You’re Trembling - Asher x Reader
"24 w/ Asher"
"yoo is it a possibility for you to write a part 2 for the fic about asher??"
Requested by: @bananakid42
Word count: 2,002
TW:abuse
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The sun had disappeared from the sky by the time you finally made it home on Sunday. A cold darkness had spread over your neighbourhood and a gnawing feeling made home in the centre of your chest. You almost wished that you had let Asher walk you home like he wanted to, just so you'd have some sort of distraction for the time being. There'd be a little less time for thinking if he'd come along. You couldn't do that to him, though. Not because he'd have to walk back home in the dark or because you wanted him to get some rest for school tomorrow, but because you already knew that nothing good could be waiting for you when you came home.
You slowly peeled back the flimsy piece of scratched up and dented metal that was the screen door and pulled your keys out of your pocket. Once you found the right one and managed to quietly unlock your front door, you gently slipped into the front room, barely making any noise at all, save for the slight jingling of your keys.
All the lights were still on in the house, which meant that your mother was still up and wandering the house, scowling at anything out of place and bitching at everything that wasn't spotlessly cleaned. You flinched when you heard the sound of deep screaming from the living room, but nevertheless let out the breath that you didn't even realise you had been holding. If your parents were arguing again then that meant that they were sure to not notice your presence. You took this opportunity to walk straight into the hallway and into your room as fast as you could without the floor creaking.
Once inside your room, you threw your bag onto your bed and curled into a ball beside it. You used to do this all the time when you were younger, because you didn't have anywhere else to go. Back then your mother still hit you and your father was still useless, but you didn't realise that that wasn't all there was to life. You didn't know that there was more out there for you than getting beat and yelled at because when you were younger nobody cared that you were hurting and you didn't care for anyone either. In fact, you only started believing that things could be better when Asher came around. He was gentle and helpful and caring. No man had ever been that way towards you, and Asher didn't even do it because he wanted something in return.
You curled yourself tighter thinking about him. Asher was so good to you. You weren't even sure that he tried to be that way, either. That was just the way that he was and you were glad for it. Your eyelashes fluttered closed and you let your muscles relax. The heart that had been beating rapidly in your chest had slowed down significantly.
You jolted when you heard your mother's scream from the kitchen. You quickly straightened yourself out and slid off your bed, blood cold and feet suddenly wobbly. With slightly shaking hands, you threw open your door in fear of your mother becoming impatient and coming to your room to fish you out herself. It didn't even occur to you that you didn't know how she heard you at all. Part of you must have already known that you'd get caught.
"Y-yes m'am." You managed to stutter out when you got to the end of the hallway.
As you turned the corner into the kitchen, you saw your mother, red faced and holding a dirty pot in one hand. Her upper lip was curled under her teeth in an act of rage and her eyes held the stare of a woman who could not keep herself contained a moment longer. You knew not to be scared — this had only happened a thousand other times — but something inside of you couldn't help but scream for you to turn and dash to the front door. You remained with your feet planted heavy on the carpet.
"What the fuck do you think you're doing, huh?" She snarls. "You thought I wouldn't notice you were here?"
"Don't you know what I told you? I said get out of my fucking house! Who raised you not to listen to what you're told?"
You stayed quiet, eyes flickering between your mother's face and the pot she held. You figured that, at this point, talking would only make things worse.
"Speak to me when I talk to you, child!" Her hand rose and the three pounds of iron in her hand came crashing down onto your shoulder. You gasped in pain, at a loss for any other emotion than shock, despite knowing fully well what was to come. When you collapsed to the floor you were met with another blunt force, this time to your back and again to your shoulder.
"I'm sorry, miss!" You said between her hits. The pot hit the ground by your ear and her hand instead focused its attention to your hair.
She pulled you upward so that your arms couldn't help but reach out to touch the floor in a last ditch attempt at trying to steady yourself. With possibly even more force than she had been using with the pot, her hand came down on your face. Not once and not twice, but repeatedly she pounded your face with her closed palm. Blood from your nose squirted into your mouth and at times all you could see were flashes of light.
Soon enough, you were on your knees on the kitchen floor, slumped into your monster of a mother's hold. Your face felt busted and your body felt exhausted. The blood from your forehead was seeping down into your vision. Although you gasped for breath and begged for relief, you knew what was to come. She let go of your hair so that you collapsed to the floor and got up to walk out of the kitchen and, finally, you closed your eyes one last time.
