Crazy Jock

The name is Samara and I was put in the Hunger Games. Just know one thing: I love playing games.

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[noxx-samara]

Samara Noxx has been voted the scariest tribute.

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samara knoxx top ten bio card - 10th place

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The Fight for the Tokens: Arablair vs Samara

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[noxx-samara]

Location in the Arena

On the beach

Allies 

No one

Injuries 

Stabbed on her left side(twice). Several cuts on cheeks, broken nose

Packs, Weapons, Items

food: 2 peaches, package of frozen waffles, bag of pre-cooked chicken wings,7 bottles of water, 2 peanut butter & jelly sandwiches, 1 bag of chips, 1 jar of peanut butter, carton of strawberries, 1 box of Hello Panda cookies, 1 bag of Cuttlefish snack, 1 bag of seaweed bits

Items: lighter, krazy glue, saran wrap, sleeping bag, coil of wire, wire cutters, pair of gloves, large coil wire bracelet, flint stone, 2 sleeping bag

Weapons: machete, switchblade, revolver w/6 bullets, fireman's axe, katana, shot put

okay I organize it since it was a mess

Any notable developments 

Not in my right mind. I know it but I no longer care. It's like my emotions have left me. I'm so cold.

I killed Cardell.

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Cardell vs. Samara

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[noxx-samara]

Location in the Arena

Walking in between solitary confinement and education, recreational building heading towards the beach

Allies 

No one

Injuries 

Stabbed on her left side. Cut on cheek

Packs, Weapons, Items

2 peaches, package of frozen waffles, bag of pre-cooked chicken wings, 2 bottles of water, machete, lighter, krazy glue, saran wrap, 2 peanut butter & jelly sandwiches, 1 bag of chips, 2 bottles of water, switchblade, revolver w/6 bullets, sleeping bag

Any notable developments 

Was force to say goodbye to Levi and just like in my dreams I had to watch him walk away from me. It was like I was reliving that moment with my brother but with levi. One emotional goodbye

Went emotionless and the fucks I was beginning to give are gone. 

[noxx-samara]

Dear Agony | OS

In all honesty part of me was afraid to move from our safe place the other half just wanted to go out, kill and get this over with. I had a feeling due that we had kept our low profile we would pay for it. I was right, around noon an announcement was made that froze both me and Levi. My heart drop.

"no."we said at the same time. That was all I manage to say for the time being. The only thing I could do was shake my head and try and try to keep the tears in. "you're the only thing I have."I finally spoke even though my voice broke. I couldn't leave Levi, not only because he was the only thing I had but because he needed me. He was going through a stage that no one should go through alone. I didn't want to loose my Levi.

But I knew that if I stay close to him and try to protect him death would be in both of our futures. As he  packed up his I close my eyes and my mother comes into mind. What she said to me that day my brother died:

Maybe she was right. Maybe I was better off alone, the only thing I brought people was misery. It was his hug that brought me back to reality, to the horrible reality. I hugged him back tightly never wanting to let go. As he whisper I took off my glasses revealing my eyes. "it was the best choice I ever made. Thank you."I whisper back hugging him closer to my chest. When he pulled away I looked into his eyes and shook my head. I was loosing him already.

I stood up along with him and swung my pack. As we looked at each other in the eyes I prayed that this would be the last time we saw each other. I gave him a smile. And just like in my dreams, just like Mark, Levi walked away from me and it didn't matter how much I wanted to run after him, or my brother in my dream. I couldn't because if I got near both of them they would die.

Anger build up inside me and without thinking I let out a scream of pure anger. "I hate you!"I manage to say through my teeth. Turning around weapons at the ready I headed Northeast, towards the other side of the island ready to take this anger inside out on anyone within my path.

