Istg life is worth living again. Trust the power of manifestation (basically shifting) because I’m literally seeing one of my celebrity crushes (he asked me out for a coffee date in one of my realities OUT OF NOWHERE btw, just for the record ☝🏻 I had no crush at him before this date, maybe a little?) in VIP. By some 'miracle' the site opened right before the official time, I got my ticket so easily and the whole site crashed right after. When my friend said "What if we can't get VIP?" I interrupted her and said we'd shift to the reality that we did get VIP. At first, I couldn't believe it and I struggled to process it, it still feels like a dream. I didn't expect it to be this easy, especially since my hands were literally shaking while buying those tickets! But deep down, I already knew I would get it with ease, the excitement was just pure adrenaline. I'm just saying, we truly write our own lives and live them out. This is exactly what life feels like right now:
°❀⋆.ೃ࿔*:・ I don't know what it was holyfckinairball but success story °❀⋆.ೃ࿔*:・ / shifting / oobe ?
I finally feel like I’ve processed (well… not really 😭) what I experienced, so I wanted to share this milestone in my shifting journey. A turning point? A moment where I became sure shifting is real? My actual shift? I don’t know. I honestly don’t know what it was but whatever it was, it was real. Lucid dream, sleep paralysis, OOBE, astral projection, shifting? I believe it was shifting because it felt too real. No, because it was real.
Yesterday I mentioned how I’d been receiving messages a lot about shifting, and right after that.. something really strange happened.
First of all, I’ll share my method separately, but what I did yesterday was simply set my intention. I couldn’t sleep, and I really wanted to because I had to wake up early. I was so done at that point, everything was just too annoying. So I just told myself: “I’m going to shift no matter what. Just sleep.” And then I thought I fell asleep.
For the record, I always get astral projection signs when I try to shift, and it happened again. My ears felt pressure, my chest felt like it was floating, even my gums were under pressure. It was SO intense and I was panicking, because it felt too real. Every time this happened before, I’d wake up in my body because I couldn’t stay calm. So this time, after I felt the signs, I reminded myself to keep going.
I don’t know what happened, but I think I astral projected? I literally felt my arm rising, it lifted up, like really lifted. I even thought, “What if someone walks in and sees me like this??” Because my arm was up. It probably wasn’t even my physical body lol, but I swear, everything started spinning. I was spinning, like in a spiral, it felt like I was leaving the couch spinning. I don’t mean those intentional spins people do for signs, I was actually spinning.
I ended up in front of the couch, and I knew that if I looked up, I’d see myself. But I was scared, so I tried to calm myself down. Everything was black and white and extremely blurry, I couldn’t feel comfortable. I felt suffocated, trapped, like I was hearing sounds. It was almost like a panic attack. My vision looked like a grainy photo or a static TV screen. (like the gif I put)
I kept reminding myself, “You’re astralling right now. Just make a portal and shift!” But again, I was so scared and overwhelmed. I wanted to reach my s/o, so I tried to see them. But I couldn’t move, so I reminded myself again that I needed to shift. Yet everything felt so real that I stopped myself, I thought, “I can’t shift into my DR. Not there.” Because my DR is a mafia universe, and I was already scared out of my mind 😭 I was like, “Okay? Just make a portal or something??”
I thought about my s/o and I was like, “Wait… isn’t this how it works? Can’t I just go there if I think about it?” But sadly, it wasn’t enough, I felt like I was stuck in between, like I was both feeling my physical body and experiencing something outside of it at the same time. (but not exactly feeling my physical body, only the astral projection signs)
Then I told myself that I was “Lucy” (which isn’t even my DR name, I’d never had that name before 😭), and that I needed to go to another DR, my high school DR. Because my mafia DR was already too scary to shift into. Then I felt a pillow under my face, but it wasn’t my pillow, it felt like someone else’s arm was under my head instead. I was still panicking. (I was Lucy after shifting to my high school DR, probably?)
Then I told myself I was going to shift no matter where, and suddenly, I was somewhere else. My vision was insanely blurry (but with colors), like I was looking through frosted glass. My mom and her friend were talking and asked me something, but I was basically having a panic attack. I was there in first-person, not third. They were sitting in a kitchen/balcony area. When I walked away, I heard them say behind me, “She’s been like this ever since that happened.” (I think it was about losing my father?)
It was a completely different house. I had two brothers, I was sure one of them was my brother, but I wasn’t sure about the other. I ran out of the kitchen/balcony area saying I was going to the bathroom. I looked in the mirror, my hands were on the sink, and my face was mostly mine, with a few small differences. I saw myself in the mirror, but everything was extremely blurry.
