not quite an unpopular opinion, but what do you think why didn't theo write a suicide note for boris in amsterdam when he wrote one for everyone else in his life? also, I feel like people don't acknowledge enough that the quote: "we don’t get to choose our own hearts" very much also refers to boris among other things. I think it was made very clear that boris represents chaos that theo is undeniablly attracted to so he gets obsessed with pippa who he percieves to be the opposite of that - which is why he associates her with his mother. anyway, just my opinion. xx
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trying to put myself in his place, i believe theo didn't write to boris bc a) he didn't know how to and b) he knew he didn't have to. allow me to elaborate
as you pointed out, boris represented a whole side of theo's life and personality.
there's a reason theo showed the painting to boris and boris only, and that's because he knew it was the only person in his life who would get him. boris would never judge or snitch him on that. he would understand theo's urge to have the painting to the point of having that same urge himself (which led him to stealing it too).
my point is, boris gets him, and theo knows (or at least feels) that.
second part is that theo fucking sucks at expressing his feelings clearly (without hiding what he really means) due to his discomfort with opening up. him and boris lived and did more (meaningful) stuff together than anyone else in theo's life, and he probably could not think of anything he wanted to say that he could put into words and that boris didn't already know.
in fact, when theo comes back to the hotel to do it and finds boris there, they have this cute little dialogue about the reward money that shows exactly what i mean:
of course he knows what u mean he knows your heart better than anyone he had it longer than anyone else you feel me
so yea those are my quick thoughts on that hope it was good enough for u anon :]
(also i really like the "we don’t get to choose our own hearts" line, so yes let's all talk about it more. and if i might add, let's all sit with "and that's why i've chosen to write these pages as i've written them. for only by stepping into the middle zone, the polychrome edge between truth and untruth, is it tolerable to be here and writing this at all" one more time because ?????? we know you lied and tried to omit and/or diminish very important things but SIR ??!?!?!
anyway loved your thoughts on the connection between pippa and boris as opposite representations in his life ty for sharing and for the ask <33)