Just for safe measures I kept close to the buildings, my hand lightly brushing them. Each step I took I grew colder. In the beginning of this trip I didn't want to run into anyone but now that I made it all around cell B and I was at the end of Cell C I no longer care. It was like the walls I had made around my heart had blocked any feelings to come in. I could see the ocean from where I stood. I was tired of the buildings. I quickly rush towards the open ocean. I passed in between the solitary confinement and education and recreation building.

[noxx-samara]

Location in the Arena

Trees between Cell Block A and the Admin building (we meant to move, I swear, but then feels happen and tears and yeah.)

Allies 

Levi

Injuries 

Stabbed on her left side. Cut on cheek

Packs, Weapons, Items

2 peaches, package of frozen waffles, bag of pre-cooked chicken wings, 2 bottles of water, machete, lighter, krazy glue, saran wrap, 2 peanut butter & jelly sandwiches, 1 bag of chips, 2 bottles of water, switchblade, revolver w/6 bullets, sleeping bag

Any notable developments 

Woke up ready to move and quickly had a small meal.

Found out that Levi has the same problem I had, he has been seeing Star even though she is gone. I don't want the same thing that happen to me to happen to him so I try and pull him back to me and away from this made up world. I hope I got through him. He made me cry. I blame the tears on swift. The tears were so real. 

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Beacon of Hope || Savi || Arena Day 1

[levisjokebook]

  Sam’s arms closed around me, holding me to her as I cried. I hadn’t broken down like this in years, it was foreign to me and I didn’t like it. I hated being weak like this. I hated everything, I hated Blair and Ara and stupid fate for ripping Star away from me. I hated myself for not being able to save her. Really only I didn’t hate Sam now. And my mother and Etta. And of course, Star. 

I nodded, what she said resonating perfectly with me. It occurred to me that this happened to her too, with her brother. But I frowned at what she said, that I was hurting Star by doing this. “I don’t want to hurt her,” I whimpered, hating how pathetic I seemed. Tears streaked her cheeks too, I felt instantly terrible for breaking down on her like this. She probably wished she’d never saved me now.

"I- I can’t-" I choked out, sobbing into her again. I couldn’t let go of Star, I knew my mind wouldn’t ever let me. "I can’t let her go." 

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No matter how much I tried to contain the tears they just came out and stained Levis blue outfit. The last time I had cried was when I had decided that it was time to let go of Mark, the day I had realize the lie I had live. That no matter how many times I would count and say 'here I come' that my brother would never be there. Both Starling and Mark were dead and there was nothing we could do about it except deal with it and move on. 

Pulling away I wiped away my own tears and decided that I couldn't cry anymore. I couldn't be weak. I wiped away one of his tears and just hugged him quickly before pulling away for the last time. "letting go is hard but sometimes holding on is harder. It's going to be hard to do it but if you ever want to get out of this arena and do the things Starling wanted you to do you have to let go of her. Keep her in your heart but don't live a lie."I gulped. "It's going to hurt, I know, but I'll promise you something that I didn't have when I had to go through it. I'll promise you I'll be there with you, it may not be much but that is all I can give you, and I can give you sweets."I gave him a shaky smile. 

[levisjokebook]

Beacon of Hope || Savi || Arena Day 1

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  I felt my entire body shaking as I rocked on the grass, my hands pressed over my ears as if to try and ward off all ideas of Star not being here. I felt Sam’s arms around me, pulling me close, and for the first time in years I openly cried, burying my face in her bloodstained jumpsuit and sobbing hysterically into her. 

She drew back and kept her hands on my shoulders, trying to keep me staying with her. I didn’t feel like I made it up, it just felt so real… “How was it made up?” I asked, my voice hoarse. “I swear she was there it’s not possible to have made something up that vivid…” She was right, I knew somewhere in the pit of my stomach but my heart was pushing that away, wanting Star to be with me again.

I couldn’t even choke out a reply at the end. I just clung to her and sobbed, unable to deal with the truth that the love of my life was gone forever. I didn’t know if I could believe her. 