I tried to calm myself down, it was all too real and overwhelming, so I told myself I wanted to go back. And I did. I came back because I thought I couldn’t go back, and because I wasn’t ready to fully let go of this reality.
I experienced all of this in first person, not like I was watching it happen. It was way too realistic to be a dream, I felt all that pressure. I’ve never had a lucid dream before. My dreams do get more vivid when I try to shift, but even then, I only see events, not myself. This wasn’t a dream. It was real. And it was something I was honestly scared of because of how real it was. It was so real that it overwhelmed me.
So… has anyone else experienced something like this? Or did I actually shift completely for the first time, but without grounding myself?
༻ੈ✩welcome to my little corner of the multiverse༻ੈ✩
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a shifter, tarot reader, theta healer, spiritual person and thinker who loves exploring the space between consciousness and reality. also pharmacist in her cr. here i share my own theories, experiences and reflections about shifting, awareness, and the deeper layers of the mind. this blog is entirely based on my personal thoughts and journey.
if you’re someone who questions, feels, and believes all at once, you’ll probably feel at home here (i hope so? this is a safe place for every shifter/manifestor)
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i’ve been on this journey for a while now and have already manifested many things, even physical appearance changes, so i’m super excited to connect with others who are walking a similar path!
and if you have any questions feel free to use my ask box! (as long as i'm comfortable answering, of course) i'm trying to help as much as i can!
but i don't want people to think like i'm super powerful, full of knowledge or anything like that I'm some kind of guru. i'm just a girl on her own journey like everyone else, learning, searching everything and sharing her experiences and theories along the way!
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some of my posts
☽ The Non-Existence of "OR" & The Quantum Consciousness Theory of Shifting
☽ proof of "everything is connected" (I just LOOVEEE how everything is connected!!)
☽ my first shift (I don't know what it was holyfckinairball but success story / shifting / oobe)
☽ my first lucid dream experience and second shift (First Lucid Dream Experience°❀⋆.ೃ࿔*:・ (connecting to shifting))
☽ what changed — and how I finally made REAL progress (shifted) in my shifting journey after 5 years (and what you can do too)
☽ if you keep waking up in your "CR", here’s what you can try
☽ connection appreciation post
☽ little reminder / shifting motivation
☽ my friend's shifting experience (How my friend shifted without even knowing she shifted)
☽ but what I’m scared of is that I feel like once I shift successfully it will be as if I’m not in the „real” reality.
☽ I was wondering if you had any advice for limiting beliefs/doubts?
☽ what appearance changes have you manifested?
☽ do you have any advice on intrusive thoughts?
☽ I have this conflict between spiritual and rational, logic and belief! for rollercoaster shifting journey!
☽ thoughts on twinflames
☽ how do we know it’s shifting and not lucid dreaming
☽ void state
☽ about letting go
☽ how to shift to your dr from lucid dream
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tags:
#ariaisanswering (answers for asks / yapping)
#ariashiftingjournal (journal about shifting / success)
#ariasigns (journaling and counting about signs)
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you don’t have to agree with everything I say, some parts might not fully click for you, and that’s okay! you don’t have to believe every single word. what matters is how you interpret and use what i share according to your own beliefs. (you don't even have to use them or interpret at all!) i can only offer what i’ve experienced and what i believe, it’s up to you to make it your own.
°❀⋆.ೃ࿔*:・my weirdest lucid experience (so far) (connecting to shifting)°❀⋆.ೃ࿔*:・
I have absolutely no idea what happened, but something super weird happened last night, a new shifting and lucid dream experience (applause) (And honestly, I finally understand why people confuse lucid dreaming and shifting at some point. I’ll talk more about that in another post when I have the energy to write it all down. You actually can tell the difference, but for someone who doesn’t know about shifting, it can really feel like a lucid dream sometimes.)
Okay, so basically, I realized I was lucid, but it felt like the version of me inside the dream was the one who became lucid. I remember thinking, “Oh wait, I’m lucid dreaming.” (I don’t remember if I looked at my hand or poked it in the first or second lucid dream, but I did it at some point, I’ll get to that later.)
Anyway, I tried so hard to hold onto the dream. I was like, “Okay, you’re lucid dreaming. Don’t wake up, stay in that state.”
And when I realized I was lucid, I shifted, but again, it felt like the me inside the dream was the one who shifted. It was like there was a layer between my consciousness and myself.
