slideesssssss in. what are the ashes of flightlings' canon heights. or at least how many apples tall is each cretin. askinf this for Research And Study
(for reference both rossie and lara are 5 feet 10/11 inches (<- i can't decide) and i dont want to make the ashes of flightlings too small lol)
Freedom is whatever height she feels makes her the perfect combination of friendly but not idiotic, Hendrix is 5'6 and a half, and Io is 5'4 (she's tiny)
Also
Io and Lara became friends!
Lara you are NOT slick
Im sure it is girl
experimenting at the photo place
For some unknowable reason Lara rejected her
Ah yes, Frendrix and the Laraling they found (she's right in the middle for some reason
IM DOING A FULL ANALYSIS OF HEAT ABNORMAL AND HOW IT SO PERFECTLY FITS FOR IO AND SEEING THE FORGOTTEN DAY
so quickly noting that Io is my oc and the forgotten day is an event in my ocs universe. so if you dont care about that this wont be all that interesting.
warnings for suicidal tendencies, self-hate, and the end of the world
heat abnormal by iyowa
quiiiiiiiick things before we start
io was 9 when this happened so she obviously couldnt properly undrestand what was happening
io absolutely saw the forgotten day (fd) as a end of the world type thing. i mean if the sun and skies split into pieces and you saw eyes and wings staring back you'd think it was the end of the world too.
io's infamous clock that froze at 11:24 had a recording feature
she was also alone this whole time. she had this idea in her head she'd meet her beloved-behated sister again.
also. this is specifically about io and io alone. everything i say about everyone else, remember its ultimately about io
"I start over with a dead variable" - variable means to be changeable, not being static and stuck in an unchanging state. To Io, her home was unchangeable. but then it died, started falling apart, and even to this day its dead and whats there now is not the same. variables also have associations with math and science- something you might associate with robots. Freedom also has robot-like imagery (the character, not the virtue.)
remember, this is about Io.
"counting them made my temperature rise." - whenever i hear this phrase i think of anger. io has some anger issues. but this could also be related to sweat, the sweat that might happen when someones scared.
"with nowhere to send it to" - again, the world was collapsing around io. the walls that kept her safe fall are mostly gone. the architecture splinters and falls on its foundations. where will she send her last words?
"I write down a pitiful soliloquy." - truthfully this would probably be a bit literal. recall the clock i mentioned at bullet point three. io absolutely thinks this is stupid, but she is 9, so what can she do.
"almost like an electric shock, the fear mixes with the blood in my veins" - other than the obvious idea of io being scared and some possible imagery or blood pumping and adrenaline, electricity is related to Freedom and also to Hendrix's (second) most traumatic moment
"from beyond the thick smoke of particulates, a black sickle-chain follows me" - relating to the line right before this, smoke is probably one of the biggest metaphors for hendrix's fear, but also int he context of the entire story smoke stands for death and fear and the loss of identity. also sickles and death as a whole is a pretty big Io thing
"even if I eliminate it even if I eliminate it even if I eliminate it even if I eliminate it even if I eliminate it even if I eliminate it even if I eliminate it even if I eliminate it, it won't go away" - repetition, with my ocs at least, represents a state of panic. elimination obviously is more of a tie in with death (let me drive it home death is so important to Io's imagery). this is another way of interpreting hendrix's scary event, especially with this feeling of trying to eliminate. key word trying.
"my throat has long since been swollen, the sounds I screamed out were already a bunch of nonsense" - not too much to say here, this is a more literal interpretation of Io in the moment of the end
"above the armchair, a rotten crescent moon is laughing" - I always interpreted this line as a smile. again, this line is weird in that it's more a Freedom line and how a lot of her issues stem with being watched and judged. io can kind of see this nowadays in the present, but she's scared of acknowledging that because that would mean acknowledging she did somehting wrong. perhaps thats why the moon is rotten. or maybe its because the world is ending.
"now, something's coming something's coming something's coming something's coming something's coming something's coming something's coming something's coming to where I am" - this is another freedom line. imagine, for a moment, the idea of being watched. freedom has this fear a lot. the problem with freedom having this fear is that it tends to bleed out, so there's always this feeling of suspense. who's most likely to be a victim to this then the impressionable young Io?
this is about Io. I cannot make this clear enough.
