Atum, Horus, Arawn, Olwen, Hekate, Mars!
Ask meme here.
Atum: What are your greatest imperfections?Humn. My tendency to worry, to obsess, to get lost in my own lack of self-esteem and self-worth, and to then close off about it. I have a hard time trusting people, always anticipate being hurt, and it's this recurring pitfall I fall into when I start to let people in, in where I just close myself off from them. Unless you show me that I'm important to you, I'll always think it's just empty talk and be distrustful. It's not a good quality.
Horus: What is one thing you've had to fight for in your life?That's a toughie - I've lived a very priviledged life, and the only thing I've had to fight for was my freedom. My mom is fairly protective of me. When I went to visit Ashley for the first time, it was met with distrust and anger and guilt-tripping. Of course I don't feel like I had to fight all that hard; I simply said that I was going to do it and then went through with it, despite the silent-treatment and anger that I left with, and returned to. But that's mostly it. I have to fight every day for the freedom to do the things I want to do, with my family. But it's not a struggle I'm all that aware about for the most part.
Arawn: What is the most terrifying thing you've ever done?Once upon a yesteryear, my father... eeeuh. Was rather abusive. And this one time, I told him that he should hit me, instead of mom, so that I'd have some bruises to show to the police. I was actually going inside to put on my shoes in order to go to the cops and file an official complaint, when my mom intervened. But I remember being so fucking terrified, but then I became so angry that I didn't care. Same with something that happened a bit later. My dad came storming into the computer room, grabbed the computer screen, smashed it to the floor, broke off one of the desk doors,... and I pounced on his back to try and stop him, only to be thrown back against the wall. But it had sufficed - my getting involved made him come down from his rage, and he left not much later. So. The most terrifying thing I've ever done, is face my dads' rage with my own. My own rage terrifies me more than his rage does, though.
Olwen:What is your favorite flower?I love orange/red gerbera's, they're so simple but pretty. I also rather like bleeding hearts; it's this shrub thing that was my plant back when I was 6-7 years old, and I had one until we moved here. In Dutch it's called "the broken heart" plant, and just. You know how much I love bittersweet things. xD
Hekate:Have you ever tried to communicate with the dead?Not actively? This is funny to me because last time I had a "reading" done the guy warned me to not mess with things beyond the grave. But no, umn. When we used to live in our old house, my mom would sort of... bring spirits home with her? I could feel them in the house, and though occasionally they hurt me by being close, I never minded them much. My mom is petrified of those things, though, so I gradually started asking each and every one of them to please move on, please leave us alone, I couldn't help them. Now, it hardly ever happens anymore. Either I closed myself off from it, or they've just stopped following mom home from work (she works at a nursing home). So aside from that, and randomly talking to my grandparents in the middle of the night - nope~
Mars:Have you ever gotten into a fight?I've gotten into a couple of tiny scraps in the past. Stabbed in a guy's leg with a fork, once. Slapped an older guy for stuffing a toddler into a trash can. I've not really "fought" since being older than 15, though I would in a heartbeat to protect someone.