That part was basically the dream becoming lucid. Honestly, I think this happened because I was extremely tired. That “layer” probably appeared because I was only half-aware of the dream part.
(And to be honest, the things I experienced have started to shake what I believe, like becoming aware of only one consciousness. But that’s a topic for another time, once I can actually make sense of it myself.)
The only problem is, I don’t know where I ended up. I remember thinking about my main dr, so I guess I shifted there, but it was slightly different? I usually focus on my dr bedroom, but I ended up somewhere that looked like an airport. (It was an airport)
I think I came out of a bathroom first, but I don’t remember clearly, my mind was foggy. Then I saw my s/o walking in front of me. He was really short (lmao I think puberty didn’t hit him yet) and I said “Hug me” because I was trying to ground myself there. Don’t judge me.
He looked a bit confused (probably because we were walking, maybe trying to catch a flight, and I was just like “hug me” out of nowhere, we weren’t even dating, hello?) but he said “Okay” and hugged me.
I still remember his expression so well (it was funny seeing him like that, If I can find a gif with the same facial expression I'll add it); he was like, “What the hell are you talking about out of nowhere?” It was short, maybe around 10 seconds, but I was there for a while.
I hugged him to ground myself until I stopped feeling disoriented, but my mind was wandering, thinking, this isn’t fully my dr.
I could feel the fabric of his shirt gathered under my hands, and I kind of knew it wasn’t exactly my dr, but he was there, he looked confused too.
I don’t know where we were exactly, but remember when I said I came out of a bathroom? It was a public restroom, and he was carrying luggage. So it was probably an airport.
I remember thinking, “He doesn’t look like this in my dr” because everything felt a bit off.
I even thought about texting Hana (If you don’t know her account, please check it out! She’s super sweet and I love her shifting stories 💕 @hanashin). One of my first thoughts after realizing I shifted was literally telling her about it..
I was thinking, but it also felt like the dream version of me was the one thinking.
I’ve been stuck between my lucid dream consciousness and my waking one (cr) before, and even between my astral state and waking state, but I’d never been between my lucid self and my shifted self (but here we are)
I don’t like using the word “stuck,” but it’s the only way I can describe it. It’s not like being trapped, more like being aware of both sides at once. (Please don’t imagine it like I’m carrying something between them, that’s not what I mean at all).
So yeah, I guess the best way (?) to explain this is that I was between my lucid self’s awareness and my shifted self’s awareness, not my current reality one. (Again, not stuck, just describing the situation.)
Now, I don’t remember the shifting part very clearly (because I was trying to ground myself and that was all I think about), but I remember still hugging him and suddenly saying, kind of panicking, “I’m going.” He looked so confused, like, “Where?” (or maybe he just frowned, not understanding, I’m not sure. He probably thought I was insane? Because girl, you're not going anywhere? I feel embarrassed).
Honestly, I don’t even know why I said that. I just knew my awareness was about to fade and go back into the lucid state. The version of me there was going to continue living normally; she wasn’t “going” anywhere.
But yeah.. I said it. He probably thought I lost my mind and started checking on me every few seconds.
Then I told him, “I’m gonna come back and explain everything,” (Please stop embarrassing yourself) and he said, “Okay okay” (I hope I went to restroom after saying this) Then I slipped back into the dream, and when I woke up, I had this heavy feeling in my chest.
I think because I couldn’t focus properly on my dr, I ended up shifting somewhere my s/o existed instead.
But it was crowded, and I struggled a lot to ground myself, you know that feeling when you're overstimulating when you're in public, that's how I felt. I couldn’t control it.
It was lucid-like; I was fighting to stay aware, like I was battling myself. But I was fighting to stay in lucid state, that's why I couldn't properly shift there.
I was there maybe for 10 seconds after shifting, trying to ground myself, but it still felt foggy. Then I think I melted again or slipped out of my shell? (I don’t even know how to explain that, it wasn’t like a physical shell.)
I remember poking my hand to check if I was still lucid, but it honestly felt like layers, like a dream within a dream after shifting.
According to my cr time, it lasted about two hours, like 1 hour 56 minutes or something.
I think I couldn’t ground because I was speaking (or maybe thinking) in my native language, or maybe because it wasn’t the exact reality I intended to shift to.
Because whenever I say “I wanna shift to my dr” in a lucid state, I usually end up coming back.
To be honest, I might not have become fully aware because I was so tired.