"the people that set fire to the flag of salvation after crying in a loud voice and the skeletons that kiss their collections resign themselves in coffins" - ok back to all Io. this is probably one of the most important lyrics in importance with Io so im bolding it. the context to the FD is that the South (Io's province- think of it as a pretty large town/city) was having a revolution, due to the citizens unrest about being treated worse than the other provinces because of their perceived incompetence. io's family were big victims of this inferiority complex, and thus were frontrunners with this revolution. therefore, io saw so many people give their lives wholeheartedly, and so many diead and living lined the streets when this happened. those who resigned themselves to whatever might happen. those who tried to fight for change. everyone died. everyone suffered. there was absolutely no meaning to any of it. all of it was for nothing.
"in a whisper, they say again 'there's something wrong with me' 'there's something wrong with me' 'there's something wrong with me' 'there's something wrong with me' 'there's something wrong with me' 'there's something wrong with me' 'there's something wrong with me' 'there's something wrong with me'" - i think, while all this was happening, everyone around io was realizing that fact i pointed out above. and so, quietly of course, they say those things, all mourning the choices they think would've mattered more. the soldiers regretted not staying home with their families. the regular citizens regretted trying not to make a change. hendrix and freedom have this mindset all the time. and the biggest perpetrator of this mindset is, of course, Io.
"If only there was an eternal paradise where everyone could be saved" - another mixed line, this time for the whole trio. obviously theres some broken optimism in io wondering why this was the path that had to be taken, but there's also hendrix wondering why he lived and the rest of his family didnt. freedom is thinking something similar to Io, and i think this line has more importance to her because she feels like she of all people should have the ability to do this, but she doesn't
"all the adults, chanting that same song, burst the ark they boarded on open" - a bit more metaphorical here, but I imagine there's some pent up frustration for Io and also Hendrix here, because the two of them have darker views when it comes to optimism in comparison with Freedom
"the black stars the black stars the black stars the black stars the black stars the black stars the black stars the black stars are looking at them" - getting both literal and not, looking at Io's perspective of the event she saw many people, including people who tried to save themselves, die or go kill themselves in an attempt to go out on their own terms. in her eyes, this was the world closing in on them, taking their victims like some cruel cosmic buffet
"a howling ray of light pierces my eyes. the bells of parting toll" - more death ideas and we know Io loves those. the ray of light reminds me of the sun splitting (something that happened here) and the basically bombs that were dropping. the poor baby
"the answer born out of the history built by god tastes like sand" - this just reminds me of freedom, especially with freedom and the monarchy as a whole being almost a destructive god to the citizens of Atlanta (which the South is a major part of)
"I start over with a dead variable, counting them made my temperature rise" - same as above when these lyrics came up
"I ask a question to the stars the same color as someone's clear eyes" - I will not be saying much except that Lux, Io's sister, had very light blue eyes so "clear eyes" would be basically white. white also reminds us of the bombs. also I would like to mention white and light are angelic terms, and Io looks at this event as a concerningly angelic moment. she saw the end of the world as a more angelic thing, and its kinda scary to think about when you remember io doesnt really follow a religion and she was nine
"the sadness, threatening to overwhelm, eventually overtakes me and becomes salt" - very little to say here. Io probably would've used the first verse and chorus before this as some kind of guard before finally letting all the death and fear and sadness hit her and that probably made her start crying and panicking because she's nine
"prayers, pain, sympathy, even pity all get priced before long" - im suffering trying to do something here but maybe its a break because the lyric after this is another huge one. i'd say this is close to Lux's advice of "people really dont care and you, io, are not anything special so just take advantage of other peoples kindness"
