#astiais

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chapter 14: and somehow, through it all, I stand

summary:

"What about you? What's new?" "Well, I haven't regrown a leg, unfortunately." Tim says dryly before he takes a sip of coffee. "Uh, not a whole lot, I guess. PT is starting to ramp up a bit so we can get my knee ready for a prosthetic. Having less dizzy spells." He traces the lip of his mug and shifts a bit in his chair before he adds, "Y'know, I haven't had a drink since this all happened?" "Wow." Rachel raises her eyebrows. "On purpose?" "No. Drinking would probably make this a lot more tolerable, but...with the meds and with just how tired I've been...I just...haven't." He gives a small shrug. "Probably a good thing, huh?" "Tim Gutterson, optimist." Rachel laughs and he smiles.

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chapter 13: and somehow, through it all, I stand

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"Were you ever gonna tell me this?" "What? Me and Winona? I mean, yeah, but I figured you have bigger shit to worry about than mine and Winona's shit." Raylan says and he stands from the couch to join Willa on the floor.  "Well, it's kinda my shit if you guys aren't getting back together because of me." Tim points out and Raylan lets out a sigh.  "Thought this might make you happy, but I'm sensing some anger here, Gutterson."  "Just a bit confused," Tim clarifies, "because yeah, we talked and admitted...I guess we admitted we have feelings, but you still seemed like you wanted to be with her." "I told her I love you." Raylan looks up at Tim and gives him a smile before he adds, "she told me it was about time I realized it." "Did everybody know this except us?" Tim asks with a breathy chuckle. "What do we do about it?"

We're coming up on what I have pre-written, so updates might come a bit slower. In saying that, we'll be nearing the end of this one soon!

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chapter 10: and somehow, through it all, I stand

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Tim wakes up in a bit of a fog and decides he must've drank that bottle of bourbon in his cabinet before bed. He's stiff and part of him doesn't want to get out of the bed, but he knows he needs some water to clear the fog from his mind. So he sits up, feeling a familiar pull in his ribs before he swings his legs over the edge of the bed and stands up. And then immediately falls on his face. 

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chapter 9: and somehow, through it all, I stand

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"You should be in Florida."  "We've been over this." Raylan says and he watches as Tim traces his finger over the rim of his coffee mug. "Tim, you don't need to apologize. I want to be here, okay?" He's watching Tim intently because Tim won't lift his eyes from the mug. He can't meet Raylan's eyes right now because he's sitting in a goddamn wheelchair in his kitchen trying not to fucking cry and it's not because he's in pain or anything, it's because Raylan's here. He's not supposed to be here.

I'm going away for the weekend, so I figured I'd try to get this chapter up today and maybe chapter 10 tomorrow if I'm feeling motivated.

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And somehow, through it all, I stand -- chapter 2.

Summary:

"Raylan," Art's standing suddenly and he looks pale, "You're gonna want to sit down." He motions for the chair across from him and Raylan doesn't like the sound of that at all. As he gets closer, it doesn't appear that Rachel is injured beyond a few scratches on her face, but the fact that she's clearly changed her clothes leaves him feeling uneasy. "What's --" "It's Tim."

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chapter 6: And somehow, through it all, I stand

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"Mm." Tim nods and lets out a shaky sigh. "When's your flight?"  "I cancelled it." Raylan watches as Tim's eyes slide closed again. The pull of the drugs in his system is strong, but he seems determined to remain conscious and have this conversation.  "Why?" It comes out breathy and he keeps his eyes closed.  "Wh--because you're in the hospital." Raylan furrows his brow at the ridiculousness of Tim's question. "Because you...you nearly died, Tim." 

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And somehow, through it all, I stand: Chapter 1

Multi-chapter full of Tim whump (physical and emotional), complicated Givenson, team as family.

summary:

"Rachel!" Tim moves forward with purpose and he reaches her within seconds, slamming into her hard. She lets out a startled cry that immediately gets drowned out by the explosion. The blast is bigger than he expects it to be. He's lifted off his feet and thrown backwards before he lands roughly on the uneven ground. Dirt and rocks rain down on him, bouncing off his cheeks and caking his eyelashes, obstructing his view of the blue sky above him.

Or, Boyd starts throwing dynamite during 6x13, but his aim is a bit better and Tim's life is changed in an instant.

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Chapter 5: and somehow, through it all, I stand

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"Hey." He says quietly and he knows Tim isn't going to respond, but the silence that follows feels like a punch to his gut. "Got your bell rung pretty badly this time, huh?" He says with a deep swallow and Tim doesn't respond. He doesn't show any indication that he can hear Raylan at all. Raylan looks back at the leg suspended in the sling and he clenches his jaw when he feels tears stinging his eyes. "Christ, how'd this happen?"