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I had never had someone cry so much into my shoulder that I didn't know what to do except hug him back tightly. I just held him there for a long time. I knew that no one had been there to pull me back, my parents gave two shits about me when they decided that I was the reason Mark was dead that they didn't even bother to ask me how I was doing, the rest of the citizens of district twelve just saw me as the girl who had lost her brother and now was a jock, a sport addict but what no one had know was that all the times I had been in the court or running around a little boy had been with me. Mark. Just like Levi I didn't want to let go and no one had made me and I had paid the price but I wouldn't let Levi pay the same price I had paid. 

"I know. I know it seems so real, you don't want it to end. You want her to be beside you all the time, to touch you, to kiss you. To keep her close to you but you have to understand that you are not only hurting yourself but her as well. You have to let go no matter how much it hurts."I responded the tears building up in my eyes. "You can't live a lie or else you will end up just like me. I don't want that for you, she wouldn't want that for you."I broke and a tear came out. I couldn't cry, not in the arena. 

"let go."I whisper into his ear as I buried my face into his neck trying to stop the tears from coming out. We couldn't have two people breaking down, one of us had to be strong. 

[levisjokebook]

Beacon of Hope || Savi || Arena Day 1

[levisjokebook]

  I blushed slightly. “Sorry, you can keep it if you want. Got a bit overexcited. I found I worked pretty well with blades back in training.” I admitted, offering it back to her. “I don’t want to steal your weapons. Me and my trusty bat will do. And this,” I added, producing the vial of poison from a small hidden pocket of my bag. 

Sam levelled a look into my eyes and I felt my mind pulling me in all directions. “But… she was here, Sam…” I whispered, my voice hoarse. I pulled my knees into my chest, rocking slightly back and forth. “She was here and she held me and sang to me and she told me she loved me and she was here she can’t be gone no she can’t be gone she can’t be gone…” I rocked quietly back and forth, hugging my knees to my chest.

"Sam, please… she can’t be gone," I whispered, my voice breaking. 

[noxx-samara]

At that moment I no longer cared about the pocket watch, I knew what I was about to make Levi realize would hurt a lot more than if I stabbed him with the blade. I took the blade back but I didn't place it back into my pocket, instead I placed it on the floor and sat beside him as he rocked back and forth. I didn't even pay attention to his vial of poison. We couldn't move on, we couldn't plan without making sure Levi was in his right mind.

Shit. I had not only seen that position before but I had been in that same position too many times for my own good. I closed my eyes and let out a sight before hugging him. "I'm sorry, Levi."was all I manage to crock at first. For a few seconds I held him there and pull back and began explaining everything to me.

"I want you to know that I know exactly what you are going through. For the past nine years of my life I have spent my days talking, playing with my dead brother because just like you, I didn't want to let go. I was living a lie. Remember back in the training center when I told you why I play sports and games and you told me why you made people smile. It's happening again to you, you want to keep Starling close to you so bad that you made up that she is here. I don't doubt you saw her, I don't doubt she sang to you. I don't doubt it because I have felt, seen, played with my brother but the thing is, it's not real. It feels so real and so good you don't want it to stop but eventually you get caught up in that made up world that you forget about what truly matters in the real one."I said my own voice breaking as well. "she's not gone. She'll live on in your heart but don't think she's alive, because she is not. She's with your father and my brother."my last words broke and I just hugged him tightly not only to comfort him but myself.

[levisjokebook]

Beacon of Hope || Savi || Arena Day 1

[levisjokebook]

  My eyes widened at the sight of the blade. “It’s fantastic,” I said, grinning. “Would you mind if I held onto it for a while?” I asked, taking it in my hand. She swung the bat and I grinned. “You’d probably deal better with it than me but I don’t really want to let it go, it’s the only weapon I have,” I admitted. “But if I’m gone… make sure you grab it. Don’t let whoever killed me have it.” 