With clammy hands and a heart nearly hammering it's way from your chest, you stared into the darkness of Asher's room. The world was still, both outside of the house and inside of the house. The things that you had dreamt were nothing but a fiction of the past.
The sound of the covers close by brought you out of your thoughts of fear as Asher stirred from only about a foot away. Even without the lights on, you could see the outline of his face. His eyes were open and he was facing you with a worried look. You noticed his messy bed head, although you couldn't bring yourself to laugh with the dreadful feeling of anxiety sitting heavy on your shoulders.
"What's wrong?" He asked, voice deep and thick with sleep.
You couldn't seem to catch your voice. "N-noth-thing."
You shifted to lie down against the futon once again, pulling the covers over yourself high enough to reach just under your nose. With your eyes closed, you tried your best to control your shaking body and tight chest. You didn't want to bother Asher with this, especially not so early in the morning, anyway. It wasn't that you didn't trust him with your secret, it was just that you didn't know if he'd want to associate with you afterwards. He could always think that you wanted attention. He could have gotten bored with you and slowly drifted away. You couldn't bear the thought of losing the only person who meant anything to you.
Asher sat all the way up and turned towards you. You could tell in his voice that he was concerned, so you opened your eyes and tilted your head his way.
"How c-can you tell in the dark?"
"I can feel you." He said. "What's wrong? Bad dream?"
You nodded and mumbled a small "mhm."
"Do you want to tell me about it?"
This time you sat up, blankets pulled around your shoulders. Asher thought you looked smaller like that. You had always been shorter than him, but fear made you especially tiny and frail. You studied his face for a moment.
"You can tell me." He said when you had been silent so long that he thought you were lost in thought. "I'm not going to judge you."
Your fingers tightened around the blanket as you slowly nodded. Asher was bound to figure it out someday, anyway.
You didn't know how to begin. Would it be from the beginning? Or from the start of yesterday? Asher was sure to piece things together once you started telling him about the dream. He'd seen the bruises peaking out of your shirt and the cuts that sometimes popped up near your face. Not to mention, he had bandaged the "mysterious" cut on your cheek himself. You weren't afraid of your mother, though. You were afraid of what she could do to you. There would be one day when she would push it too far. You probably wouldn't even make it to the end of senior year.
"I-I had a dream that someone killed me."
Asher's eyebrows furrow. "What happened?"
"I walked home tomorrow and..." You paused and tried to catch the breath that was stuck in your throat. Hot tears formed at the corners of your eyes. Ashamed of looking like a fool, you dropped your head down and covered your mouth with your hand.
Asher scooted himself to your side and pulled you towards him. You gave in and buried your face into his chest.
"Is it someone we know?" He asked as he gently stroked your hair. "Do you want me to take care of them for you?"
"You can't," you told him through tears, "there's nothing we can do."
"You don't know that. Who is it?"
You did know that, but you also knew that he was stubborn. If you didn't tell him, he would find a way to figure things out for himself.
The words were so quiet that you almost didn't think he could hear them. Asher's grip around you tightened, though, and you could feel him grow tenser.
"She did this to you? The cut on your face? How long has this been happening?"
You nodded. "A long time."
"(Y/N), you should have told me sooner."
Asher let go of you, but didn't back away. Instead he smoothed some of your hair behind your ear.
"Asher, I don't have anywhere else to go!" You protested. He wasn't seeing the whole reality of the situation.
"Stay here. My parents won't care — they love you. What if you go back and something worse happens to you? I'm your friend, I can't let you get hurt."
You shook your head as you wiped away your tears.
"Just until you can live on your own?" He pleaded, sensing that you weren't going to be reeled into the idea that easily.
You stared at him for a moment before finally agreeing. "Thank you-"
"Don't thank me, you deserve better than her."
With a sniffle, you nodded and let Asher back away again. You laid down on the futon, face pressed into the pillow that Asher had given you before you had gone to sleep, and you pulled the blanket up to your chin. Asher was still partially visible now that your eyes had adjusted to the lack of light. He was lying on his back, eyes fixed to the ceiling and bottom lip pressed between teeth.
"Goodnight, (Y/N)." He said softly.
You reached your hand out from the warm material and slid it over Asher's, which up until this point had been folded over his chest. He gave you a reassuring squeeze in return.
Finally closing your red and puffy eyes, you gave him an even softer, but ever thankful "goodnight."
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I had to take a break for a while because I lost motivation to update but here's something I wrote this week that I felt like posting. Number 24 on the prompt list is "you're trembling."