"now, even if I turn my back even if I turn my back even if I turn my back even if I turn my back even if I turn my back even if I turn my back even if I turn my back even if I turn my back I can still hear their screams" - ALRIIIIIIIIGHT GUILT AND FREEDOM AND IO AND THIS EVENT SPECIFICALLY. Io has intense survivors guilt, and while trying to escape her house's imminent collapse she saw a lot of basically living irradiated corpses beg for saving and obviously io could not do anything she was 9. meanwhile freedom, ignoring my silence for literary sakes, freedom looks at this event as her biggest mistake, and shes haunted by its consequences even when other people seem to move on. even the South has been rebuilt and most people have (kind of not really) moved on but these two have the most guilt and memory related to this day as the only two people who saw what happened extremely personally and since io doesn't know freedom and freedom wont tell her theyre very alone in their suffering and especially guilt
"the fish that advises that there's virtue in letting go of happiness swims in the sea of my self-conscious, the smell of discharged blood is in the air" - and we immediately lost the plot. some more literalness about how apocalypse-like this whole event was and Lux's dark advice on ignoring yourself
"the black stars the black stars the black stars the black stars the black stars the black stars the black stars the black stars are looking at me" - same as the last time this lyric was used, but the difference of the black stars being pointed at Io is a way of showing how Io began resigning herself to dying. she mightve lasted longer than most but it seemed impossible to survive this event and CAN YOU BLAME HER SHES NINE. I also reminf you of the angelic theming and say this is something similar to a divine blessing to Io, at least in modern day
"I start over with a dead variable, counting them made my temperature rise. With no one to send it to, I write this pitiful soliloquy" - this is actually slightly different than the first time we use this. i think this being used again moves this from the active event to one of Io's many nightmares about the event and how the older 14 year old sees things differently, specfically in io's maladaptive coping in seeing the event as a holy moment that had to happen. and her fear, her anger, her complete and utter despair? thats pretty pitiful and sacrilegious from Io's pov. im gonna also use this to talk about the definition of soliloquy, which is similar in meaning to monologues, but due to its drama undertones i prefer it when talking about io, since this song to me is io's performance, almost, trying to show her final thoughts to a nonexistant and dead audience, especially when you remember the clock she recorded her thoughts on
"the crying cells return to the sea, their mumblings refuse to cease" - god i have like nothing to say. i'd say look at the line of 'even if i turn my back', and i also wouls say returning to the sea is possibly a euphamism for death and thats very important for io
"the ashen clouds are drawn as though following the tracks a swallow's wings once drew" - ASH ASH ASH ASH ASH ASH ASH i'd be going more crazy but ash is specifically a freedom motif but considering her role in this event this is important. the swallow and its wings is also important for freedom becuase wings are a big signifier of freedom's power, and thus were basically everywhere when the FD was happening (another reason why this is considered a 'holy' event) and drawing goes back to io because drawing is her favorite pastime and the main way she deals with and 'talks' about the event
"I beg for tomorrow with a knit together honor, my hands are sullied with hope" - GOD i love this lyric even if it has less explicit metaphors. the first part doesnt align with much but the hope line is like Io's naive feelings and her desperate attempts to make the event something good so she doesnt sink into her fear and. like. how do i describe the feeling that comes with being the one survivor of millions of deaths when you've been told your life you're the 'wrong kind of special'. when you take into account that io is still very young and she doesnt have anyone (that she knows of) that understands her and I'd say the fact she wants to live is a great complement to this line
"I ask a question to the skies the same color as your clear eyes" - same as before but with skies. there was a lot of fire and bombs so I'd say the skies were red/yellow. amber even. freedom has amber eyes. lalalalala
"after we hold hands and love one another, I'll kill the dreams I could never fulfill" - GOD THIS LINE. ultimately its not much because i think this is more of Io trying to fix the event in her memory, but like. in reality io was alone and didnt have many dreams due to lux telling her she wasnt capable of fulfilling said dreams. so this is io wanting to save herself from just how awful the FD really was for her
"as my thoughts began to cease, a thermal anomaly appeared inside my core" - death death deaaaaaaath io has a lot of death imagery. i also see thermal anomaly as perhaps love and hope and happiness. remember ios survivors guilt spawned right here and it spawned with a vengeance. so "joining" the lost and "accepting" the gifts of the divine that was destroying the world was some horrible, cursed feeling when this was such an awful event
"this can't be real this can't be real this can't be real this can't be real this is unbearable" - io's dreams again and just how unbearable having this mostly daily with io's already daily sleep schedule. she has had to live with this for 5 years. also in the moment i refuse to believe io was not whispering this to herself as she tried to escape the destruction around her
