#ask: asher

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"I've got a lot of baggage... it's all probably more complicated than it's even worth." Jill to Asher

This had to be the best first date of Asher’s life. Not that it was anything too spectacular - he took Jill to some 24/7 diner - but they were approaching the 3 hour mark together. It was safe to say that he was absolutely smitten. He’d known from their first meeting that Jillian Walsh was something special, and every moment together reaffirmed that, but tonight? He’d like to confidently say was with his future wife.

He really thought the night was going amazing, so he couldn’t begin to understand why she was now bringing this up. It wasn’t like he didn’t know about her ‘baggage’ - it was literally how they met. Sure, he didn’t know the extent of everything, but he doubted it would change things once he did. Asher had a good feeling he knew what he’d been getting involved in when he asked Jill out. His expectations weren’t going to o be changing anytime soon.

“Good thing I have plenty of experience with complicated.” He tried to tease, but his tone and smile fell flat. It wasn’t that he didn’t mean his words. It just pained him so much that no matter how gentle or accommodating he could be - that Jill knew he had this experience from his mom - that she still felt this way about herself. Like she was more of a trouble than a joy. As if she couldn’t, and wouldn’t, be the best thing that ever happened to him. She probably didn’t even realize how much she was treasured by everyone else who knew her.

“My father is an abusive asshole who cheated on my mom multiple times and drove her to become an alcoholic herself. I have an older half sister who acts like I don’t exist, and a younger brother who thinks none of this is relevant and wants a relationship with me.” He said simply, almost robotically. He wouldn’t normally admit this, but he felt safe with Jillian. Plus, it looked like she could hear that she wasn’t the only messed up person at the table.

Asher reached across the table, taking his date’s hand in his and giving it a gentle squeeze. “What I’m trying to say is that I have baggage too.” He murmured. “And perhaps it’s not the same, but it doesn’t change anything for me. You are so much more to me than what you’re going through, Jill.”

[milascott]

"I just wanted to be your first pick…"

Mila frowned and stared ahead, ignoring the man seated beside her for almost a minute. She didn’t move at all in that time, too focused on deciphering his words and her feelings. When she finally spoke, her tone was hollow. It took a great deal of effort for her to hide how hurt she felt, especially in her state. She was three drinks passed buzzed, and more emotional than usual. It was either emptiness or being too full of feelings.

 “No. You wanted me to say you won - that I’d choose you over the others. Everyone I fuck wants that at some point. None of you want me, just the bragging rights.” She chuckled dryly, her gaze falling to the ground. “You don’t want me to actually choose you, Asher. You just want the knowledge that I would, and that’s not fair on me.”

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✘☢♣ CASHER

Send ✘ for a text that should never have been sent

[ msg; corin ] i was so much fucking better off without you

Send ☢ for a desperate text

[ msg; corin ] give me another chance[ msg; corin ] corin, please[ msg; corin ] i self destruct without you[ msg; corin ] i don't know how to describe how you much you mean to me

Send ♣ for a text not meant for you

[ msg; corin ] she's hot as fucking hell but she's just too nice you know?[ msg; corin ] great lay tho

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⁇✉✘ // casher

Send “⁇” for a drunk text.

[ msg; corin ] plz oepn your door im relaly sorry[ msg; corin ] im outs ide let me kiss u

Send “✉” for a text that wasn’t sent.

[ msg; corin ] you make me reevaluate everything. you make me want to take a chance.

Send “✘” for a hateful text.

[ msg; corin ] when are you going to realize that you don't fucking own me?[ msg; corin ] fucking stalker 

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[text] I don’t care if you’re throwing up lava, I’d rather spend the day with you than them // [text]You’re really cute when you sleep // [text] Wish you were here // [text] I got your orange juice, was there anything else you wanted? // [text] Sleep well my love x // CASHER

[text] I don’t care if you’re throwing up lava, I’d rather spend the day with you than them

[ msg; corin ] if you wanna come over i guess you can but it's pretty gross in here[ msg; corin ] now that i'm thinking about it tho it would be pretty cool to throw up lava[ msg; corin ] plus even better, i'd be dead

[text] You’re really cute when you sleep

[ msg; corin ] you're really cute when you.... watch me sleep[ msg; corin ] apparently

[text] Wish you were here

[ msg; corin ] me too x

[text] I got your orange juice, was there anything else you wanted?

