have i ever mentioned to you
love
because i wont
have i ever mentioned to you
past
because i wont
have i ever mentioned to you
truth
because i wont
these are fragments of myskin
burrowed in
have i ever mentioned to you
fear
because if i haven't
you'll see it
every day when you look at me
i wear it like a cloak
i bathe in it i walk in it
i have terrors burning the bottoms of my feet like coals
struggling to find ground
i can't find roots
my tree doesn't grow anymore
because
i'm scared of every leave
my branches twist like omens
sometimes i can't see the sun
sometimes i need some space
because i can't breathe
because i might just be there now
floating.
growing.
it's something i've done a lot of
but it's all been internal
sometimes my bark looks
like it could build bridges
stretching into your life
instead of walls
closing me in
sometimes my heart pounds
love through me until flowers grow
instead of leaves
and i think maybe
i wont leave
maybe i'll fall
down the rough roots
maybe they'll grow strong
maybe with them
i'll build bridges