For the cursed asks! 2, 11, 14, 17? (or whichever you feel like answering lol)
@arobear Thank youuu, my dear! 💖
2. Do you write porn from the perspective of the character you want to be, or the one you want to bang?
Honestly, neither. I project issues onto characters, but I don't self-insert like that (no shame to those who do, it's just not my jam). I choose my POV for sex scenes based on what kind of atmosphere I want to create, what issues I want to explore, and ultimately whose headspace is going to be the best vehicle for that.
If I want to explore a character's body image issues, for example, I'll probably choose their perspective to write from so that their inner thoughts come through even when they're not speaking. But if I wanted to write it more like "this character doesn't even realize how beautiful they are," then I might choose their partner's perspective to contrast any negative self-talk or insecure behaviours with their partner's adoring inner monologue persisting even beyond anything they say, you know? The latter simply strikes a different tone. <3
11. Have you ever tested the logistics of a sex scene you're writing in real life, and did the other person(s) know it was for fanfic?
Haha, noooo. I've never had anyone I could do that with, personally. Would I? Sure, maybe. But I'd probably approach it so scientifically, we'd both just end up laughing about it. Like, "okay, hold that pose, I need to take notes and make a quick sketch for reference" lol.
14. What's your favourite way to emotionally destroy your favourite character?
Ahaha, let me count the ways... there are so many to choose from. I think my general favourite is verbal abuse. I love to dissect abusive relationships, especially between parents and children, in horrible, soul-crushing detail. Not to leave them suffering, but just because the eventual love, comfort, and acceptance from their found family hits so much harder for me when I've walked them through hell first.
17. If you could steal one fic from any other writer and claim it as your own, what would you take?
djakgjkdg that compliment would have to go to the absolutely amazing, wonderfully written emotional rollercoaster that is the Wesper Cinderella AU, To Live in Color by @sixofcrowdaydreams
Anyone who hasn't read it yet, please go check it out! You won't regret it. It's had me on the edge of my seat since the very start.
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