#arch yaps

[archesphyre]

Tadc spoiler warning!

Say what you will about how Jax is written just overall but I genuinely feel it's undeniable that as of right now, she is the best representation of the experience of a transgender person in like any popular media. I know that a lot of people complained about the shows writing n shit and like whatever, I liked tadc, maybe I have bad taste in shows, maybe the internet is just finding something to hate again. The whole point of jax's character is that she's SUPPOSED to be unlikable. She's fucking miserable, like no shit she's gonna be a terrible person, hell I was the same way before I transitioned. I think it's so important to have that kind of representation. I also think Caine is very important, he's very autism-coded. I also just happen to like him a lot don't bash me

[archesphyre]

Kinda bad photos of a toad I found. I saved him before the dog tried to eat him lol. Phrog.

Here's an extra one I edited lol

I did it on my phone so it's kinda shitty, but ig it adds something.

I'm not in the Kaiju paradise community anymore(too toxic for me), but I'll always love NC and Faceless. Faceless is so underrated. Beautiful creature.

I like to think that some of the traxians would be super curious about natural animals since the lack of them at Laminax. I think that since infection only seems to be compatible with humans, they don't have the instincts to attack/eat animals, so maybe even something as murderous as NC would just hold phrog gently and stare at it. One of the creatures of all time with other creature of all time perfect yes very.

The old hyperfixation is coming back around (I'm calling the gootrax/raytrax traxians since that's what I call em in my fanfic). I'm in the fandom I just don't interact with the game or community in general since the ppl there kinda suck. And the anti-freakiness there is BAD, even outside the game and the server.

[archesphyre]

I'm staring at the wall like a goldfish at the back of its aquarium because it's slightly too warm in here but this is the coldest room in the house and my stomach hurts slightly, but in a lactose intolerant kind of way that I feel whenever I eat a bowl of ice cream, and I dont know how to feel about it. I'm just occasionally involuntarily twitching as my gnat brain figures out what to do.

Are you ever afraid that a word that you don't use often is actually a slur when you thought it meant something else. I can see gnat being a slur, it sounds like one I don't know why, but I'm pretty sure it's just a fruit fly. My anxiety is being shitty right now.

I don't feel fully sentient but not in a good way but not in a bad way either, I stress from doing people things. Huh. It's not that I'm not thinking but that I'm just not normal thinking. Like the kind of thinking I did when I was little, just letting things happen to me without thinking about the meaning behind them or what people really say to me. Is that just a lack of stress? Like I'm thinking but I don't care about my thoughts really, but not in a way that's a genuine "meh it's fine", more of just a "I haven't developed the mental capacity to realize I should worry about or deal with this problem"

I feel like I'm a little kid again but I have the ability to type. My brain feels the same way it used to. My tummy hurts. Hm. I'm not hungry. That's weird I'm usually hungry. I'm not tired either. I just exist. Huh.