When I went back to a place that looked like a shopping mall (after shifting and “coming back,” I didn’t wake up immediately, I just kept dreaming), I thought, “Oh right, I was gonna change this and then shift back.”
(It was something I wanted to change in my cr, but to explain it simply, that shopping mall-type place was my cr.)
Then I thought, “What if it’s already changed?”
Then “What if it’s not? Should I check?”
But I told myself, “If you know it’s changed, you don’t need to check. You don’t check what you already know.”
(The “wish fulfilled” concept hit so real at that moment.)
After telling myself that, I felt this incredible sense of peace inside me, just knowing it was already done.
Somewhere in between (I don’t know if it was before or after shifting), I pinched myself. I felt the pain, it was on my right wrist, a bit higher up, and my s/o saw it and said, “What’s going on?”
(I ignored him because I was trying to ground myself.)
But at some points, it felt like I was watching everything from the outside, like an observer.
It was super weird, like I couldn’t completely get out of the lucid state because I was trying too hard to stay in it, while also shifting and staying between lucid and shifted states.
I don’t know how to explain it, but I still wanted to tell the whole story.
Even though I could tell what was happening, it was the first time I couldn’t figure out for a while if what I experienced was a lucid dream or an ungrounded shift.
My awareness slipped so easily that my lucid self felt like the version of me in my cr, like I had shifted into that cr and come back from it? It was honestly too complicated to explain.
Even if it was weird, I honestly enjoyed it, a lot, actually.
And it’s all part of the process! I realized my method works wonders for me, even when I’m tired as hell.
I really love enjoying the process and experiencing things that challenge what I believe.
I'm gonna try oobe next time instead of lucid because my awareness slips much easier in lucid..
°❀⋆.ೃ࿔*:・my dream to shift to lucid dream experience°❀⋆.ೃ࿔*:・
I've been trying to make my method more effective and honestly, I think it’s working. After 5 years of trying to shift, I suddenly made so much progress in just one month. So yeah, even if it takes you years, what really matters is doing what feels comfortable and works for you. It doesn’t matter how long you’ve tried or how much it seems like“it’s not working.” it just happens. Believe me.
Okay so basically, I was doing my method and then I started dreaming (it wasn’t a lucid dream at first).
In my dream, my mom and dad were there, and I was telling them something about shifting, but I was kind of half asleep while talking. They didn’t believe me at first, but then time started changing outside, like it turned from night to day in seconds and that’s when my mom got convinced. While that was happening, I was still half asleep and shifting felt so easy for me there I was getting the symptoms instantly (in my dream body).
Then I said I wanted to shift (inside the dream) and there was this servant or helper-like figure helping me, I don’t know if it was my higher self or a spirit guide, but he looked hilarious, like one of those half-bald, pot-bellied butlers.. Somehow, I shifted to my grandparents’ house (again, I have no idea why I keep ending up there), but literally, I shifted inside the dream. So maybe that was a dream within a shift?
The house was different, the walls were this awful pistachio green (disgusting btw), and there were cupboards where the couches were supposed to be. What’s interesting is that I could actually read the text around me. I was holding something in my hand that said something like “nesrinone” or “nesminone,” and the rest was in french (which I don’t even speak, but I somehow knew it was french). It was written on a poster, and unlike in my usual dreams, the letters didn’t melt or blur. I could read everything clearly. My mind just felt foggy, like I was trying to make sense of what was happening.
I heard my grandparents talking, and I was about to go somewhere. Then I felt my shoe not going on properly, and I literally felt my toe. I was like, “wait, I can feel this? did I shift??” but at the same time I was thinking, “I wanna shift to my dr,” because I had told myself before sleeping that I was open to random shifts, like, I didn’t care where I ended up.
Then, after that, I suddenly found myself at school or maybe in a cafeteria? I remember someone talking to me, but I couldn’t really process it, probably because I went straight into a lucid dream while still thinking about my dr. At one point, I even felt the pressure on my gums here, in my cr body.
Until I came back to my body, I kept thinking, “why am I here? I should be in my dr.” and in that cafeteria part, I realized I was lucid dreaming, and the moment I realized it, I came back. But the return felt weird, like I came back from far away. I was pure consciousness there, because when I became aware here again, it wasn’t like slowly waking up, it was like snap, instantly aware.
The part with my parents and the cafeteria were definitely dreams (the parent part just a dream, cafeteria one a lucid dream), even though they were kinda vivid. But the part at my grandparents’ house, where I shifted inside the dream, that one felt like a real shift where I just didn’t ground properly. Because I honestly didn’t want to.