"my throat has long since been swollen, the sounds I screamed out were already a bunch of nonsense. above the armchair, a rotten crescent moon is laughing. now, something's coming something's coming something's coming something's coming something's coming something's coming something's coming something's coming and it's coming towards me". - same as the last time we used this, but I think this one lyric-moment alone is the one thing she would've said when looking at the Angel of Death/The Harbinger of the Apocalypse/The Weapon of the Crown/the Sun Splitter/Freedom and the mangled body of Lux. She gave up in this moment. I would say she really wanted to run and survive before this but after seeing Lux she completely lost any instinct she might've had. She just watched the world fall apart and thus literally saw the building Lux was in collapse on top of her. ironically, this kept her alive. but still, seeing what should've killed you and not even trying to run is a very scarring experience for a nine year old
im doing the song analysis thing again for my ocs. this time for "taste of a cockroach" by maretu for freedom the freedomling
this time a cw for self harm and abuse but no end of the world stuff! Yay! putting it below the cut again
some basic things to know
-the questions that show up are for io specifically since she tends to be a mirror to freedoms own story and pain. those will be in pink. unfortunately theres usually not much to say other than "lux's friends sucked and they liked bullying a child" so im just goin to put ios answer in purple
-freedom thinks of her present self and her younger self as two seperate people
-god people hated baby freedom. mostly. because they thought she was fake as hell as le royalty. and this pissed baby freedom off so much but she refused to let herself say anthing
-the random people will be in blue. freedoms kind of mind will be in green. when its a combo of both itll be like this
-we'll be going slightly out of order so I don't just reiterate everything ever
anyway
"if we could spend every day like its a super fun adventure" - got freedom loved and still loves exploring. and she would love to share her passion with people. shes so cute omg
"so exciting, heart-pounding" - wowie! fun!
"don't you see? Everyone would be so happy!" - i already cant say it enough shes so sweet and genuinely wants happiness for people. i also think shes been taught to believe she does have power over such things. shes right her mommas taught her so she has to be right
"may you have a good day!" - i think when freedom was even more baby like toddler people liked her, especially because the media hadnt went and said "the queen is using this one as a tyrant in training"!!!!!! and she absolutely wants everyone to have a good day! hurray!
"someday I'll get this dream of mine to sparkle, and I'll smile with all I got!" - her dream was to bring the world the same joy she wanted to feel so bad. maybe she thought that if she did, she'd be more loved. but she'll keep smiling anyway because it has to help at some point
"Q1: Have you ever had thumbtacks put in your shoes?" Y ~ N"
"Q2: Have you ever had personal effects stolen from you?" Y ~ N"
"let's move forward!" - its three words. um. freedom's moving forward! seeing the world! let her do that please
"Q3: Have you ever been pushed down a staircase?" Y ~ N"
"no fun being all down-in-the-dumps!" - the reason i'm not just skipping past these is because i think its fun to look at freedom trying to convince herself to stay happy while io is going through The Questions. but no freedom youre not allowed to be sad then theyll treat you worse probably
"carefreely, being so carefree" - look at her she's trying so hard to be such a cute lil kid
"Let's get connected! Everyone, gather 'round in a circle" - Freedom wants a lot of friends because then maybe she'll be loved. maybe. it hasnt worked yet but she'll keep trying. she has to.
"Friends, companions" - perhaps?
"Q4: Have you ever had milk poured on your head? Y ~ N"
"Everyone challenges the future! I mean, I guess you're going to get hurt sometimes, but-" - Freedom has always been about people being able to better themselves and find their own future. the problem is that freedom is fully aware of the pain in the world. she's a victim of it too-
"like this?" - like this.
"Q5: Have you ever been stripped and photographed?" Y ~ N"
"Q6: Do you have hope for the immediate future?" Y ~ N"
"Q7: Have you ever been locked in a bathroom?" Y ~ N"
"Q8: Have you ever been treated like bacteria?" Y ~ N" - i dont think io would feel like she was treated badly...
"Let's join hands! We'll make some strong bonds with each other" - same as the other "lets get connected"! but how long can she keep saying that and believing it? there's still pain. she's still failing. why should she keep trying.
"friends, companions!" - i feel like freedom would have this as a cry to those she treats well. please. the world is kind, right? the world can be good, right? is she so wrong for wishing that?
