couldn't say what I wanted to say to him because it would be too painful for the both of us, the only thing keeping me going right now was the belief that we would see each other again. I wasn't going to let anyone kill me. 

[noxx-samara]

Dear Agony | OS

In all honesty part of me was afraid to move from our safe place the other half just wanted to go out, kill and get this over with. I had a feeling due that we had kept our low profile we would pay for it. I was right, around noon an announcement was made that froze both me and Levi. My heart drop.

"no."we said at the same time. That was all I manage to say for the time being. The only thing I could do was shake my head and try and try to keep the tears in. "you're the only thing I have."I finally spoke even though my voice broke. I couldn't leave Levi, not only because he was the only thing I had but because he needed me. He was going through a stage that no one should go through alone. I didn't want to loose my Levi.

But I knew that if I stay close to him and try to protect him death would be in both of our futures. As he  packed up his I close my eyes and my mother comes into mind. What she said to me that day my brother died:

Maybe she was right. Maybe I was better off alone, the only thing I brought people was misery. It was his hug that brought me back to reality, to the horrible reality. I hugged him back tightly never wanting to let go. As he whisper I took off my glasses revealing my eyes. "it was the best choice I ever made. Thank you."I whisper back hugging him closer to my chest. When he pulled away I looked into his eyes and shook my head. I was loosing him already.

I stood up along with him and swung my pack. As we looked at each other in the eyes I prayed that this would be the last time we saw each other. I gave him a smile. And just like in my dreams, just like Mark, Levi walked away from me and it didn't matter how much I wanted to run after him, or my brother in my dream. I couldn't because if I got near both of them they would die.

Anger build up inside me and without thinking I let out a scream of pure anger. "I hate you!"I manage to say through my teeth. Turning around weapons at the ready I headed Northeast, towards the other side of the island ready to take this anger inside out on anyone within my path.

Just for safe measures I kept close to the buildings, my hand lightly brushing them. Each step I took I grew colder. In the beginning of this trip I didn't want to run into anyone but now that I made it all around cell B and I was at the end of Cell C I no longer care. It was like the walls I had made around my heart had blocked any feelings to come in. I could see the ocean from where I stood. I was tired of the buildings. I quickly rush towards the open ocean. I passed in between the solitary confinement and education and recreation building.

[blaircollingwood]

Vamanos || Arena Day 2 || Arablair

Ara woke up from her turn to sleep.  I looked over at her as she slowly rose from the mattress.  

"Morning sleeping beauty."  I said with a smile.  I had let her sleep an extra turn, I wasn't tired anyways.  I passed her the last of my bottle of water.  I was bad at conserving it, but I knew I had to keep hydrated.  I didn't lose too much blood, but enough to make me a little dizzy.  I looked over at my shoulder wound.  I had nothing to wipe away the blood, so it had dried to my skin.  The wound itself was still a bit wet, and crusted over on the edges.  I bit my lip as I tried to peel away my shirt, which had dried to the surrounding skin.  I really needed to do something about it, or it was going to grow more painful.  

I reached into my pack and pulled out the box of doughnuts, taking one for myself and handing another one to Arabella.  "Eat up."  I said.  "We'll need our energy.

[zamara-braud]

Cold Morning || Arena - Day Two

The night was calmer than what I thought would be. No tributes or mutts to wake me from my beauty sleep but, in the morning, even before opening my eyes, I feel a cutting wind on my bones. Bating my eyelashes at cost, I find a layer of snow over my sleeping bag and my whole body freezing cold. I can barely believe the sunny day became a freezing and snowing night but realizing I can’t move my toes makes it a little easier. When I run my tongue through my lips, a cold shiver goes down my spine. Well, this gives a more exciting definition for that little game with the ice cubes, doesn’t it?

I try to move out of the sleeping bag but my muscles don’t obey. “Shit,” I murmur under my breath, already trembling. Only if I could find a way of keeping myself warm because I won’t just die of hypothermia. Pff pathetic!

Allowing myself to focus for a few seconds, I stay still, eyes shut and shaking violently. If I manage to go down before being able to normally control my muscles, I’m an easy prey. Maybe it’s better if I stay here for a while and, to be honest, I don’t really want to move. The pressure and reality of the Games starts to get to me and I remember seeing a recap of Cole’s death on the night sky, just right before falling asleep. Felicity…Somehow, I feel like we’re even, but the desire of revenge puts a heavy weight on my shoulders. No! I can’t be this scared little girl. I’m not weak. I’m not weak, I repeat inside my head in a strange melody. I’m not weak.

Moving is almost painful, but I manage to free myself from the freezing sleeping bag and watch as it falls on the ground. Probably this isn’t the best of ideas, show near tributes someone is here, but it’s the only one I can think of. Calmly, I make my muscles work again and slowly climb down the tree. I lost so much time with this and my body is still slightly frigid but I need to go somewhere else, and walking will help me to “defrost”. Putting the sleeping bag back on my pack, I resume to walk away from the bloodbath. It’s hard to believe only a day passed.