🍁 - has taber ever been in love? how many times? what are her feelings on romantic and platonic (deep friendship sort) love?
yeah sure, why not? why shouldn't i respond to an ask that was sent literally a year and a half ago? // send a leaf and a question
taber's had crushes on more fictional people than real, and it would be difficult to say she's been in love before. she's always loved the idea of love, that unbreakable force that drives book characters to act like fools or monsters or gods, changing the world in the name of that One Person. it's beautiful, it's terrifying, it's comforting, it's painful. she's always sort of assumed that kind of love was going to stay out of reach for her, if it did exist
now, after she's been free from the broker -- and her family -- for two years, and she's found love for herself, she can safely say that the love she knows isn't like love in the books
aracelli and belasco are her first friends after felix, and she knows she would do quite a lot to keep them safe, but she's also learned that love also means helping her friends when they're in crisis and staying with them even when they aren't. zuzanna is the first person she's truly fallen in love with, and through her, she's been learning that love also means keeping herself safe so she can come home to her girlfriend. she, felix, and deniel have been rebuilding their own kind of family, and have been learning that love is being patient with each other and trusting each other, even when worrying about each other
as it turns out, love Is beautiful, terrifying, comforting, painful, and everything else. but it's also something she wants to keep for the rest of her life, because it helped her come alive
