Currently reading: I'm not actually reading anything right now! But I'll tell you that the last one was Caitlyn Doughty's "Will My Cat Eat My Eyeballs?: Big Questions from Tiny Mortals about Death". It was delightful, as are all of Caitlyn's books. I recommend her youtube channel too, ask a mortician. Before that I read "Working Girls: Trixie and Katya's Guide to Professional Womanhood " and before that, "I'm glad my mom died" by Jennette McCurdy.
Much like any movies, I tend to watch and read what I'm recommended. Young me had a school library right on my fingertips and read everything and everything, but adult me has work and is pressed for time and motivation to begin a new series.
Favorite color: Uh, I like dark blue, light green, yellow and orange? Greys and muted purples? currently.
Last song: Hozier - Almost (Sweet Music)
Last movie: Puss in Boots: The Last Wish (2022). Very enjoyable, nice animation.
Currently working on: uh- what counts as 'working' on something?
Technically, I started on drafting a very rough bedsheet mockup for the vest that I'm gonna make for my Rölli and Metsänhenki cosplays. My own rölli and menninkäinen designs, btw. For funsies (I love the movie).
I'm working on myself, building some physique by hitting the gym once a week, 'cause I need some exercise and it's good prep for top surgery, whenever that rolls around. (waiting on ultrasound so I can get on the surgery waiting list)
I'm working on collecting some ideas for tattoos for post-surgery me. watercoloury/ink paintingy style.
I'm working up courage to draw and write again? I feel like I've mostly abandoned that due to work, but I'm trying not to pressure myself too hard.
I'll tag the first 9 taggables from my activity feed (woe to you, friend!): @perkeleensimpura @linesca @sienikartta @anaalikristus @hamyhamyhakki @viinapulloposti @kirsikkatequila @idontwannabeinhelsinkigayscene @gallifreyancoffeecat
..how are you all finns have I been a suomitumppu blogi all this time
List your 10 favorite characters from 10 things (in no particular order), then tag!
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1) James (Pokémon)
2) Toffee (Star vs The Forces of Evil)
3) Zuko and Iroh (Avatar the Last Airbender)
4) Alfred Pennyworth (DC comics)
5) Sayo Yasuda and Ronove (Umineko no Naku Koro Ni)
6) Hercule Poirot (Agatha Christie’s Poirot)
7) Kuja (Final Fantasy IX)
8) Kaiba (Yu-Gi-Oh! Duel Monsters)
9) Taako (The Adventure Zone: Balance)
10) Crowley (Good Omens)
Tagging: @forceway + some people from my activity list, if you’d like to try this one! @nuunamaria @prince-with-a-peach @kuuttituutti @kirsikkatequila @thefairytaleofmylife @piatch @linesca @varjojentuomio
"do i even dare to speak out your name for fear it sounds like, like a lover" thatse it i am officially dead
my sleep deprived ass @ 1am whomst’ve is mildly confused at everything and cannot for the life of me figure out what you’re referring to; Oh damn that’s some high romance Pining right there u so right that quote slays preach it sis I need me some of that
also me a moment later once I google that and realize it’s lyrics in a poets of the fall song: OH. HONEY- HONEY MY HEART- you can’t just sidle into my askbox and kill me like this- have mercy
Thank you for asking!~ Oh you chose all the long ones okay we’ll be here for a while so buckle up :’D
[1] If someone wanted to really understand you, what would they read, watch, and listen to?
Hummm…Hercule Poirot, in any medium. I just adore that genre and Poirot crystallizes the positive aspects of it to me, he represents this patient and elegant guile that fascinates me to no end. I’d love to embody Poirot in that sense. I am a fan of Sherlock and miss Marple and such, but Poirot takes the cake. I also want the moustache. ALSO! Nick and Nora Charles from those old old black and white movies. They are adorable. Umineko no Naku koro ni is also, and amazing and aggravating and hilarous and heartwrenching mystery that I’d recommend. It’s hard to sit through, but I loved it and cried my eyes out at the end. As far as books go, similar vibe but more fantasy. I still love Runemarks by Joanne Harris (available in finnish too btw) because I laughed heartily at Loki’s introduction. Loki in general, when it comes to Prose Edda and such, really vibes with my life.