"Alright, alright," I admitted, chuckling still. I paused as she did, taking my hand. I looked up into her eyes with a knowing little grin. Of course she thought Star was gone, she hadn’t watched her soothe me and sing me to sleep last night. Silly Sam. "Sure she isn’t," I said. "She’s just off keeping watch. I thought she was gone but she was here last night. You even said, she wouldn’t ever leave me," I added with a little smile as I went back to my pack.

I didn’t want to ask anything more. I shuddered at the thought of what she might’ve done. Ara was in orange too, I saw Shamus in orange… shit, this was scary. God only knows what they’d already done. Or what the Gamemakers planned to do. “We should see about getting that orange camouflaged,” I thought aloud. “A little bright for my taste.”

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I open my mouth to protest but by the time i was about to say something it was already out of my hand. I just nodded. "didn't even wait for my reply but okay. Go ahead, take it. Not much use to me."I said with a shrug as I let the bat fall beside him. Taking out both my remaining weapons, my gun and machete. "it's okay, I'm set to go. We both have two weapons so we'll be okay."I added placing my weapons back into their corresponding places. 

I slowly stood up knowing that this had gotten way too far and I had to pull him back at any cost before it cost him his life. "Levi, listen to me. She's dead. She's not here with you physically. What I meant was mentally. I'm sorry but Starling is not here to comfort you. She's. Gone and she is not coming back. I looked at her body in that building, trust me, she's gone."I would do anything to bring back Levi from this made up dream he had come up with. I had done the same thing and looked where it had gotten me. It would hurt like hell, because I remember how much it had hurt when I realize that Mark was not there with me like I had believed but it was better to be hurt now than live a lie.

I looked down at my orange jump suite, he was right, it was too bright. It was even bright with my dark shades on I couldn't imagine how bright it was to the naked eye. I looked at him and than at mine. "unless you plan to make me roll in the mud I don't think we can camouflage it."

[levisjokebook]

Beacon of Hope || Savi || Arena Day 1

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  "That’s all we can be thankful for," I said quietly. "Uh… I’m good with agility. I’m a slippery little thing. I’m kinda hard to catch though you wouldn’t know it from my getting pinned down by Ara like that. I’m decent with this bat, I guess. I have good accuracy but I don’t have anything to use for that." I shrugged.

I stuck my tongue out as she suggested healthy food. “Okay, okay,” I agreed, chuckling. “But this is just so goooooooooood,” I added dramatically. “We should save some for Star when she comes back,” I added offhand, putting some back in the bag. 

"Revenge?" I asked, raising my brow. "I didn’t do much, I just threw some knives and showed my accuracy. It’s decent." I said, knowing my score reflected what I could do. 

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I immediately took off the backpack of my back and looked through it as he told me what he was good at. We needed to work with weapons we could actually use. Taking out the switchblade which still had my blood on it and I flipped it on open. "would this be good enough for your accuracy?"I asked with a small smile. Grabbing the bat I swung it around. "I played a bit of baseball before."I added with a smirk. 

I let out another small laugh when he went all drama queen on me. "I didn't say we couldn't eat it, I just said we need our proteins. Plus we only have five water bottles left and we don't know how long we are going to be in this-"I stopped immediately when he mention saving some for Starling. I froze and closed my eyes. I begged that he wouldn't end like me, crazy. I open my eyes and put my hands on his as he began placing the food into the bag making him stop. "Levi. Starling is no longer here, remember?"the last thing I needed for was Levi through going threw the same thing I had been going through for the past nine years of my life. Pretending someone was there just to make me feel better.

"for what they did to me."I replied, I wasn't really going to go into detail of what I did in there so I would just leave it at there. "I guess they place the ones that misbehave and went over board in their private training in orange jump suites. 

[levisjokebook]

Beacon of Hope || Savi || Arena Day 1

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  I nodded, looking up at her. “I know… we’re just as safe as we could get I guess.” I agreed that we needed to move, but where? We’d heard a scream and explosion from the next building, now there was a fire in the cell block where Sam thought Star had died. 

