#arabelle writes

[arabelle-wzrd]

this meeting could’ve been an orb transmission

[arabelle-wzrd]

So I’ve been seeing a lot of posts floating around about the Wizard Council and spell regulations. Most of these posts are hate for the Wizard Council. I just want to say that lot of the posts are pretty ignorant of the reality of unregulated magic use so I’m going to clear up some of the broader misconceptions.

[arabelle-wzrd]

i hate to be that bitch but some people need to learn some goddamn respect for the council.

i’m sorry that the council deemed your magic “unethical” and cast you out you but you can’t keep calling yourself a wizard

i don’t make the rules okay

[arabelle-wzrd]

Thinking about going on a quest or something

Anybody got any good quests I could go on? Preferably pretty easy ones lol.

[arabelle-wzrd]

Do you know what it’s like to be able to do magic? To be able to think of something and have what you’re trying to articulate flow from your fingertips? Some have said that it’s like pissing. I don’t like that. Pouring a creative impulse into the world is more, well magical, than that, it deserves honour, it deserves respect. I try to honour my magic as best I can. I pay my respects to the great arcane traditions but sometimes… I don’t know. I feel like I’m not nearly enough. 

The people around me are so cool, so magical, and already so defined, so confident in who they are and what is possible, and I’m just there. Me. Ready to learn I guess but I barely even know what I need to learn. Someone I knew once told me that the first step to learning was learning how to learn which I think is pretty stupid but it might be true, it’s hard to say. I mention it because I feel like everyone around me already knows how to learn and I’m at the back of the class still struggling with that first step. Like there was some special wizard email sent out on day one and I was the only one not on the mailing list. I don’t know what I’m doing and I’m lost and confused and I tried to ask that cool green wizard for a tour but I don’t think they heard me because I can be really quiet sometimes but I’ve been too nervous to ask anyone else since, let alone Mx. Newton, and I know I’m freaking out over nothing but it still. I need to breathe. I need to resettle my emotions. 

There is a glass of water. It is full of sand, all dancing in there like one thousand little sparkling faeries. And one by one they slow down and settle to the bottom of the glass. I wait, I breathe.

I asked for a quest. I received one. I’ll go do it. Hopefully that’ll get my mind off things before my next class. Ugh, it doesn’t feel very wizardly but I guess I’ll go get an orange from the grocery store.

[arabelle-wzrd]

some wizards (and i’m not going to name names) but some wizards really need to learn a respect for their superiors

[arabelle-wzrd]

Early days. I hate early days. Waking up at a time that even the gods would find offensive. Not that I’ve ever been quite devout enough to take what they find to be offensive into consideration. I have yet to make any real friends at the academy. I suppose the only way to make friends would be to actually start approaching people but I’m scared. Everyone here is so cool and magical. I’m just me. I can barely do any magic, let alone understand what I’m doing. I guess that’s why I’m here. That’s why we’re all here.