Music is a bit hard to recommend, because I listen to a massively broad selection? Not kidding I have hundreds upon hundreds of bookmarks in tens of folders just for music alone. I have a larger list somewhere in the ask meme tag, but for short here’s a few I’m in the mood for today
Sting & Cheb Mami - Desert Rose Martynas - Hungarian Dance No.5 in G MinorKATICA - ANIKÓ- FERENC- CSABA ILLÉNYI - Libertango Dance of the Damned by Peter GundryLindsey Stirling - Mirage (Feat. Raja Kumani)Dark Sarah - “Dance With The Dragon” feat. JP Leppäluoto
[2] Describe your ideal day
Ideal day begins with a great night. No nightmares, preferably waking feeling refreshed, maybe even a good dream in there? Wake up feeling warm and fuzzy or ready to throw fists with the world! I’d wake up around 9 maybe, and remember to take my medication I’d have taken a shower the previous evening so my hair is soft as heck! I wouldn’t wake up at home, preferably, maybe at a friend’s place?
I’d brew a strong cup of Assam with a dash of milk, chilling in jammies. Soak in the morning sun, listening to a podcast or some funny show. Maybe it’s a really fresh spring day so we could go sightseeing or visit bookstores or the harbour and cafes, or maybe it’s raining and there’s a huge thunderstorm so we just chill, play games, read, watch movies and joke around. Alot of tea, maybe ice cream, some good foods and great company, maybe dnd? Just, a good stress free day!
Want to make it even better? Make that day after I’ve gotten rid of dysphoria and throw in some romance and voilà, I am a happy happy pumpkin.
[3] Would you rather be in Middle Earth, Narnia, Hogwarts, or somewhere else?
Hmmm a tough one. Middle Earth is like, amazing but only if you get to choose who you are and when you get to live. And whether you ever encounter the WORST SPIDERS EVER. But that elven architecture has me horny so I’d definitely dig it. Also, hot elves. Narnia is way too meh for me, just, eh? Not very exciting, so nah.Hogwarts, AGAIN WITH THE SPIDERS WHY. Also, I’d want to be a ravenclaw and play with magic and stuff, but also I’d have to live in Britain with absolutely horrible magical ministry of bullshit and just fuck that noise. Also really dangerous and bleak in pretty much every way. Too real and too fucked up with house elves and shit. A big big nah. So woo I guess Middle Earth wins! I’ll just live in Rivendell and hope shit doesn’t hit the fan and I get hot elves to cuddle.
I swear it’s like someone’s baiting me“You get to live in this really cool fantasy” “!!! :D”“but there’s huge spiders in it” “!!! >:U”
[4] could you live as a hermit?
Technically, I could. I just don’t ever want to.
And I’m just gonna throw it out there, no one should.
You need human interactions to retain a sense of self and sense of a world outside of your own being.
Granted, you don’t to go out having parties and socialise when you feel like you don’t want to, but I think it’s absolutely vital to one’s sanity that you have the option to. An option to have autonomy in your relations to other beings, as long as it is not harmful. You can live with minimal human contact and a bunch of cats, or move into the mountains by yourself and stuff, but you do need contact. Be it once a week or however long, be communication method whatever it is you can and feel comfortable doing, mulling in only your own thoughts is not healthy.
We need each other to survive and a community to keep us who we are.
We exist in the relation to our surroundings, and without each other, we lose a large portion of ourselves and our values in the process.
I think we all should have autonomy to decide how and when and why we interact with each other, and to correlate it with our own energy and ability to do so, without being pressured into it. So, shortly, to have one friend or a dozen, to speak or sign or nod or smile, do interact how ever and how often you wish, as long as you do, and can, interact.
I’ve, unfortunately, gained experience into this field during my own life-R
Nah, mä en välitä materiasta ja ihmisten suhteen lovingly supporttaan että viettävät aikaa kuinka ja kenen kanssa vaan haluavat. Sanosin et oon taipuvaisempi melankoliaan ku mustasukkasuuteen, jos oon täysin yksin ilman viihdykkeitä. I’m too damn old to hold grudges.
