There are so many reason as to why I am here, talking to you. I do not see myself as a quitter, although I do find things quite a challenge. But isn't that just normal human behaviour? Maybe that's just me. The main reason as to why I never gave up was because I didn't want to leave my friends behind.... 'Oh it would be so lonely without you, Joy!" Those words still echo throughout my mind, still as clear as when they were first ever uttered to me by Smythe. I chose to ignore the kind words at first but then the meaning started to come to me. Everyone would miss me, right? I was such a happy child in The Sanctuary, always bringing happiness to others. The Nurses there said that when ever I walked into a room the whole room seemed much brighter. So, if I had chosen to commit suicide no one would be happy. No one would be able to spread the word of our amazing Ministry! So, I decided against the idea. I detest the idea of anybody thinking of killing themselves over silly little reason. We all get bullied at some point in our lives, Sweeties. But I want you to know that if you're contemplating the idea then stop. I don't want to loose you. I have lost too many friends to suicide, and I'm not losing you too! You can always talk to little old Joy! You know that right? Please don't do it. You're an amazing person! If you want I can make you happier! Wouldn't that be just splendid! Oh my, of course it would! I would see your radiant smile again! Wait, what are you doing? P-Put that rope down right this instance! Please! Don't do it! You have so much to live for, I can't let you leave me alone! Did I do anything to hurt you?! Tell me! Answer me! Pleading did nothing to save you that day. I watched in horror as you dangled there, lifeless eyes watching me intently. I couldn't scream, nothing would escape my mouth. You left me over... Silly Little Reasons.....