#aro rambling

[iactlikeapornbot]

heartstopper reminded me how much i just…want and need a strong friendship where i’ll do anything for them and they’ll do anything for me. where this is communicated and we can hold hands and share earbuds and hug and tell each other we love each other without it being awkward. god why isn’t that normalized? why are childhood and teenage and basically all friendships seen as unimportant? why is romance “more” than friendship? why can’t we show strong affection to our friends without someone cracking a homo joke or it being awkward between a guy and a girl? god i’m just…so tired of this not being able to tell my friends how i feel about them and about us. friendship is all we have especially as teens and people act like literally everything else is more important. it’s not. fuck, i am in love with my friends and it makes me kinda insane and that’s okay. i love my friends and they’re the most important thing in my life. so why is it so hard to tell them that?

[minotaur-in-my-labyrinth]

My friends and family around me keep getting married. And I'm so confused, like... why?

Then I remembered: I feel little, if any, romantic attraction towards anyone.

Also, we are socialized into thinking that marriage is the end-all, be-all, culmination of romantic attraction.

I still have a hard time believing, or rather, empathizing with the idea that people feel this weird thing, a feeling so absolutely alien.

And I'm just like: "What is this feeling? What does it feel like? What goes through your head when you look at this person? Is it felt in the hands, the eyes, the chest? Where in you is romance become sensation? Is it like hunger in your stomach? Is it like beading sweat trickling down your back?

What do you feel that I don't and does it feel good or does it hurt? Is it neither? I'm curious for I think I cannot know.

And now I'm suddenly realizing why romantic songs are so irrelateable.

"When the moon hits your eye just like a big pizza pie!"

What the fuck does that mean???

[blood-on-my-french-fries]

One of the key points of me realising I'm aromantic was the amount of times I said "Being dumped by your bf is bad, but X is worse", with X being:

A fave character suffering any inconvenience.

A fave character dying.

Not having any chocolate left.

Your OTP fighting.

Not being able to eat my favourite rotisserie chicken.

Being stuck with my cousins.

"You lied to me!" "I did." "You poisoned me!" "I did." "You said you loved me!" "I do."

Running out of bacon wrapped dates.

Missing my cats.

Having to watch yet another romcom.

Missing a show's/movie's premiere.

Discovering your fave from a videogame is not romanceable.

"Bucky?" "Who the hell is Bucky?"

Not being able to sing due to sore throat.

Finishing a book series and knowing there's no more about these characters.

Forgetting your book at home and having no way to escape reality.

A videogame closing at its own volition.

Going weeks without sweet naan.

"I don't feel so good Mr. Stark."

[starr-eaterr]

i am so so tired of having to explain my existance to people but i refuse to stop. i refuse to lie to conform or to make the people around me "comfortable". i will never not tell people im aromantic. thats who i am and im even more tired of prentending its not.

[daylarks]

i was finally feeling kind of sure about my romantic orientation but then this shit i saw on twitter about sexual aros made me feel so invalidated and now i feel like a corpse and have been feeling that way for a week help

[vadre]

idk if im legitimately romance repulsed or if people (myself included) put so much importance on romance that the fact that i don't experience it makes me literally nauseous 

like i dunno, under certain circumstances romantic pda makes me extremely uncomfortable and sort of sick and i dislike it a lot

what i dislike more is that i dont know what the fuck is going on. wtf brain, why u gotta play me like that