so i began typing all this in here and then completely forgot i could just.answer this in the ask you sent me LOLSORRY i do not Want to copy every paragraph i wrote in here to go transfer it to my own mailbox unfortunately so i hope my rambles being in your mailbox instead is not so disorienting. thank you
okay so this is really cool. maybe im just looking at it from a synesthesic perspective (as a synesthesic myself lol) but i REALLY dig different "areas" of her memoryland being perceived with different colours.AND THE COLOURS ARE SO SPECIFIC AND I REALLY LIKE THE USE OF BLOOD-VELVET RED FOR THAT Darned Hendrix /SILLY
freeze if theres one thing that makes me gush out lots its how unequivocal you are with freedom's Mind Situations (<- COULDNT THINK OF A BETTER NOUN HOPE THAT MAKES SENSE) and its.like. ive never read anything like this before she is So Real and there is something Very wrong with her. insert incoherent hand flailing from smal here. fhe description of the discrepancy with the colours and how odd it was that she could percieve burnt ash within this mostly warm scope that weirdly had blue colours in there too---SO REAL FREEDOM 😁🫵🫵🫵me when its all foggy me when i can describe it but i cant.
also the way she is "following her younger self"THATS REALLY GOOD like this "younger self" of hers that she is following Is it really her? its her but shes out of it? but she was inside that little self when it happened? but now she isnt. and shes trying to recall a memory of a memory that's hers but not really hers in the sense that SHE CANT FEEL IT ANYMORE. SHE CAN ONLY OBSERVE IT FROM A DISTANCE ITS NO LONGER SOMETHING SHE FEELS.or perhaps she'd never really felt it within herself in the first place.perhaps it was always an """out of body experience"""PLEASE TELL ME IF IM LOOKING INTO THIS WAY TOO HARD AT THE COMPLETELY WRONG ANGLE BUT IM.THIS IS REALLY GOOD.THIS ONE SPEAKS TO ME AS THE CHRONIC MEMORY DISCREPANCER
also now it's time for smal5504 to make this about playdate: the word "hazy" mentioned i love the word hazy i use that for lara often when it's dark Ish and the perception of what's there and what isnt is dizzy and tiring. also. "the perimeters of her vision were hazy and covered in smoke and fog." hi freedom youre matching witb rossie. i love everything
okay back OUFUFFGHDGDGS OH MY FUCKING PIN FACTORY THIS IS SO RELATABLE I FUCKING LOVE FREEDOM GRRGDGSGSGRGFGSGRGEGEGVRDGDGFGFF maybe im too dizzy from pacing around in circles to think But when you mentioned that she could never actually see her Self From The Memory's face but could LITERALLY ONLY physically recall how it felt contorting but not enough to resist her getting inexplicably SICK all of a sudden AND THEN
HI FREEDOM. THATS CALLED GUILT I THINK. HIIIIIII ♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡
its so horrifically vivid all of the sudden (AND CAN I SAY THAT HER PERSONALLY EXTRACTING THE BULLETS WITH HER BARE HANDS IS SO RAAAW AND VISCERAL ??????/VVVVVVPOS) and AHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHA no it was not an out of body experience. awhwwhwgwggh freeze i hope she dies /AFF
FUCK MY LIFE /VVVVVVVVVPOS
I STARTED SCREAMING OUTLOUD IN MY ROOM WHEN IT STARTED GOING ON ABOUT WHAT SHE DESERVED LIKE "YEEESSSSSSSSSSS YEESSS YEESSSSSSS YESYEYSYEYEEYSYESSS YESSS"
I HAVE TURNED INTO A NEUROTYPICAL DAD WATCHING FOOTBALL
IM.HFGHFGDGFHDGHFHFGRHRGR FREEDOOOOOOMMMMMMMMM I LOVEEEE HOW IT ALLLLL LOOPS BACK TO HER SELF-CHASTISEMENT AND HER FEELINGS OF DESERVINGNESS ANOTHER CASE OF THE WONDERFUL LIFE CYCLE OF FREEDOM DE ATLANTIA: WAKE UP. GUILT. SELF-HATRED. BAD MEMORIES. REPEAT IM GOING TO GET HER A T-SHIRT THAT SAYS THIS /SILLYYYYYY
AGAIN FORGIVE ME IF IM #WRONG. BUT I LOVE CORNPLATING ABOUT YOUR DAUGHTER AND I AM PATTING HER HORRIBLE TORN-OFF BLACK SHADOW FACE WITH LOTS OF LOVE.THANK YOU FOR SHOWING MEEEE 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰
I SWEAR I HAD THIS ON MY BLOG I WAS STARING AT IT AND GOING "OH BOY AM I GLAD I GOT TO ANSWET THIS WONDERFUL ASK" AND THEN I GOT THE OTHER ONE (CRAZY BTW SCREAMIIINNNNNGGGG) SO I HAVE ONE MORE DAY OF FINALS LEFT LETS ANSWER THIS
1. I do not have synethesia but that is how I imagine it. Why? Idk either way the story bleeds into reality
2 Mind Situations is a Way of describing it and i don't have any better ones so Hurray /gen!!!! There is indeed something very wrong with her! If freedom is ever normal thats a doppelganger return my freedomling to me immediately
3. The younger self thing was not technically how I meant it, but thats also a part of it. Id say Freedom more so looks at her younger self like a parent looks at a their spoiled 5-year-old having a tantrum on the store floor. You really cant be that mad since thats a baby and it's a tiny bit your fault but DAMN are you fighting demons to not murder that thing (for freedom at least I do not think most parents want to murder their child)
4. HAZYHAZYHAZHAZYHAZY something about that word screams playdate for me. It's just so drawn out but squished together in a very awkward combination of words and I love it Always Bet On Playdate (ABOP 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰😂🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰)
5. FREEDOM ROSSIE MATCHING theyre so funny to me they're dealing with very similar things and yet they deal with it in completely different ways someone hit them with a baseball bat
6. VIVIDVIVIDVIVID YESSSSSSS I mean it is a very vivid memory but vivid in the sense an abstract painting is vivid. it's. a lot. Freedom is 12. She did not have to do all the stuff but she did because as you said "that is called Guilt Freedom 😀😀😀😀😀😀😀😀)
7. EVERYTHING COMES BACK TO FREEDOMS SELF HATRED MY PERFECT BABY SHE HATES HERSELF SOOOOOOOOO MUCH
I hope you get to see this when you next get wifi I eagerly count down the days of your return WIFI WILL NOT STOP ME hehehhehehe /silly (I dunno what im saying anymore...)
