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[asheron02]

There’s still 2 last Konkurabe SP translations on Yukochan I want to post. It’ll be around this week.

[freshias]

grandma fell in the basement and cut her head open tonight while i was gone and dad called the ambulance and she’s in the hospital with mom now and i get home like what the fuck is going on

and dad just starts unloading on me about how he can’t go back to work for 3 more weeks now and he doesn’t know what we’re gonna do about food or getting us back to chicago and now im not only freaked out about grandma im stressed about that too

[freshias]

i still struggle sometimes with how i feel about my mom going through with the growth hormone on me.

on one hand, i understand it: she was trying to keep me from having to live a life that would render me as “disabled” (which is not a word i claim personally for myself, but doctors words) and unable to perform certain tasks in the adult world.

on the other hand, at no point was i ever consulted about this, which is probably because i was like 9 and if you asked any 9 year old “hey you wanna have to do a shot every single night for a couple years because it MIGHT make you taller someday?” any normal kid is gonna be like hell no. Still...

it also gives me a weird taste in my mouth, like... i also had surgery to fix my ears when i was about 5 because they stuck out due to excess cartilage behind them. its just.... an awful lot of hospital trips just to make your kid normal, i guess.

if it were my kid, i don’t think i would have done any of it, but that wasnt my call to make.

[freshias]

one of those sweet homesick nights. cool!!!!!!!!!!

i just want one last summer with everyone before im basically forced to permanently live away. i want to visit every single place and say my goodbyes because ill always be able to go back and visit but ill probably (hopefully, at least) never live there again and while moving forward is an important part of life i just want one last hurrah

where i can actually go out with sarah (pool??? ice cream??? literally anywhere i miss that child so much????) since she’ll be cancer free

and i can see lexi’s baby

and i can see my new niece

and say goodbye to my cat

and spend a lot of time with my grammy since she’s getting old

and spend time with my best friend

but this is all super childish and unimportant lol;;; it doesnt matter. there are more important things than how i feel at 2am lmao

[freshias]

me and my boyfriend might break up and my roommate is bringing his PARENTS over. this is. less than great

[freshias]

Homesickness for me is weird bc i dont miss home persaaaaay as much as i miss the people that come with home My first year of college when everyone was so sad being away i didnt experience being homesick or sad even ONCE but the more time i spend away the more i miss people. And it rotates out. Like some weeks i miss my brother and some weeks i miss my cat and then weeks like this i miss kert, the old bastard who just turned 65. I called him and told him he was older than dirt on his birthday!! I miss our banter lol I still dont actually miss kansas or even my old house. Just.. The people i guess

[asheron02]

I’ll be away for the next few months some time after Yukochan’s birthday, so I won’t be updating with translations of Yuko’s (and any related) SNS posts while I’m away.

Translations of Maiyan’s mobame should be fine, since Maiyan only occasionally post stuffs there. Though I might do updates a day or two late.

Until then, I’ll still be updating per normal, as and when there's some new posts to translate.

(Will reblog this again once I’m away.)

(*゜－＾)ゞ

[freshias]

bf says 10% of his check has to go to “tithe” and like. i dont want to question that because i WANT to respect his beliefs n stuff but money is so tight right now and i just dont get it.. and honestly there’s no point in me asking about it because he would give some religious answer and i still wouldnt get it and it would just end in another argument

idkk i guess donating always seemed like something you did when you had an excess of money not when you cant afford groceries lol