Why is being autistic suddenly seen as "cute" and "quirky"?
Hi, someone with autism (previously Aspergers) here.
Being autistic is not "cute." It's not "fun." It's not something that's just, "LOL!! SO CUTE AND AWKWARD!!"
It fucking sucks. Seeing people around you and desperately wanting to be one of them, not understanding why you're alone and can't make friends, not knowing why saying certain things are seen as "rude" or unable to understand social cues - none of it is "cute and adorable - LOL!!!"
I'm in my 30s. I try SO HARD to make friends. But the MOMENT I breakdown or explain a situation makes me uncomfortable to the point I'm stimming, I'm thrown to the side - I'm "too difficult" to get along with.
I don't want to be. I want to be friends. I try so fucking hard to be friends.
My stimming has gotten worse and I try DESPERATELY to curb it. My shutdowns have increased and it's caused issues at work. I hit my head a few times with my fists and my supervisor was so worried, he pulled me to the side.
Being autistic fucking sucks. I don't recommend it. Yeah, the creativity is nice, but it doesn't happen all the time. I can analyze situations in milliseconds, but everyone around me creates distance because "WTF? That couldn't happen" or "How TF did you know?"
I hate my brain when it comes to craving social interaction. I want it. We're social animals - WE ALL NEED SOCIAL INTERACTIONS.
But when I try, I'm shunned. Unless I go to a bar where people find me as a good ear.
And they wonder why people on the spectrum suffer with addiction issues as they age.