#imsadagain

[canadaalbin]

i'll never be able to forgive myself for hating who i am this much.

the bad days 

[mrswheelerjr-blog]

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[topflr]

I haven't wanted to change for the better, more than I do now.

mildseoul

[we-find-balance]

Souls dying

My soul seems to be dying friends Dying each day I miss it The feeling of belonging The feeling of comfort The feeling of happiness But it's dying Dying each day I sit and pretend everything is okay Even when it's not I sit and sing along To everyone's favorite songs I sit and make jokes To see everyone smile So they cannot see What is consuming me I sit here and ponder the world And how it would coexist without me How easy things would then be To set my soul free Free to wander the earth without a body Free to ghostly watch those around me Free from the pain and neglect Just to be free Not the type of freedom they write about It's the type that has a real peace It is the type of no return So then you constantly question Is it right? Or wrong? But we do not know the answer Because we do not know what is next So I sit and ponder How the world would coexist Without my being on the list But I am dying my friends No matter who is here to support me No matter who is here to talk I am alone and dying, and it won't stop It's like a sickness that spreads A plague that consumes your mind And soul Small things will leave me broken A comment A gesture A rule Will set me off in flames And I'm losing it Falling to pieces because I do not know How to explain this torment Because it grows within me Unraveling the walls I have built I am now trapped I am now controlled I now feel death And it scares me But along with the fear comes comfort Comfort that I welcome and push away The death that threatens to stay Some may understand what I am saying The feeling of giving up To just ending it all But then the feeling of guilt Or even fear Making you a coward Because you can't even do it Just like he had said I am a coward For some reason we are told We are strong for surviving each day To just say the day went is enough But my soul is dying friends Because it is confined and molded To being something it's not supposed to And it's killing me But sadly... It is so... That I welcome death.

[thingsillneversaaay]

2nd January'15 // 01:46PM

I'm sick. I know I'm sick. But not the sick sick. Idk my head feels bad. I feel bad. And I just lay here in bed always. I want to sleep all, day all night. I don't know what to feel. I want to get up. I want to run, literally yes. But I don't want to run over our place. I want to run somewhere far where people won't question you. And I don't even know how will I say that to people in the house. They will be asking me where I'm heading and I just couldn't answer "anywhere far" cause that is so vague. And I can't escape walking at night too cause its not safe here and I most probably won't find myself walking cause I'll be staring at the sky looking for the moon. And I'm so tired to stare dumb and feel numb. I want something new to happen, I want to feel something. I want to feel change. Does that sound so over dreaming?

[tesisthebest]

Fuck feelings.

[eternal-mindfucckkk]

The way I flex from great moods to horrifically bad mood probably isn't healthy.