Muzzle (Part 4)
Masterlist. Janiya.
Worse Than It Looks.
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Janiya knew the moment Rita had figured out what the muzzle was, because her grumbling cut out and her eyes went very wide.
Janiya tightened her grip on the muzzle, giving Rita a flat look so that the werewolf would stop trying to tear it off.
The stabbing pain had only intensified, waves of fire brushing across her face, and it took all of Janiya’s self-control to keep her tears from spilling.
Not here, the panic in her mind screamed, not in front of them.
Ivy moved to block Ash’s view as Rita tugged Janiya to face her, inspecting the muzzle for any sign of how to get the pincers out. Janiya watched Ivy out of the corner of her eye – she didn’t know what was wrong with Ash, but she could sense the tension.
What did it matter? They never told her anything useful. Even when she had been pack, she had never really been one of them.
The part inside of her that had clenched in…not fear, exactly, but something close when she’d stumbled out of the warehouse to see Gavin, coiled tighter.
When the car rolled to a stop, Janiya was almost relieved. The tension had seethed around them, five people who weren’t saying a word, and when the car doors opened, the strain eased.
And then Janiya caught sight of home – house, it was just a house now, she’d lost what little claim she’d had – and the tension eeled right back up her spine.
She didn’t want to be back here. She didn’t want Gavin hovering over her with wide eyes or Darin trying to examine her wounds or their looks – she could see them, she was mute not blind, she could tell what pity looked like, could see that they felt sorry for her in the way they moved out of her path and stayed silent.
“Where?” Gavin asked, his eyes hard, “Where are the latches?” Janiya pointed them out, the eleven throbbing points of pain across her face as she held the muzzle up. And then went still as conversations cut out all across the room.
Ash was back. He moved like he was ready to tear apart anything that stood in his path and Janiya flinched back when he crouched in front of her.
He was careful, gentle, as he turned her face to examine the muzzle from all sides, but he wasn’t looking at her. Janiya wasn’t sure whether or not he even registered her presence.
“It’s Raklive make,” Ash said, with the tone of someone who knew this intimately. Janiya’s breathing had turned shallow and her gaze was locked with the hollowness of his eyes.
“Do you know how to remove it?” Gavin asked.
“It can’t be removed,” Ash said, straightening up. He looked lost. He looked afraid. He looked angry. “They didn’t design their toys to have an off switch.”
Janiya sucked in a sharp breath – what did he mean it couldn’t be removed, it had to be removed, Janiya was not spending the rest of her life with a piece of metal stuck to her face –
“How did you get yours off?” Darin asked.
Ash met her gaze and his fingers drifted up to brush his cheek.
“I ripped it off,” he said harshly, before he turned and walked out of the room.
Janiya’s fingers immediately tightened on her own muzzle, though thankfully no one looked ready to follow through on his strategy. She wasn’t a werewolf and she didn’t have supernatural healing. If they tore the muzzle off, several chunks of her face would go with it.
There was a long, stunned moment of silence before the room erupted into noise.
Janiya winced, pressing back further into the couch cushions as Darin began arguing with Gavin, Ivy starting to propose increasingly unlikely ideas for getting the muzzle off. Rita’s face was a storm cloud, and Fei went after Ash. The arguing, the noise, all of it was grating on Janiya’s last nerve.
The anger rose up, the seething, searing hatred that had coalesced when she sat down in her apartment and stared at four walls and thought ‘this is it’. She wasn’t a child. She wasn’t ignorant. She knew that monsters stalked the night.
She had runes carved into her threshold. A bread knife made of silver. Blessings carved into the water tank. She knew how to read the news to find the cover-ups underneath the headlines, and how to listen for the hints of the otherworldly in rumors and gossip.
And if some uppity bunch of werewolves hadn’t decided she would be great collateral against her old pack, she wouldn’t be in this mess.
She snapped her fingers, not pausing until Gavin turned towards her, frowning. She mimed writing and gave him her best glare.
“Sorry, Janiya,” his face twisted, “I’ll get you something to write on.” The arguments died down but the hissed conversations continued and Janiya’s mood grew darker. She snatched the pad and pen when Gavin returned, and started to write, fast and blocky and furious.
‘Stop. Stop arguing. It isn’t helping.’
“Janiya,” Gavin sighed, reading as she wrote, “We need to figure out a way to get it off of you. Be patient.”
‘No’ – and the pen almost tore through paper. ‘You don’t need to do anything. Give me a ride back to the city.’
“Janiya,” Gavin’s voice was lower. Darker. “We’re not leaving you like this.”
‘Like you give a damn what happens to me. I’m not pack.’ Janiya underlined that last sentence twice. ‘I don’t want to stay here. Let me go.’
“No.” And that tone was hard and flat and not what Janiya expected and she glanced up from the paper, stunned. Gavin was staring at her, arms crossed, jaw set, eyes stormy. She could see a hint of fangs.
‘LET. ME. LEAVE.’
“Not until we get that off your face,” Gavin said, his tone not brooking any form of disagreement.
Janiya breathed, in and out, until the urge to rip Gavin’s face off had subsided. They couldn’t get it off. Ash had made that clear. And she would rather go to a hospital than stay here, in a home she couldn’t have, surrounded by a pack that didn’t want her, and be forced to accept the scraps of care offered out of a sense of moral responsibility.
It was their fault she had the muzzle on her face. She did not want to sit here, defenseless, in the midst of people who despised her, and wait for the other shoe to drop.
She tugged the pad closer and began writing furiously, ignoring the way the pen skidded. The muzzle was heavy in her hand and she bowed her head to support her elbow on her knee as she wrote.
When she was done, she ripped the paper off, straightened, and slapped the note against Gavin’s chest before spinning on her heel and heading for the door.
‘I said no. I’m not in your pack, you’ve made that abundantly clear. I don’t want your pity, nor am I going to beg for scraps from your table. You are, in fact, the reason I have a piece of metal fixed to my face.
You made your decision. Don’t walk it back because you feel sorry for me. I’ve managed perfectly fine before I met you all, and I managed perfectly fine after you left. Don’t delude yourself into thinking you’re a hero.
If you won’t give me a ride back to the city, fine. I’m leaving.’
Janiya was almost to the door when Gavin’s voice cut through the tense silence. “Stop her,” he said quietly and Janiya snarled inside her head when her path was barred by Rita.
Glaring didn’t set the werewolf on fire, and Janiya submitted with bad grace as Rita pushed her back to the couch.
Gavin was still reading, his face blank except for the tic pulsing at his jaw. He took his time and Janiya crossed her left arm to support her right elbow as she held the muzzle up, her teeth grinding together.
Finally, he looked up and Janiya actually stepped back at the rage in his eyes. He crumpled the note in his hands.
“You are not leaving,” he said, the low volume doing absolutely nothing to hide that this was his alpha growl, “You are staying here until we get that muzzle off your face. Is that clear.”
Janiya wasn’t a werewolf, but she still felt the urge to bare her neck in the face of his anger. She swallowed that urge, her fingers tightening into a shaking fist, and jerked her shoulders.
If he really wanted to keep her here, she didn’t have a choice.
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TBC.