Last song: While writing this I went through Heaven is a place on earth, and The Midnight - Jason (feat. Nikki Flores) which I highly recommend. Scandroid - Neo Tokyo (Dance With The Dead Remix) is also real real gooood, looping it rn. I go between moods and song genres hard, no real order, rarely playlisted, I just pick one I feel like hearing. OH AND The Midnight - Vampires!
Last Movie: Puss in Boots: The Last Wish (2022). Very enjoyable, nice animation.
Last Show: I'm actually not sure, I don't watch movies and series on my own practically ever. Trixie Motel or Don't Hug Me I'm Scared, I think, if we go by completed ones? They're amazing! if we go by random episodes of a series I was shown then South Park Season 26 episodes 2 and.. 4? I think episode 4 managed to be funny about this whole shitty AI wave. South Park is overall, not my kind of humour, but I'm not really the target audience for edgy shows either.
Currently reading: Well, actually, nothing! I've been eyeing jade throne books and a mystery book on my dear friend's bookshelf but I'm simply too tired from work to start any mentally taxing activities for a good while. I'll get to it though! How about I recommend something instead? Monstrous Regiment and any of the Witches books from Terry Pratchett are great! Audio book of Monstrous especially, was very enjoyable.
Current obsession: oh oh ohhhh, listen listen listen- I'm sorry if this is too much for ya'll sharing-wise but, Lovechild Boudoir. I ordered two harnesses a few weeks back and I'm aaaching to order another one when my next salary gets here.
Majorly expensive but I've been drooling at these for years and my queer ass needs them. I've had my first proper job since last May and I'm absolutely willing to pay a small independent craftsman for some good ass lace! Can't wait 'till they get here 'cause I need it for slutty boy gender reasons. For me to hang out at home in, as a treat. and mayhaps a little onlyfans content someday, after top surgery.
(also looking at your answer had me like "aw man that reminds me, I should also try to settle on my own fursona stuff.")
Tagging uhhhhh four top ones from activity @hamyhamyhakki @oneleggedflamingo @vittumainennarttu aaand @perkeleensimpura
"En osaa laittaa noita tumbus :c"
no worries käy se postaamine näinki.
2. Kerro tarina siitä päivästä, kun tapasimme ensimmäistä kertaa
- Nyt tulee varmaa vähä arkaa shittiä, be warned
Mä en muist mitää muuta ku sen et oli vaguely tylsää ja laitoin striimi chättiin et haluuks joku muu katsoja jutella. En ollu kovin investoitunu meidän jutteluun ja pelästyin vähän sitä miten aiheet eskaloitu. Olin vähällä blokata sut, kun en tienny miten reagoida siihen et asia mikä oli mulle sellast harmitont löpinää oliki jotain ihan muuta sulle. Aikaa o vierähtäny jo monta vuotta ja sinne o mahtunu monta asiaa, mut mua on vähä harmittanu se miten toi alku on sävyttäny meiän välei tähänki päivään asti.
3. Mitä tekisit, jos saisit yhden päivän olla kaikki voimainen jumala?
8. Jos olisi mahdollista, haluaisitko parantaa maailmaa?
- muuttaisin itseni (kehoa, to be specific) ja inspiroisin isompaa määrää ihmisiä parantamaan maailmaa, suojelemaan luontoo ja olemaan hyviä toisilleen. En suorasanaisesti korjais kuin muutaman ongelman käsin, koska haluun et me päästään yhdessä tekemään maailmasta lempeämpi. Helpottaisin nälkää, kodittomuutta, epätoivon tunteita. Istuttaisin puutarhan. Kysyisin muutamalta ystävältä, jos he haluais jotakin muutosta johon ei kykenis normaalisti vaikuttamaan, niinku keholliset jutut. Mut moni asia on muutettavissa ihan meidän omallakin voimalla, kunhan ryhdytään yhdessä tuumin toimeen. Olisin siis suorasanaisesti varmaan aika tylsä jumala. Ehkä huvikseni toisin vähän taikaa tai jotakin höpsöä maailmaan, ihan vaan et jos joku löytäis ne joskus. Varaisin itelleni jonkun sumuisen linnan jostain joen varrelta, ja menisin sinne asumaan ihan omaksi ilokseni. Kurkkaisin joitakin totuuksia universumin luonteesta, mutta pitäisin ne itselläni. Antaisin varmaan parin tunnin jälkeen voimat takaisin maailmalle, enkä viettäis koko päivää siinä asemassa.