"Q9: Have you ever had your shoes hidden so you'd have to walk home barefoot?" Y ~ N"
"Let's correct those stupid quirks" - this would be freedom saying that being mean- being cruel- why would you do that? it's wrong. does she need to be mean before you can hear her? she doesnt want to be but she will. please. just listen to her.
"failure, big flop" - but look at her. its so easy to laugh at her despair. she's not like us. shes a spoiled brat thats holding onto delusions of kindness. fool.
"Q10: Have you ever had your hair burnt with a lighter?" Y ~ N"
"If we see any bad guys around, we'll all dump the flames of justice on them with all our strength" - but that's fine, according to Freedom! just keep being kind! it has to work. this has to work at some point. she'll be a good girl! maybe she'll be doing something right. maybe she'll be good enough.
"pretty bad sense of justice..." - well, nothing's happening. nothing's being saved. pretty bad justice if nothing is changing, yes?
"Q11: Have you ever had a drawing you made ripped up?" Y ~ N"
"Q12: Have you ever had your clothes cut with scissors?" Y ~ N"
"Those poor kids! From their point of view, our potential's gotta be way too bright!" - and then this, to me, is freedom trying to convince herself that she's doing something right. she's doing her best! she's got so much potential! people agree- well, they don't, but what can she do? those poor kids! she's so cool! well, she'll keep saying that until she's right.
"Losers, losers! infinite potential" - but look at her. she's being mean. is this truly infinite potential? what else does she have?
"Q13: Have you ever had your body cut with a knife?" Y ~ N"
"Q14: Have you ever had rocks thrown at you?" Y ~ N"
"Whenever we see some rando having bad luck... well, if we don't do anything about it, we might look like some heartless jerks that dont give a crap when people suffer, and that's a scary thought, so we'll take a quick second to say we feel bad for them and are sorry for them to turn it into a chance for our popularity to go up, and we'll sneer with all we've got...!" - oh freedom being an analysis paralysis girlie. shes always trying to change and be what other people want but shes very aware of the consequences of her actions. but they hate her less. they hate her less. shes trying. does she have to keep being mean? she'll do it. freedom does what people want her to do. always.
what can she do?
"Q15: Have you ever had your teeth broken?" Y ~ N"
"Q16: Have you ever had leftovers dumped in your bag?" Y ~ N"
"Q17: Have you ever been made to shoplift?" Y ~ N"
"Let's cut ties, and say farewell to morals" - as freedom grew older, she found it harder to maintain the kindness she wanted others to show to her. because she wanted to protect herself, she distanced herself from others because she's been betrayed and broken and she doesn't really have anything else let. but she hasn't been broken completely. soon.
"the blame hurts to watch" - but freedom's trying to be good. trying to see the good in people. but shes tired. no one gives her back what she gives and she has so little left to give
"Q18: Are you reluctant to show a smile? Y ~ N" - io was probably told her smile was ugly...
"Let's settle this, and let the muttering end" - she'll keep doing her best. she'll make the world good. she'll make the world kind, even if it kills her. and maybe she wants that. she certainly doesnt want to live in a world that cant be kind.
"friendliness and goodbyes..." - so now she's weighing everything thats with her that she holds. does she keep being kind like she wants, or at least she thinks she wants, or does she say goodbye to the innocence of her younger self? why does everyone else seem to care so much?
"Q19: Have you ever hurt someone?" Y ~ N"
"Think anyone will realize all the in-group bias?" - there's a lot of irritation in my girl. she knows how cruel her world is. shes smart enough to realize how environments shape the people around her. and thats stupid to her. and whats holding her back from expressing that? its not like people care anyway.
"Q20: Is there anyone you can ask for advice? Y ~ N" - ios sister Lux! duh!
"You're always taking charge, always about to snap at me, making sure we 'stick to the rules'" - hey look freedom's talking about freedommom. freedommoms name is kitty. i imagine the "rules" are to be cold and strong. and to never let anyone get close. because the cycle of abuse is real guys!
"Can't take this hard-headedness" - look this analysis hasnt showed enough of freedom attempting to be kind and so many people around her have tried to be as close-minded as possible. and kitty. shes so tired of all this crap.
