Emotions galore.
It's not always nice finding out where your partners go when they go on exercise,( without them knowing you know) and since I've found out, although I should trust him, I still feel really shitty about it. You can't help but think " what if", but then I think aw he was with the lads, probably wasn't his idea to go, and I know he wouldn't have done anything and it was just somewhere to drink. So, after hearing off of him, and him not messaging him going there, I just didn't really know what to say to him? I don't know if it's because I'm upset and angry with him, or what.. But, I had nothing that I wanted to say to him, and just wanted to be really blunt. In the end I made myself reply a nice essay back for him, because he probably hasn't done anything, and I'm just jumping the gun, but I just can't help this feeling. Now a month without talking, with a lingering doubt in my mind. All I could do was cry when he messaged me. I don't feel like this feelings normal, maybe it's because I just miss him so.