[ msg; corin ] just you[ msg; corin ] wow, this cold is really putting a dimmer on my hatred 

[text] Sleep well my love x

[ msg; corin ] Read at 12:49 AM

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all of those memes for everyone thanks !

by all of them did u mean the ones i wanted??? bc thats what i did >:)

braiden

# for a random text

[ msg; brooke ] hey :)[ msg; brooke ] got in the car and a shitty song started playing so i thought of you :-)

@ for a middle of the night text

[ msg; brooke ] you’re kicking me in your sleep right now :) i wanna fucking murder you :) i’m about to drag your tiny and angry ass out on the balcony in the cold :) 

& for a curious text

[ msg; brooke ] hey! thanks for sticking my hand in warm water while i was sleeping in on my day off! [ msg; brooke ] got a question though, what’s it like being the physical form of satan? :)

$ for a accidental text

[ msg; brooke ] carter do you want my cassette tape from middle school that i used to get blow jobs to all the time? just found it and its like a blow job charm[ msg; brooke ]  … why does this always fucking happen to me

besley

* for a drunk text

[ msg; beckham ] you know wht? fuck u. fuck u forn ot wantig me the way i want u. fuck y ou beckham.

@ for a middle of the night text

[ msg; beckham ] do you think we were supposed to end up like this

¥ for a drugged text

[ msg; beckham] i don’t know what XTC is but i just took some?[ msg; beckham ] i’m gona fuck this girl.. dont b e mad

$ for a accidental text

[ msg; beckham ] he’s fucked me up and fucked me over in so many ways…. why do i keep trying?

casher

* for a drunk text

[ msg; corin ] i’m drunk n lonely…[ msg; corin ] come over 

÷ for a depressed text 

[ msg; corin ] in the words of the great cobain, it’s better to burn out than to fade away[ msg; corin ] started to think he had the right idea

+ for a loving text

[ msg; corin] i just took a hit but you’re so beautiful[ msg; corin ] i’m high all the time and always sad and you’re always beautiful and i’m sorry i don’t ever tell you that you’re so fucking beautiful 

# for a random text

[ msg; corin ] someone just told me i look like matt fucking healy[ msg; corin ] i fucking hate new york

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◊ all of them....

PUT A “◊” IN MY ASK FOR A STICKY NOTE LEFT ON YOUR FRIDGE IN THE MORNING BY MY MUSE.

besley

❝ beckham - last night was fun and i'm kinda hoping you remember it. sorry about all the questions. i borrowed a shirt since you got some baby gravy on mine. i'll text you later. text me later. talk to you later.- wesley ❞

braiden

❝ brooke -1. you are your nicest when you're sleeping2. i'm leaving to buy a tranquilizing gun and darts for when you're inevitably rude to me later3. i'm actually getting breakfast- aiden ❞

casher

❝ corin -thanks 4 last night. couldn't stay. see you.-ash ❞

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[text] Just tell me what’s wrong ! // [text] … so it’s a date ? // [text] You spent the entire night trying to get me to make out with you // [text] Why do you keep doing this to me ? // [text] I’m so tired of your lies. // [text] You saw my boobs then looked up and yelled thank you jesus. // CASHER

[text] Just tell me what’s wrong !

asher → corin [text]: the mystery it leaves when i don't tell you is just too good to ruinasher → corin [text]: plus if i did tell you, you would inevitably try to cheer me up and thenceforth would strip me of my brooding mystique

[text] You spent the entire night trying to get me to make out with you

asher → corin [text]: well please don't tell me my attempts were in vainasher → corin [text]: or that you don't want to make out with me too

[text] Why do you keep doing this to me ?

asher → corin [text]: doing what? i'm gonna need you to be more specific. 

[text] I’m so tired of your lies.

asher → corin [text]: and i'm so tired of your dramaticsasher → corin [text]: anyways, what time do i need to be at rehearsals? 

[text] You saw my boobs then looked up and yelled thank you jesus.

asher → corin [text]: MIRACLES CAN HAPPENaiden → brooke [text]: who knew, huh?