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Sun baby ☀️

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Been a while since I shared myself on my bloggy blog.

I'm here, I'm hanging on.

Life is the weirdest thing, isn't it?

Why do I feel so removed from it but tethered at the same time. Not a question. When did I start feeling this way? This is a question?

Did I ever feel good? How did I stray so far from myself? Why don't I love me more? Or maybe I do. Tkdndusktbtdhsk, respectfully ✌🏽

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4 different times I felt pretty so far in 2017😋

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I don't know 🤷🏽‍♀️

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So post-Tuchanka dream!

I know the ingame one is all “creepy forest” and “Reaper kid” but what Rae really dreams of is a very unpleasant mishmash of Akuze, Virmire, and Tuchanka along with snippets of things Tali and Legion and Mordin and Ash had said to her.

(I couldn’t really think of anything in her backstory that would result in her coming up with a creepy forest even in dreamland, although that would probably work for a couple of my other Sheps).

I do love the stare-into-the-mirror-while-talking-to-Liara convo.

Rae misses Ash, aww. They were pretty close and her decision on Virmire was tactical and didn’t involve romantic feelings, so that grief is relatively straightforward compared to, say, how she feels about what happened with Tali.

I’ll probably mention this later when Kaidan brings up Ash later but it’s wild that Shepard’s perception of how long it’s been since Virmire is seven months + however long ME 2 takes + however long it’s been since ME 3 started (so in total probably about a year or less) and for everyone else it’s been three years.

Liara: Are you thinking about anyone in particular?

Shepard: Ashley back on Virmire. She gave her life stopping Sovereign. Wonder what she’d make of fighting a whole fleet of Reapers.

Liara: If I had to guess, Ashley would call it target practice.

That is a remarkably accurate guess coming from someone who generally seems puzzled by Ash in ME 1 (and vice versa).

Shepard: Yeah. Sounds like her.

Rae’s hair got IN THE WAY at this point (fortunately it is now out of the way during some important endgame scenes, hooray!).

But that was not a very happy smile. It would be great to have Ash around.

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When it is my time to crossover, I hope to make a quick pit stop in the year 1926 as a 26 year old me. This will be years before the people I love most will come into existence. I want just a few hours, maybe a few short of a day to run around stress free. To hear the music, to wear the clothes, to take in the vibrations of the world I'll be in, a world in a state of anticipation to receive my loved ones. My loved ones are the best people in the world. I hope for this just to be free from stress and worry. I can wait but I hope for this.

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I know that life is short and I want to live. I want to be happy and make memories with my loved ones and be fully present in all of my experiences. But I miss the ones I've lost so much that sometimes I just want to skip to the afterlife so that I can see them and be with them. So cruel is life that it is so short but feels so long all at once.

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Tbh, I really really miss Halloween sm