"Q21: Have you ever attempted suicide?" Y ~ N" - i dont think io knew what suicide was... at least, not enough to know she could try
"Everyone's special, there's only one of each person! (..?) ...but, well, most people are just a bunch of worthless kids" - freedom wants to be kind, but then she has to put up her shields so some of the kindness is kept alive. just in case she meets good people. itll happen at some point
"Q22: Is there a clear reason for you to live?" Y ~ N"
"!? Is this kid sane? Of course!" and thats why she has to protect herself. because she has to defend herself. everyone thinks shes wrong for still believing in the inherent kindness of others. but shes not. right?
"Q23: Is there value to your own existence?" Y ~ N"
"Q24: Do you make a habit of disclosing your distress?" Y ~ N"
"Q25: Have you ever been ignored (while in a group?)" Y ~ N"
"Q26: Have you ever had your failures laughed at? Y ~ N"
"Q27: Have you ever been given a nickname against your will?" Y ~ N"
"don't cry, my special one... So hateful, these popular saints! don't give up, my special one... Oh, so brave, that untamed spirit" - one of my favorite parts of freedoms character is how quick she is to believe people have worth. but shes been taught so, so much that shes wrong. so itll stay hidden. so the people are happy with her. that maybe she'll be safe.
"Q28: Have you ever had your physical traits rejected?" Y ~ N"
"Q29: Is there anyone you wish were gone?" Y ~ N"
"Q30: Is there anyone you can let your guard down around?" Y ~ N"
"Q31: Is there anyone you like?" Y ~ N" - please, please, please see how much of a mirror freedom and io are PLEASE freedoms alone and still trying to be kind but she has no hope. io is alone and isnt trying to be particularly kind but she kinda has lux whether lux likes it or not. hurray!
"if we could spend every day like it's a super fun adventure..." - my poor babby if you listen to the song this part is so sad. she really wants a kind world guys
"Q32: Is there any meaning in life?" Y ~ N"
"You've gotta be kidding me! That's not how life works!" - but its been long enough that freedom knows the world isnt truly kind. But maybe she can make a difference by being kind anyway. This is still baby freedom btw
"don't you see? everyone would be so happy..." - same as the last time we used this lyric, with the context from above
"Q33: Is there any meaning in death?" Y ~ N"
"That brain in your head- is it rotten?" - no actually baby freedom the world cannot be kind. are u stubid.
they most certainly were not.
"I'm gonna hurl... everyone's going to gang up on that kid, and make fun of them with all they've got, and make them fall apart completely!" - OK FUTURE FREEDOM SPEAKING BABY! once again ignoring my silence for this analysis's sake, the beginning of the Forgotten Day was baby Freedom deciding "yknow what this has been awful but I hear your concerns. So I'll go talk, just me, a lil 11 year old. Surely they'll be willing to talk normally to an 11 year old" and-
io physically got off ok, all things considered. but even if what Freedom did was wrong (which she knows), she was hurt too. But it was never meant to go this far. she was just a kid.
the most heartbreaking part about this, I think, is how this finally broke her. she finally was able to look in the mirror and hate herself like everyone hated her. she finally saw how cruel the world truly was to people like her baby self. they did it. they killed her. freedom died just like everyone else during the FD and whats left is the shards trying to follow in the baby's footsteps. but she doesn't feel anything doing this.
Tell her, straight to her face: was this what you wanted?
"Q34: Are people equal?" Y ~ N"
"Q35: Are you entertaining hopes of post-traumatic stress growth?" Y ~ N"
"Q36: Have you ever been made to eat the corpse of a cockroach?" Y ~ N" - did you know raw cockroaches taste metallic, with an awful aftertaste? io could tell you that
"this whole thing, I think it's sick. this whole thing, I think it's sick. this whole thing, I think it's sick. this whole thing, I think it's sick" - everyone's opinions on the FD. Including Freedom's. Especially freedom's.
