#autism spectrum

[insidestory1]

When I tell people how I always seem to get things wrong in social situations they often tell me, "There's no 'right' way to be. Just be yourself." They continue to tell me this until I end up doing something that they don't approve of, at which point they berate me roundly, explain all the reasons why that was wrong, and ask me why on earth I didn't do whatever they think I should have instead.

[mentalhealthbabyyy]

I would not take a “cure” for autism, even if such a thing existed, because I would be a whole different person if I weren’t on the spectrum.

Autistic brains work in a different way, so I have no idea what would be left of my personality if I magically became allistic.

When it comes to ADHD though, I would get rid of it without a second thought. 🙃 Like please take it back, I’m tired lmaooo

[mentalhealthbabyyy]

Things I’ve been told by allistics:

“But you are not like my little cousin” (yes, really, luckily she wasn’t being mean about it)

“Everyone is a little bit autistic”

“You want to be autistic because you lack self esteem and want an excuse not to work hard” (paraphrased)

“You can’t be autistic because autistic people live in their bubbles, completely isolated from others, and you aren’t like that”

“You are too normal to be autistic” (paraphrased)

[mentalhealthbabyyy]

“Autism makes you a better person because your sense of just—” nah, autism is just as likely to make you a total cunt, since autistic black and white thinking and rigidity is NOT the same as having a Superior Moral Compass. I’m saying this as an autistic person myself.

[puppyyyluvvv]

sometimes ill tell myself "im not really that autistic" and then i cry bc i have to put on pants

[alilblog]

strange how people can seem so supportive of autism, but the person that you deem as 'weird' deserves to be bullied

[augustisautistic]

Delayed processing goes crazy.

So I went to see a movie earlier today, and I was kinda nervous because it's not the usual theater I go to (and I'm barely comfortable going to the other one lol) so I had to manually remind myself of every step. What to order, when to give them my dad's phone number for a discount (he has an account and lets me use it), where to put all the shit I lug around normally as well as two popcorn buckets, a bag of M&M's, my ticket when I got it, etc. I thought I was going through all the steps right, but after I gave them the phone number for the discount they asked to see my ID. I didn't question it as I tend to autopilot in situations like this, but afterwards I thought it was kinda funny they were concerned about me using someone else's phone number to get a cheaper ticket and concessions, especially since they went through the trouble to check my ID but didn't ask why my name didn't match the one on the account?

Anyway I got my concessions and watched the movie, and I've been home for 3-4 hours, and I only just now realized they probably checked my ID because the movie was rated R.

The usual theater I go to doesn't check for that, but I do in fact know that you technically have to be 17 or older to watch R rated movies. It would explain why my mom never gets her ID checked when she goes to a movie without my dad, despite it not being her account either.

It's also so hit and miss as to whether I seem significantly older or younger than I am. I regularly had people thinking I was an adult when I was 13, but now that I am an adult I get told that I read as 16 at the oldest.