She smirked as I ate and I turned to her, my mouth full. “Whaaat? I’m a teenaged boy! My stomach never ends!” I swallowed the sweet puffy cloud of candy and grinned. Her wound looked alright and I chewed my lip. “Put some fresh wrap over it and hope for the best. We’ll have to continue moving and see what happens, if we find something good.” I was thankful now that all I had were broken ribs. 

"Maybe it has to do with private training?" I pondered. "What did you do? Anything out of the ordinary?"

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I nodded. It was true, we had manage to get some rest and eat without getting bother and as far as I could see no one was near us. "we're safe--for now."was all I responded. Both of us had manage to get into a fight within the hour of the games, I wonder how long our luck would last before we ran into someone else. "Just for future reference; what's your forte?"just so I knew what he had to offer if we ever got into a fight.

A small laugh left my lips as I stared at him eat his cotton candy. "I'm a teenage jock girl, trust me, I know."I said rolling my eyes but again I remember he couldn't see my eyes. It was honestly aggravating, usually I liked to see people in the end now I couldn't even do that. "next time we are eating something healthy."I added knowing I wasn't use to the sweet stuff we had eaten today. I needed something else other than sweet candy to work off. Standing up I wrap some fresh wrap over my injury and place my shirt back on. My muscles were just stiff and I needed to do some moving around.

Zipping up the bag I sling it over my shoulders and look down at Levi offering him my hand so he can get up. "I got revenge, you can say. What about you?"

[levisjokebook]

Beacon of Hope || Savi || Arena Day 1

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  She leaned her head on my shoulder and I held her for a minute. I missed holding Star like this but something about Sam was like hugging an old friend, more how I felt when I snuggled Etta up in my arms. She had been through so much this week. 

I nodded. “Okay, it was just a dream, remember. It’s not real.” I smiled at her, taking another bite and drinking some water. Before long, I’d finished the corn dog and was faced with the idea of having to move. I let out a sigh. “I don’t know… we should get moving, I know that, but I just like being here, you know? It feels somewhat safer.”

I leaned over and pulled the cotton candy from my pack and took a bite of it, the sugary sweet flavour exploding over my tongue. Not healthy, but pretty good, and I offered some to Sam. “We should get going for sure. We should get ourselves organized and check the dressing on your wound again first though, just in case we find trouble.”

As I looked to her side, something piqued my interest. “Hey… why are you in orange? Come to think of it, Ara was in orange too… Star and I are in blue, Blair was as well… does it mean something?”

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It's not real. That was all I kept repeating to myself as I slowly rolled up the sleeping up to place back into my bag. It wasn't real but it felt so real that I could still feel the heat of the flames, hear the screams of Mark. It was like it had actually happen but I kept repeating, 'its' not real', until I made myself believe that it wasn't. Though it didn't drive away the shivers that crawl up my skin every time I thought of it. I nodded and drop that subject of my dream.

I stood up and looked at him, my arms crossing over my chest. "we're in the hunger games, Levi. No where is safe."I responded biting my lip. I really felt expose out here in the open, the only thing hiding us from being seen was the trees around us but anyone could easily find us here and in the state Levi was in I didn't feel like fighting someone. 

I couldn't help but crack a smile when after we had just finish eating a corn dog Levi pulled out cotton candy and began eating it. He seemed to be enjoying it so much that I could object when he offer me some. Taking a bit of it I placed it in my mouth and slowly savor it. It was sweet and it felt strange in my rough tongue. "you seemed to have woken up with  quite the appetite."I teased him as I lifted my shirt and took off the 'dressing' off my wound. The bleeding had stopped but the wound was still there, open for anything to come in. I let out a sight. "do you think it can get infected?"I prefer die in the hands of someone than by an infection. 

I hadn't really paid any attention to our clothing until now. I looked at mine which were orange and than to his which were blue. It was quite odd to be honest and at first I thought it was split between sexes but that idea got knocked out when he said Starling had been in blue. I scratch my head trying to think of any possible reason why only a few of us would be in orange. "Honestly I have no idea. Maybe because I misbehave, though I'm sure about the others. Why are you in blue?"

