#armada rambles

[ishipanarmada]

I saw a post once, referring to another post saying that that person didn’t think Ewan McGregor was good looking because he had dead eyes. I would assume this means in real life, not in acting situations because we all know he can be an emotional mess on film.

I randomly think about that post every single day, because… really?

I mean…Tell me you haven’t watched the Long Way series without telling me you haven’t watched the Long Way series…

[thearmada4231]

This is gonna sound so fricken cheesy and dumb but just hear me out:

I just recently went through the worst heartbreak of my life. The man I thought I was going to marry someday broke my heart. My trust. My grace. I’d been struggling pretty badly through this month of just gut-wrenching pain. I’ve been so lonely and I hate being alone with my thoughts, especially when all I’ve been thinking about is my dumb ex. So I started listening to The Adventure Zone, mostly to kill the silence and to keep my mind occupied. First of all, it’s superb and I fully recommend it to any and everyone. But the real reason why I’m writing this is because this stupid, comedy D&D podcast has helped me heal so fricken much. Like, more than I can even put into words but I’m gonna try.

The characters have helped me feel less alone in this time of grieving. I’m listening to their stories and loving every second of it. I’m learning how to be me again, after losing so much of myself in my past relationship. I’m laughing again. I’m excited again! And the characters are teaching me things too. Confidence and wit from Taako (Maybe a few little catchphrases too but that’s beside the point). Faith and responsibility from Merle. Reminding myself that there’s a purpose to who I am, and to believe in something bigger than this sadness I’m facing.

But I think the thing that grips my heart the most is Magnus. His undeniable and unconditional love for his wife Julia (who happens to share my name, which maybe is why this hits so hard). But he talks about her and thinks about her like she’s just...everything good and pure in the world. And he is a protector. A soft, courageous, selfless tank. And he loves SO DEEPLY. And it reminds me to wait.

Someday, someone will love me. And I will learn to love again. And it will be amazing. Magnificent. So much better and brighter than I’d ever have imagined. I deserve to be loved the way that Magnus loved his wife. The way that Taako loves Kravitz. The way Killian loves Cary. And the way that Barry loves Lup. The Adventure Zone is hilarious and exciting and enthralling because of these characters and the story that the McElroy family has brought to life. But it means so much more to me than I ever anticipated a goofy nerd podcast could. It’s reminding me what love can be. It’s giving me a hope for my healing and my heart in the future. I am so thankful for this little family and this adventure that I got to feel a part of through my grief. I’m still healing. Still growing. And I wake up every day and say to myself

“You’re going to be amazing”

[ishipanarmada]

*sigh*

I love the way people develop enormous backstories, headcanons, and personality traits for characters based on slivers of information in canon. Characters that get a blip or two of screen time get fleshed out and lovingly written in fic for the rest of us to read, FOR FREE!

But… it makes me want to tear my hair out when those headcanons are so set that people will defend them viciously, even when there’s no hard evidence to support it.

I get it. We all want and believe our blorbos to act a certain way, but when we are offended by someone else’s interpretation of them…when canon doesn’t indicate anything concrete…

*sighs again*

[ishipanarmada]

I watched an episode of The Muppet Show with my daughter last night because essentially she said ‘Was there even a tv show with the Muppets?’ and I looked at her aghast.

I had to set the universe right, of course.

I picked an episode with John Denver because I love his voice. It’s a guest star my daughter would recognize because we listen to the John Denver Muppet Christmas album like it’s our job around the holidays. It’s always the first and most played and most requested songs in our house.

Anyway, we watched the episode and I still loved it. It made me laugh and feel better because it had been a pretty crappy day.

And I had the added joy laughing until we cried because I knew all the ‘words’ to the Swedish Chef song and my daughter thought that was hilarious. Total endorphin boost.

The moral of the story is, if you’re in a crap mood, watch the Muppets with someone you love.

[ishipanarmada]

Ok, so I'm listening to the Loki soundtrack (it's great, btw), but you cannot tell me that the Lokius track is not in some way romantic. Please supply me with the name of another BFF song that sounds like that. Like pining in music form?? The name aside, even if it had been called something like Loki and His TVA Buddy, the TONE is.not.normal.for.BFFs.

[ishipanarmada]

Ever read a book and KNOW it’s at least loosely based on a fandom ship you are familiar with? Like, the characters may not fit exactly, but too damn close, and the book reads like a fanfic (good or bad)???

[ishipanarmada]

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