#ask aleksandr

[ask-aleksandr]

You know, if you wanted to check in, you could have shot me a letter

- @enakogan

Did not feel like that was my place. Felt sort of...

Unwelcomed, after everything. I figured you wanted space, for the time being. Lest I was thinking too much about it.

Regardless, I understand and acknowledge the invitation. Will do, friend.

[ask-aleksandr]

What made you realize you wanted to change your ways? Is there any story behind that?

No, I'm afraid. It was an accumulation of things that piled up, which then lead to the first harsh realization.

You want a more dramatic story? I begun building in my spare time, long years ago, and not exactly legos. I was alone, because I had destroyed everything and everyone around me, I spent days working until my hands began to bleed. Then, when I was finally done, I noticed.

When I wanted to celebrate, there was no one but subordinates around me. People who, instead of cherishing my accomplishments, simply nodding feverously to my words. People who were broken and seeked guidance, or those who simply wanted bloodshed spilled in the name of "justice".

It was in that moment, when I was so close to achieving my goal, that I found out how ridiculous it was. What was the purpose of winning if there were no winners left?

I am glad I did not go through with my plans, and I am glad I stopped when I did. I don't think I could sleep at night after that, if I hadn't seen clearly what I was doing.

[ask-aleksandr]

If Bell were to come back, would you accept them?

Yes, only if they were to accept me back too.

[ask-aleksandr]

If you had the power to bring someone you lost back, who would it be?

My mother. Even the toughest man should be allowed to sob into their mother's arms when they need it. I don't deserve it, but I want it.

"Bell" is my second option. I owe that to them.

[ask-aleksandr]

i never get close to redemption, I get close to forgiving myself and earning forgiveness.

[ask-aleksandr]

"get immediate mental help" oh, for what? Boo-hoo, wa wa, I want to kill someone.

Newsflash, dipshit, I've got fucking gun rights. They're letting ME own a fun and I have every right to use it however I please.

I do not have any mental illnesses nor am I on drugs. I just do what's needed to protect the East. Something you've long given up on, apparently.

It's pathetic.

It's spelled "gun", not "fun". You certainly don't own a fun, or anything that involves joy.

[ask-aleksandr]

im EVIL perseus member and I HATE YOU i HATE the GOOD GUYS i love my EVIL BOSS

This does not have the effect you think it has. Get immediate psychiatric help like I did.

[ask-aleksandr]

Perseus?— no, sorry, Aleksandr.

I don't know if you know me. Or remember me, for any matter. I know you— at least, the version of you I know— know a lot of the Bells. I'm Andrei. Andrei Aliyev, if that helps any..

All of this ramble for what— I just wanted to say, um, good job on leaving the Perseus business behind. It's far for the better.

Hopefully... hopefully we can be together once more. Not as terrorists this time.

— @bell-askblog 🔔

I am sorry if this sounds cruel, but the name does ring a bell. Yes, I think I know who you are. Or the version I know of you, as you said.

Yes, I suppose we're both on the same page about all of... that. It may be weird, but I do apologize for everything, even if you're not my "Bell".

I am always here if you feel like starting over. I think we both could use some company. Do not hesitate to call.