[levisjokebook]

Beacon of Hope || Savi || Arena Day 1

[levisjokebook]

  She stiffened and I hestitated, but felt her soften to me and I gave her a little squeeze. I happily chewed my corn dog, knowing that Star was still here and Sam was here too. 

I nodded. “Don’t want to talk about it?” Suddenly I was transported back to the night before the kidnapping, when I soothed Etta after her dream. I kept my arm protectively around Sam’s shoulders, figuring she needed the support.

"I wouldn’t be so sure… there was no note. The sponsors usually leave notes." I shrugged. "Either way, I’m happy. I think we could move soon, yes. I don’t know where to go though… you never know where people are gonna be, y’know?" I looked over to the flames and stifled a chuckle. "Looks like it."

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Eventually after a while I lean into his arm. I wasn't sure what I would be doing if I was all alone, hunting people down or just wallowing my sorrow? Levi seemed a bit more cheer up than I expected, I mean not just twelve hours ago he had lost the love of his life but than again Levi had lost other people. He was a fighter and I decided to not even question his change in mood. 

He clearly didn't get my message. "No. It was nothing really, I get nightmares a lot."I did get nightmares a lot so I wasn't really lying to him. Every time I looked at Levi, Marks' face would take over and I would have to remind myself that Levi wasn't my brother. I finish my corn dog eagerly and took a gulp out of the water bottle before leaning back on to the tree to wait for him to finish his corn dog.

"maybe the sponsor just didn't feel in the mood to write a note."I shrugged along with him. Either way someone was watching over him and that was all that matter. I was glad we could move. My injury wasn't bothering me that much, it had eventually stopped bleeding at some point last night. I let out a small laugh and looked away from the smoke nudging him. "I was too busy saving your ass."I teased him with a wink but than remember he couldn't see my eyes so I just stood up and dusted myself off packing up the sleeping bag. "well that's what a game is all about. Taking chances. You never know what awaits at the other end, you just got to be prepare. So what way, Mr. Jameson?"

[levisjokebook]

Beacon of Hope || Savi || Arena Day 1

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  She jolted awake after a while and my eyes widened. She sat next to me and I wrapped an arm around her gently. Star wouldn’t mind, after all, she knew what she meant to me. Where was she, anyways? 

"Hey… are you okay?" I asked, reaching over to the backpack and pulling out the corn dogs from my bag. I opened the package, thankful they were pre-cooked. I handed her one and took a bite of my own. 

I picked up the morphling and showed her. “Look, I got a present!” I pointed to the bandage on my cheek and smiled. “Now I don’t have Ara’s artwork all over my face. The morphling helped, it hurts less now.” 

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My body stiffen as usual to his touch. Even though Levi was still someone I cared about, well the only person apart from Alex, I still didn't feel accustomed to his touch. To anyone touch but that didn't mean I didn't appreciate it and it didn't make feel better. I let out a sight and soften down a bit. He meant well and after what I had just dream I was really appreciating the hug.

Willingly taking the corn dog I begin to nibble at it as I am still in my dream, sort of. It wasn't real but it felt so real. I shook my head. "bad dream."was all I responded with a shrug, the sight that came out of my mouth clearly stated that I didn't want to talk about it. I was glad when he changed the topic other than my dreams and the voices I heard.

I forced myself to smile because I was glad. He was no longer in pain and we could move around if he wanted. "I guess the sponsor did pick you after all."I said forcing myself to continue eating the corn dog. I wasn't hungry even though my stomach was empty but I had to eat. "you look better! You think we can move. I may have forgotten to put out a fire."I said looking up towards the building which we had existed. Smoke was coming out of it and spreading all over the arena. I had totally forgotten to put out Sebastian's body, I just hopped the fire wouldn't spread like in my dream.