5. Miten reagoisit, jos saisit selville, että menneisyydessäsi olet ollu kultakala?
- selittäis mun olemattoman kyvyn muistaa mm. nimiä. ei oo big deal.
6. Miten viettäisit seuraavat 24 tuntia, jos saisit tietää, että sen jälkeen asteroidi törmäisi maahan, tuhoten 90% elämästä pelkällä osumalla.
4. Mitä tekisit, jos elämästäsi katoaisi kaikki ihmiset ketä olet ikinä tuntenut?
- Kysyisin, haluaisko mun ystävät jutella vikat tunnit kun ollaan yhdessä. Välttelisin perhettä, koska haluaisin mennä sellasten ihmisten kanssa, jotka kunnioittaa mua. Se voi olla, et moni kaveri haluais olla yksin, mut mä kaipaisin ite sitä et mun ei tarttis olla yksin siinä tilanteessa. Vähä sellai 'vituiks meni tää elämä mut ainakin mulla oli ystäviä viimeiset vuodet'. Jälkimmäiseen: mun hylätykstulemisen pelolla olis varmaan sellai field trip of a lifetime. Hajoaisin ihmisenä, mutten kykenis tekemään asialle mitään äkillistä, joten lojuisin jossain ja olisin henkisesti jossain muualla.
7. Mitä tekisit, jos sinua vastaan kadulla kävelisi kirahvi ja norsu?
- 'wau, kirahvi ja norsu. onpa isoja', sitten jatkaisin kävelyy
9. Mitä tekisit, jos et enää ikinä voisi nähdä?
- No sit en näkis. Ei ois niin iso diili lopulta, mut mun elämästä tylis 99% tylsempää. En vois enää piirtää tai mitään, niin mä vaan istuisin kaiket päivät. Ei mua huvittais alottaa mitään, enkä haluais tutustua ihmisiin, kun en vois luottaa mihinkään. Kun en näkis ilmeitä ja sillainsa. Mua harmittais eniten varmaan se, etten näkis mun ystävien hymyjä ja nauruja enää. Sen jälkeen vasta piirtäminen ja muut. En uskaltais liikkua missään, kun eksyisin ilman visuaalista suunnistamista.
10. Mitä tekisit, jos huomeaamuna peilistä katsoisi alternate reality versio susta pyytäen apua?
- 'Listen, I have my own set of issues so I'm not promising anything but uhhh, kerro ihmees missä vika'
Jos olisi mahdollista, haluaisitko osata lukea ajatuksia?
Helppo kysymys, en todellakaan!
Mä arvostan tosi paljon sitä että jokasella o oma tila ja omat rajat, niin en millään tasolla halua enkä pystyis käyttämään ajatustenlukemis-kykyä puhtaalla omatunnolla. Vaikka epävarmuus ja sosiaalinen ahistus potkii välillä päähän mieluummin laitan duunia siihen et opettelen kommunikoimaan paremmin muiden kanssa ja luotan siihen mitä muut kokee sopivaks jakaa mun kanssa. Koen et sellanen kyky vaan pahentais mun olemassa olevia heikkouksia ja taipumuksia ja mun pitää tietoisesti valita tie joka ei johda self-sabotageen.
Oon laittanu niin paljon duunia parempiin tapoihin ja siihen et oon reilu ja hyvä itsellenikin, et tähän ei oo olemassa mitään muuta vastausta. Ei sillä, en usko et olisin aiemminkaan halunnu lukea ajatuksia, mut joskus asiat on hyvä julistaa ääneen.