I know it was a real shift because in my last lucid dream, when I tried to read something, everything melted. I couldn’t read properly, but this time, I could.
So yeah, it’s definitely progress. My senses were way clearer this time.
And now I totally get why people think shifting is the same as lucid dreaming or like “advanced lucid dreaming,” because when you don’t fully ground yourself, it feels like more than a lucid dream but less than a full shift. But it’s still a shift, just without being completely grounded.
I've made so much progress in just a few weeks and I really wanted to share it.
This post is only for my journal but feel free to read. I don’t claim this as a success story since I don’t even know myself what it was.
Honestly, I’m not entirely sure what happened because I felt so drained that when I got back, I fell asleep without even taking notes 😭 But I’ll write everything I remember as clearly as I can.
At first, even while meditating, I felt my DR, which was strange because it was the first time I had felt so clearly like I was lying in that reality, in that bed, even before doing an OOBE or shifting. But it really only lasted for a very short time.
Then a memory flashed. I saw my DR face and my s/o and I were leaning against something at night, like at a campsite and I had a dark green hat on my head. I got startled by my mother’s movements in CR and got a little annoyed because my focus broke so I fell asleep repeating my mantra without taking off my headphones but also without trying to stay awake while doing my method. (And I guess I didn’t actually sleep? I’m not really sure.)
I swear it wasn’t a dream but it wasn’t exactly a shift either (or it was multiple shifts and not only one). It felt like something between a dream and a shift. I remember thinking about ... "(@/yunspidey I'll write her name because it is the only way to remember who is it lmao)" and there were also some people from Bridgerton there (in different states and I think he was Anthony) lmao. Everything was incredibly clear but it felt like my awareness kept shifting to different places. It slipped so easily. It was like experiencing everything everywhere all at once.
I remember shifting somewhere and saying that I needed to ground myself (that’s why I don’t think it was just a dream). It was a random reality. I was somewhere on my grandparents’ street and my vision was starting to become clearer. Everything was becoming incredibly vivid. But at the same time, I was thinking that shifting shouldn’t be like this because everything still wasn’t completely stable and it still felt slightly dreamlike.
It was like my dream self or astral body or whatever it was shifting every millisecond to somewhere else while I was half-conscious. I was trying to ground myself, my vision was clearing up but my awareness kept slipping between states.
Then I found myself in the void. I don’t remember the details very well because it felt like all my energy had been drained (and this is the first time I’ve ever felt like this). I wasn’t in a state to take notes which I usually do to avoid forgetting. It felt like I had physically traveled somewhere and wandered around for hours (it lasted about three hours, btw).
When I found myself in the void, I said I needed to manifest something, but I don’t even remember what I tried to manifest 😭 But I’m pretty sure I shifted to a parallel reality.
When I returned from the void, I didn’t wake up suddenly like from a dream. It felt like my awareness or astral body slowly returned (?) here and I woke up as if I had come back from a distant land. I don’t know how to describe it.. like a whooshing feeling 😭 It wasn’t like waking up from sleep.
I only remember the parts where my vision became clear and certain specific moments, but not the full details. I clearly remember thinking:
“I need to ground myself, my vision is getting clearer but something feels off because why does it still feel like I’m dreaming? Shifting should be clear, it shouldn’t feel like this.”
Maybe I was dreaming and then shifted into the void because I couldn’t become fully lucid? Or I shifted multiple times without grounding myself (couldn't actually) I honestly don’t know. I hate getting confused like this because most of my experiences are very clear and I can usually tell "yes, this is shifting" "no, this is astral" "no, this is lucid dream" etc. But this one? I genuinely have no idea.
All I know is that everything felt extremely real in that moment and when I came back, it felt like all my energy had been pulled away from me 😭
°❀⋆.ೃ࿔*:・OOBE/Astral Success - Weirdest of Them All°❀⋆.ೃ࿔*:・
So.. I had an OOBE last night (it had been a long time since my last OOBE, so it was actually nice to see that I can still experience it) and it was the shortest and weirdest one so far. Every time I astral project, I experience something different and discover another side of it and honestly that part is a bit fun. Of course, it would have been even better if I had shifted.
