#as usual...

[shrimp-lord-of-hell]

i wanna voice act..... :(

Little vent/ramble under the cut (it only starts with voice acting before devolving into my personal hell; you have been warned)

I see my friends and moots and cool people with their projects and I see them with their voice acting calls and I want to audition SO BAD but my voice is too feminine for a boy role and I don't want to be cast as a girl (I could maybe do a less feminine girl or maybe nonbinary; my voice isn't *that* feminine, but it definitely doesn't sound like a guy).

Maybe if they waited a few years, but I mean YEARS. (Time for the trans stuff now because I try not to talk about it TOO much but it is a major part of my life and who I am :/)

I want to go on testosterone and I'm so excited and I'm praying that my voice drops but usually that takes a year or so from what I've seen, and I won't even be able to *start* for at least another two years. It feels like my whole life is waiting and I'm so fucking sick of it. Waiting. Always waiting. There's no end. And it's not a guarantee, either. Starting T, legally changing my name, top surgery- it's all complicated and expensive and I'm not prepared. I don't have money. I'm not ready. I still have college to worry about and that's expensive, too. It feels like the whole world is fucking me over. I'm not giving up hope because screw that, but all I can do right now is try to save up some money, maybe start therapy/talking to a professional (a lot of medical stuff require a professional's diagnosis of gender dysphoria or whatever). I'm not ready for anything and it's all coming so fast, but at the same time I just want it to be HERE already.

It sucks, feeling like my life hasn't started. Feeling like it won't for another two years. There's too much waiting, too much time between me and what I want. I'm sick of waiting. And I don't want to make people wait on me. Everything's so difficult because I'm in this purgatory of "it will get better" but all I can do is WAIT.

Time is my enemy. I hate it with every fiber of my being. I want to be me. I want to be happy. Why do I have to be too young for joy?

[muses-galore]

"Hey jiji, what's nine plus ten..." - @fantomevoleur

"It's nineteen...if you can't answer that then I worry just what kind of school you've been going to."

@fantomevoleur

[hazmatmaid]

i really just had someone show up in my comments and say kris, susie, and chara are unforgivable and shitty characters for doing shitty things (and that them being minors doesn't mean a thing because they're not real people, despite literally just having held them to real-people moral standards??), yet say spamton and jevil are so much more interesting.

when...brother, the latter two are grown-ass adults who are down with murder: one for profit/personal gain, the other for literal funsies. what planet do you live on where that is better and more forgivable than slashing tires and being a (former) bully?

[rosszulorzott]

@szottesfolditanyak

a borostyánnal kapott vendégflóra némelyike lóhere

csak mert botanika for dummies, lóhere, platán, ezeket könnyű felismerni :)

[lemon-dokuro]

probably the best idea ive ever gotten for an oc this is character design guys, this is it

[ultrakdramamama]

211123 dlstmxkakwldrl 라이브가 삼십초 남기고 종료됐어 라이브는 라이브로 남겨두자!! 담에 또 놀자!!

[trans]  The live ended with 30 seconds left. Let's leave the live as a live! Let's play again next time!

[batz]

thinking abt spongebob musical..............