Im tired once again IM SO SORRY ITS BAD oki byeeeeeee
FINISHED THESE UP JUSTTTT NOW. ☝️☝️☝️☝️☝️☝️☝️☝️ CONGRATULATIONS FOR BEING THE FIRST TO EVER LOOK AT THEM 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰HRHRHFDHFH
OKAY I AM GEN SHAKING WITH EXCITEMENT LIKE A PARTICLE ACCELERATOR. ABOUT WHAT YOU SAIDDD. FREEZE YOU DONT GET I GET SO ASTRONOMICALLY HAPPY EVERY TIME YOU EVEN MENTION MY CREATURELINGS LET ALONE FR SPECULATE ON THEM??? OUGGUVH SMILES SOO WIDE SMILESSSSSSS
SO FIRST OF ALL YOUD BE RIGHT ☝️☝️☝️ ON LARA'S LEAST FAVOURITE PART OF THE PRETEND PLAYING WHEN ROSSIE IS #NICE TO HER EVEN WITH THE IDEA THAT SHES JUST DOING IT TO HURT HER AGAIN. LIKE ITS NICE TO BE CUTE AND DO PRETTY THINGS AND ALL OF THAT BUT. BUTTTTTTTTTT.
OUGGUGH YOU WORDED IT BEAUTIFULLY. YOU WORDED IT BEAUTIFULLY. IM SO HAPPY YOU GOT IT RIGHT IM SO HAPPY THAT III WAS ABLE TO GET THAT ACROSS SUCCESSFULLY (dude a little secret every time i write about then im REALLY SCARED i might make some outsider misconstrue them due to shoddy writing on my part that someone would look at them and think that their toxicity is meant to be "raunchy"EWWWWWWWWWWWWW so imREALLY SUPER GLAD YOU GET IT YAYY) and lara cant accept for herself anything that isnt hashtag straight up torture because she cannot allow herself to be loved nuh uh !!! too human !!! humans have murky yucky problems and issues and they feel pain and cry and lara doesn't want to do any of that !!!!!!!!!!! smiles super super nervouslyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
theyareosmessyyyyytheyaressooo messeddupppp YAY FOR YOU ASKING HOW ROSSIE FEELS rossie is doing ger best to ignore how embarrassing something like this would be naturally is but sort of in a different approach that lara is taking it. rossie's approach is "we are dying in 20 days it doesn't matter it doesn't matter it doesn't matter it doesn't matter it doesn't matter it doesn't ma" and with her added schizophrenia since lara is A WALKING "TW UNREALITY" TRIGGER and since their game (formal word: delusion but its a game to them that's their Playdate) consists of lara being the Doll and rossie being the Girl dragging her around, the boundaries between what's real and what's fake are naturally extremely weird and hard for rossie to make out, especially since her role isnt to forfeit every feeling she's ever had, so everything from the beloved cruelty she gets to do to her to the fake kindness that comes in them doing cute fun things together to the ahem. scary uninvited actual kindness that CREEPS in without even realizing it during them doing cute fun things together that is equally TERRIFYING to them both the whole thing is so sickening for her yet is literally made perfectly for her brain. they are so #perfect for each other am i rightttt.
i might be explaining it crazily think of it like this. ive had this in my notes app that i wanted to draw it since february AND ITSS THISSSS
rossie is very happy to torment her yes but 𝐔𝐧𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐭𝐮𝐧𝐚𝐭𝐞𝐥𝐲 her schizophrenia phasing back and forth from delusion (good !!!) to what might Actually be going on here (BAD !!!) its really tumultuous and she's gotta make this NOT lara's problem at all costs because she doesnt want to be human eitherrr having a doll to be your little punching bag who you can do whatever you want with no human reprocussions is literally THE BEST THING EVER why would she ever want anything else??? curse this awful brain..,,..,
BUT YEAAAHHHHHH BUT YEAH I HAVE GOT TO DRAW MORE OF ROSSIE BEING CRUEL TO HER AND LARA ABSOLUTRLY ABSOLVING IN IT
but also, at the same time.... its okay to love your doll a little, isnt it ?
