2nd January'15 // 01:46PM
I'm sick. I know I'm sick. But not the sick sick. Idk my head feels bad. I feel bad. And I just lay here in bed always. I want to sleep all, day all night. I don't know what to feel. I want to get up. I want to run, literally yes. But I don't want to run over our place. I want to run somewhere far where people won't question you. And I don't even know how will I say that to people in the house. They will be asking me where I'm heading and I just couldn't answer "anywhere far" cause that is so vague. And I can't escape walking at night too cause its not safe here and I most probably won't find myself walking cause I'll be staring at the sky looking for the moon. And I'm so tired to stare dumb and feel numb. I want something new to happen, I want to feel something. I want to feel change. Does that sound so over dreaming?