It was so strange.. At first I don’t even think I realized that I was having an OOBE and that part was actually pretty funny. In this experience, I felt like I was both the observer and have an astral body at the same time. The weird part is this: I don’t even know how to explain it properly, but I saw my astral body while I was in observer mode. Isn’t the point of the astral body to see things through it? So how was I able to see my astral body as an observer? (first time having an astral body btw) Anyway, I realized I was having an OOBE when I saw my astral facial expression. I was like “wait, I’m astralling right now, go and shift!” but my astral face expression looked kind of funny because I was literally trying to understand what was happening. At first it (my astral body) was frowning, then raising its eyebrows. (but I saw it, because I was an observer) I looked like a blue hologram, like a ghost. a transparent, slightly glowing blue ghost. Casper, is that you?
Then I told myself that I needed to shift and started thinking about my DR self. Like, I could clearly see my DR self and my DR bedroom, but my main problem is not being able to embody my DR. I’ll talk about that later. (and I also saw photo frames on the wall, I’m writing this down so I don’t forget because it was something I noticed after the astral state.)
When I said “shift” to myself, I ended up in a place that felt like the void. I’m not completely sure if it was the void because my past void experiences were a bit different from this one. I heard sounds like I was underwater. You know when you dive completely underwater and all the sounds become muffled and distorted? It was exactly like that. And my vision was black and white but also felt like I was underwater at the same time. That void-like nothingness felt really strange. This time, the white star-like dots I saw were smaller and looked more like tiny particles underwater. After staying there for a while, I came back. Honestly, trying again felt a bit difficult. (irl it was almost 2 hours but to me it felt like just a few minutes.)
And I realized something: Whenever I try to shift to my DR, I get so caught up in the astral excitement in that moment that I think about my DR self, but I don’t think like my DR self. That’s probably why shifting to random places feels easier for me because I don’t overthink it. Embodying a random version of myself somewhere feels more natural. But when I focus on my DR, even during astral or lucid dream states, I push myself so hard to stay in that state that I lose the natural flow. If I just stayed calm and let things flow, everything would probably resolve on its own. It’s like saying “do not focus on symptoms” but then focusing on them and ending up back here again.
So in my next astral experience, since I’ve already realized this, I need to stay calm and learn how to control myself better. I definitely need to reduce the panic and excitement.
But still, I’m happy because every experience I have is different and unique. As I notice the things I need to realize, it feels like the layers between my states of consciousness are getting thinner and I’m slowly understanding better what I should do and what actually works for me.
First Lucid Dream Experience°❀⋆.ೃ࿔*:・ (connecting to shifting)
Again, something realistic happened last night. It wasn’t a shift, but it was my first lucid dream experience (finally.. even though I shifted before ever lucid dreaming 😭🤚🏻).
I was probably already dreaming when I suddenly realized I was in a dream. I remember trying to text my friend like, “Hey girl, I got symptoms again,” and then everything started to melt, the words and my phone were literally dripping down. That’s when I realized I was dreaming and I was like, “Girl, you’re dreaming, shift now!” (which is crazy because I’ve never had a lucid dream before, and honestly, it was kinda cool).
Then I found myself at my grandparents’ house, but it was slightly different. I was talking to my grandmother, thinking fast but also feeling this weird rush, because I was sure I’d ground myself there soon and shift there. It really felt like I was about to shift, my blurry vision was clearing up, and it was like a lucid dream turning into a shifting portal. It felt like I was standing right in between.
Instead, I quickly answered her random questions about one of my friends and said goodbye. I also told myself, “Okay, now I’ll go to my high school DR,” since that was the one I wanted to go to that night (because holy shit, after yesterday’s shift and knowing shifting is real, I was terrified and definitely didn’t want to go to my mafia DR 😭. A random reality was already overwhelming enough lol).
Then I started spinning and melting again, it wasn’t a shift yet, but more like a lucid dream portal leading into a shift. But I couldn’t shift to my DR, and I ended up coming back here.
Still, ISTG it was the BEST feeling ever. If someone had told me earlier how funny and exciting the feeling of shifting and lucid dreaming is, I would’ve tried this way more often and wouldn’t have waited this long to succeed 😭.
The funny part isn’t even the shift itself (yet) it’s the process. I love how I spin. I love how I proved to myself that it’s real. I love shifting without grounding myself and then managing to lucid dream, because they’re clearly different things, and now I know which is which.
(Btw, I was never one of those “shifting is just lucid dreaming” people. Even before experiencing it, I knew they were separate things. I just wanted to say it clearly here for anyone who still thinks they’re the same, they’re not 😭.)
After trying for years, I’m finally enjoying the process, every single part of it. And shifting to my DR feels closer than it’s ever been before. I’m overwhelmed with joy, but god, it’s so, SO amazing. ✨