#astarionkin

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being kin is WILD because how am i jinx from arcane, stephanie brown from dc comics, nancy downs from the craft, deb from empire records, and astarion from b3??????? and a lot more but still

like. what

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i want to talk about. uh. scents. this is very specific and very random.

gale smelt like lavender and saltwater and old books. also his clothes smelt weirdly Clean considering we spent most of our time in the fundamental wild.

halsin smelt like fresh earth and if you know that smell when it's just started raining after it hasn't for a while? i think it's called petrichor but he smelt like that too.

shadowheart generally smelt nice. i could never specify what. herbs maybe?

karlach smelt like charcoal and usually the lingering scent of whatever had been cooking recently. she liked to hang around gale when he was cooking.

lae'zel smelt like blood. not fresh blood, granted. but blood. heh. might have been because blood is very difficult to get out of fabric when you have nothing proper to clean with.

wyll smelt good. like bergamot. i know that that was my scent, but he shared it and it was Very Nice

tav smelt like the sea, for some odd reason.

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I do find it remarkable just how lacking my timeline proved to be in terms of vampiric study, education, and the like. Much like our current world, many believed that we simply punctured the artery (or vein, in some case) and used typical suction to feed. In actuality it was more complex, but it wasn't like it mattered to people at all.

No, all they cared about was how horrific it was to feel canines slip into your flesh. After everything was said and done, finding willing prey was often so difficult that even though it was fulfilling, in the instinctual way that's so terribly difficult to describe, I didn't bite any human beyond the stupid "Wizard of Waterdeep," which was, admittedly, only to satisfy my curiosity. It was also the most disgusting thing I'd ever tasted, mind you. Of course, I'd gotten close. There were, as there often tends to be, a few folk that were, well... interested, in the idea. But only the idea. When they'd lay their heads back and bare their delicious throats to me, they'd squirm and they'd shake and I'd know it wasn't what they wanted. And so I'd open the door for an exit, and exited they did. No matter how pretty one may have been, back then, you were still seen as something to fear. A monster.

Their loss, I suppose.

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I feel the need to share this; I, an Astarion kin, am highly tempted to take an introductory archery class. I remember being pretty damn handy with a bow (I didn't like crossbows, weirdly enough, they just felt weird) and on the one hand, it'd be cool to regain that skill. On the other, I know modern bows in this world don't really resemble the ones I was familiar with in a few key design elements. But on the other, other hand, I can always work up to being able to learn new styles on my own and just get my own classical bow later. Bringing back old skills is simultaneously fun and infuriating lmao. I used to be able to shoot down fancy chandeliers people had, for unknown reasons (probably to save coin), strung up with rope. Now I'll have to learn how to actually hold a bow again. Ah well, such is the cycle of existence.

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it was cathartic to see my wife react with anger when i finally opened up to her about some of the worse things i could remember. it felt… really good to know that anger was actually a very normal thing to feel about it all haha. despite everything between us, she was still so willing to have my back and affirm that i never once deserved any of it

—astarion, #🦇🩸🗡️

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At a con and I am struggling so hard to find content of my husband. Shut up about me, I want WYLL

—Astarion

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i remembered recently a song that my partner and i went crazy over because of how closely it matched how i viewed my wife: Your Stupid Face by Kaden MacKay

You disgrace the human race ‘Cause you’re more of a mosquito I would rather have the dentist and drill Then this swine in the swill And if you were a bill, I would veto … Oh no… … I’m not really into love that you flaunt In some glittery font But if that’s what you want Make it snappy! … And if the world was perfect You would have never invaded my space But since the world’s obsessed with saying “psych!” Now I like your stupid face … Those three little words Out of the blue Completely uncalled for Especially from you Why don’t you hate me? Why do you care? Can’t you berate me? Isn’t that fair? Where is your glare? Don’t you dare leave our problems and pain on the shelf! Because if you don’t hate me, I can’t hate myself

alright, enough quoting. but haaahh… oh how my wife suffered because of me. i was the most surprised out of anyone that she approached me to rekindle what once was

i loved you, lylirian emera. thank you for your company and unconditional love, even if your support (rightfully) wavered.

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so. laufey just came out with a new song. it's called Where or When. some of the lyrics:

Some things that happened for the first time Seem to be happening again And so it seems that we've met before And laughed before and loved before But who knows where or when

ahaha… hoo boy

—astarion, #🦇🩸🗡️

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