#ask vardan

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Vardan Fell Hard

"There is a fine line between admiration and being head over heels with someone. In my case, it was the latter."

Bonus: A close up on Siebren’s face that I drew and was so proud of...

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His Favorite Person

Look at these nerds...

so fun fact: I looked up the meaning behind certain tulips and wanted white for Siebren to where because they represent a new beginning. I might have also been inspired by a demi-sexual pride flag for his outfit. 

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From Amino to You

Let's get the basics out of the way:

Full name: Doctor Vardan Alejo Thorn

Age: 58 years old.

Birthday: November 1st

Height: 5'11" (180.34 cm)

Nationality: Spain

Occupation: (Formerly, Retired) Chief Medical Officer and Science Officer; The International Space Station's lead authority on the physical well being of all who serve there, specializing in emergency surgery and diagnostics.

Hobbies: Gardening, reading about Psychological Sciences and Developments, Painting

Relationship Status: Dating..? He lives with me as well. 

Current Location: Barcelona, Spain

[dr-vardan-thorn]

This question kinda hit home for me... I am only speaking from my personal experiences (admittedly, I have not tried group therapy for myself yet, but I have considered it), so take it as you may.

Depression and Anxiety can be hard to deal with at times. A mind can be a battlefield within itself, it all depends on what you supply to each side that can make the difference. There are days you don't want to do anything, but you can't let that little demon win, do something (no matter how little or big) just to spite it. Is that voice telling you that you are not worthy? Tell it off. Do not let it win. Sooner or later, that loud voice will be muffled and life will go forward. It all depends on you and your choices really. If you go through intrusive thoughts, in my experience, they can be considered normal; we as human beings are thinking machines- our brain literally does not stop working, thoughts and connections are created with every second of every day. Dark or toxic thinking does not define who you are as a person. They are only thoughts and they can pass by like a fog by a breeze. But if you realize that you are feeling desensitized by such thoughts, and you are feeling trapped within your own mind, please do (not try- do) your best to seek help. Ultimately, it's up to you if you want to reach out. That change is up to you. It'll be hard work, but I believe you can do it.

Love and forgive yourself first. Take care!

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You raise me up!

Have some emotion diabetes. You're welcome.

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A Professional Opinion

Professionals have an unspoken rule as to not speak ill of one another, especially if the said professionals do not know each other very well, it's just bad form altogether. With that said, Moira has made strides in her field, that cannot be denied; it was just her methods in order to achieve said achievements leave others cringing. There is a long history of medical and scientific discoveries with both ethical and less restricted lines these discoveries cross; both are sides of the same coin. However, if someone causes harm for harm sake, that is not considered a scientific method, in Vardan's opinion. He has met plenty of people with "Doctor" in front of their names that proved to be less than savory people in both methods and personality. Vardan, being a retired doctor due to his health and recovery over the last three years, it does grant him the flexibility to be opinionated in a more casual setting. 

Technically, Moira isn’t a medical doctor, but in Vardan’s view if you are the acting healer, then you have a moral responsibility.

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Birthday Ritual

Given recent events (surgeries, recovery and physical therapy), Vardan may have neglected his birthday. But here's what he used to do!

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Beauty Secrets

Sidenote: The Neuro-aid is a cybernetic addition to the lower spine that helps the damaged collum connect nerves and deliver signals to the muscles. Sometimes it needs a couple days off to recalibrate, so Vardan spends those days in his wheelchair.