okay that's enough dramatic ominousness for today THANK YOU FREEZEEE THANK YOUUU AND ALSO KEEP YOUR EYES OOEN IM COMINGNFOR YOU AGAIN OVER A Something Else
NOMMING NOMMING NOMMING NOMMING YUMMY YUMMY YUMMY LAVI LAVI CHU WHATEVER IM SCREAMING. IM SCREAMIINNGGGGGGGGGG
rossie ur reaction in the third pic is real to me i dont like it. Me when im out with my daddddd also canonically Io would just stare at you if you tried to put a bandage on the fruits of her scalpel. She worked so hard on it are you saying she did a bad job? Thats fine… 🥺😢sniffles sobs…🥺 i dont mind… 😭😭sobbing tears customers felt too bad so they’d try to walk and be laughed at and Io just chuckles evilly she was not a good child
SAME I LOOOOOOOOVE WHEN YOU SPECULATE I LOOOOOVE WHEN PEOPLE SEE INTO THE LITTLE THINGS IM WRITING. AND THE WAY YOU INCORPORATE SYMBOLISM AND THE DARKER THEMES OF ROSSIE AND LARAS LIFE WITHOUT EXPLICITLY SAYING IT MAKES ME SCREEEEEAAAAAAAM
smal who. WHO is saying the writing is “raunchy” HAVE THEY READ THE TEXT!!????????? It’s sooooooo clear that the “love” is twisted and selfish and codependent on each other. Not that allo relationships cant be that either but to ME at least Playdate is a platonic relationship masquerading as a storybook couple for the cutesy viiiiibes.
THE WAY YOU ELABORATED. AAAAAAAAAAAA rossie being nice to Lara gives her FEELINGS and she HATES IT that means she’s human and she has to ACTUALLY FEEL THE PAIN THAT LIFE IS PUTTING HER THROUGH EWWWWWWWW me frrrrrrr Lara like me frrrrrrrrrr me when im failing in math!!!!!! Even though i understand the material!!!!!!!!!! Even though im tutored and study a lot at home!!!!!!!!!!!!! It means nothing and i dont wanna acknowledge it!!!!!!!!!!
ROSSIE ROSSIE ROSSIEEEEEEEEEE. NOTHING MAATTERS DID SOMEONE SUMMON MYSTIC FLOUR. IM SORRYYYYYYY THAT IDEA IS SO MYSTIC FLOUR CODED IN THE #BEST WAYYYYYYYYY SHES IGNORING IT SHES IGNORING THE ISSUES AND THE THOUGHTSSSSSSSS BECAUSE NOTHING MATTERS!!!!!!!! 🤪🤪🤪😝 laughing SO HARD!!!!!! LAUGHING MANIACALLY IN RELIGION CLASS
EWWWWW IMAGINE SOMEONE BEING KIND TO YOU. UR ACTING LIKE WHAT I NEED SECRETLY BUT YOURE JUST GOING TO HURT ME LIKE EVERYONE ELSE AND BREAK THE SHIELDS IVE SO PRECARIOUSLY SET UP!!!!! HAHA!!!!! I LOVE MY PLAYDATE
AUGHHHHH I. OH GOD LARA. AGAIN. ROSSIE’S MAYBE DEATH. LARA OHHHH LARA!!!!!!!!! LARA WHY WOULD YOU DO THIS TO ME!!!!!!!! SMAL IM ON THE VERGE OF TEARS /VERYVERYGEN!!!! SHE BROUGHT THIS ON HERSELF!!!!!!!! SHE GENUINELY LIKED ROSSIE!!!! AT THE VERY LEAST WAS INTERESTED IN HER!!!!!! BUT SHES HURT AGAIN!!!!! AND ITS ALL HER FAULT BUT ITS ALSO ROSSIESSSSS!!!!! SMAL!!!!! WHY!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i cant say anything else im so sick /vpos. Im gonna continue to work on freedom’s lil ISSUES!!!!!! <333333 story and im gonna cry on the inside. Thank you so so so so so much for sharing your brainworms i love them so much
I dont have the words to explain how beautiful this image is to me. He chose this outfit it wasn't my fault he fully looked at this and decided to wear it
Holy hell sprout leave her alone
I feel like this is the Box Demon with extra steps
NOT ROSSIE NOT EVEN HAVING MARACAS. smal get your playdate eat up
Lara once again terrorizes this specific gay couple. Why does she always messing with Dandy and Astro
For context: Crystal had a crush on Strawberry Cookie but strawberry just didnt like her at all, not even showing up the FIRST time and outright saying no the SECOND time, and not even like 10 minutes after Strawberry Cookie decided to ask out Yuki, aka the girl from the Lagtrain amv (dont ask why shes on my island). And Crystal, who wasn't even friends with Yuki, interjected. Yuki chose Strawberry and that marks the 3rd (technically 4th) time Crystal has been rejected on this island
Just to rub salt in the wound, here's Frendrix having fun in space
