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Misunderstood: The Tate Thorston Playlist

Just want to be misunderstood want to be feared in my neighborhood Just want to be a moody man Say things that nobody can understand - Misunderstood by Pete Townshend and Ronnie Lane

Side A:  But I am such an ordinary star

i. Come a Little Bit Closer - Jay and the Americans | ii. Purple Lamborghini - Skrillex and Rick Ross | iii. Eye of the Tiger - Survivor | iv. Mama Said Knock You Out - LL Cool J | v. Just Lose It - Eminem | vi. Honky Tonk Badonkadonk - Trace Adkins | vii. Rough Boys - Pete Townshend

Side B:  Don't like where I've ended up or where I begun

i. Fairytale by Alexander Rybak

I’m in love, with a fairytale/Even though it hurts/Coz I don’t care if I lose my mind/I’m already cursed 

 Tate has had many secret crushes, and at this point in his life, he has gotten it into his mind and has accepted that none of them are going to work in his favor and he might as well just give up even if the person drives him crazy

ii. Heartbreak Hotel by Elvis Presley

You make me so lonely baby/I get so lonely/I get so lonely I could die.

 Tate’s friendships swing fast and hard. During his highs, he will be perfectly fine and happy and nice, but as soon as he feels like he’s been dropped, or not made a priority by someone he is used to the attention from, he sinks down into a state where he is lonely but won’t let people in.

iii. Blow Me (One Last Kiss) by Pink

I think I've finally had enough, I think I maybe think too much/I think this might be it for us (blow me one last kiss)/You think I'm just too serious, I think you're full of shit/My head is spinning so (blow me one last kiss)

When Tate gets back up from his lows, he tends to be bitter, and gets sort of revengeful to whoever it is he think messed him up. Even if things end up worse, he doesn’t usually care, because at least he’s feeling better.

iv. My Size by John Entwistle

You make me feel so small/Wish I was ten feet tall/I'm gonna bring you down to my size/One of these days I'm gonna make you fall/I'm gonna bring you down to my size/Smash your head against the wall.

This is mainly Tuff’s attitude toward his father and older brother. The two older Thorston men treat him better than his sister, but still awfully, and when he figures out how to, he is going to make them feel as small as they made him feel.

v. Love is Only Sleeping by The Monkees

She looked at me/And the emptiness in her eyes was cruel to see/Then she turned away and said,/"Once I loved, but love is dead"/And I whispered, "Sometimes love is only sleeping"

 This is Tate when he’s in a bad spot mood and emotions-wise. Sometimes he doesn’t feel anything, and he needs to remind himself that he can still feel things, even if he tells himself he doesn’t want to.

vi. Ring of Fire by Johnny Cash

I fell for you like a child/Oh, but the fire went wild/I fell into a burning ring of fire/I went down, down, down and the flames went higher/And it burns, burns, burns/The ring of fire, the ring of fire

This is mostly showing Tuff’s loyalty to his set. When he likes someone, and they become his friend, he gets awfully protective. He will do anything to help out his people, even if it ends up hurting him.

vii. Lyin’ to Myself by Todrick Hall

But these old shades/Make me feel safe/And these gold chains/Make me feel brave, baby/It ain't you, so please don't change/I can't be true to no one else/Too busy lying, lying to myself

 Tate has problems with letting people in, and that can cause trouble for him no matter who he’s talking to. Though he wants people to be close with him, and he likes people, it’s still hard for him to be someone they might like because he won’t let them see what he’s really like

[wcrldofmyown-blog]

Take Me To Wonderland: an alice liddell mix

“We each devise our means of escape from the intolerable.” ― William Styron, A Tidewater Morning

SIDE A: DOWN THE RABBIT HOLE

i. kids - mgmt // ii. young and menace - fall out boy // iii. lucy in the sky with diamonds - the beatles // iv. feel good inc. - gorillaz // v. realiti - grimes // vi. i am the walrus - the beatles  // vii. air balloon - lily allen  // viii. time to pretend - mgmt  // ix. alone - marshmello // x. on melancholy hill - gorillaz // xi. that’s not my name - the ting tings // xii. break the rules - charli xcx  // xiii. mad hatter - melanie martinez  

SIDE B: OFF WITH HER HEAD!

ribs - lorde

This dream isn't feeling sweet // We're reeling through the midnight streets // And I've never felt more alone // It feels so scary, getting old

Alice is terrified of growing up. She is in her twenties and still acts like she is a sixteen year old girl. She fears responsibility and having to take care of herself. She hates being alone and the thought of getting old alone scares her more than anything. She clings to Wonderland so she can see that child-like world she fell in love with when she was younger and she isn’t ready to give it up. This song captures her fear and insecurities about growing up and growing up alone especially.

cry baby - melanie martinez

Your heart's too big for your body // It's why you won't fit inside // They're pouring out // Where everyone can see

Alice is a very passionate child. When she was younger, she was ten times more expressive. She couldn’t help herself! But her family wasn’t too happy with that. For years they tried conditioned her to cry less, but no matter what they did, Alice couldn’t help herself. She cared too deeply, was moved too easily, and so her tears would fall. Her sister dubbed her a cry baby and this song reminds her that she isn’t the only one who feels like this. Ironically enough, she doesn’t openly cry as much as she used to. But she found her own methods to dry her eyes.

happy little pill - troye sivan

My happy little pill // Take me away // Dry my eyes // Bring color to my skies // My sweet little pill // Tame my hunger // Lie within // Numb my skin

Alice feels like she lacks imagination on her own. She thinks she is broken and that she can’t create real art alone. But at the same time she can’t help but lust after the Wonderland she used to conjure in her head alone. This song represents her dependency to drugs and how she needs them to feel like she has a real imagination. To her, drugs make her feel like she sees colors as they are and that the world can be beautiful if she lets herself get to that place.

nobody’s home - avril lavigne

Open your eyes // And look outside // Find the reasons why // You've been rejected // And now you can't find // What you left behind

Being kicked out hurt a lot more than Alice is willing to admit. She had spent so long trying to find who she was and who she wanted to be, but as soon as she showed that side to her family, they rejected her. This song reminds her that home isn’t always where your family is.

paris - the chainsmokers

If we go down then we go down together // They'll say you could do anything // They'll say that I was clever // If we go down then we go down together // We'll get away with everything // Let's show them we are better

As cheesy as it sounds, this is her current Madden song. Their relationship is weird and Alice is constantly patronizing him, but in the end she cares about him more than anyone else in the world. They know more about each other than they let themselves think. Sometimes she wants to tell Madden that they should just run off to Wonderland together and that can be that. But she never will probably.

[piiixlexia-blog]

 ‘ * ░ “ ━  lungs filled with sweetness  

         ❝ ONE GOOD THING ABOUT MUSIC, WHEN IT HITS YOU, YOU FEEL NO PAIN. ❞ ━  BOB MARLEY

side a: “dance off”

i.  ) mr.  blue sky electric light orchestra. ii. ) thrill me taron egerton. iii. ) i want you back jackson five. iv. ) surrender cheap trick. v. ) we will rock you queen. vi. ) valerie amy winehouse. vii. ) queenie eye paul mccartney. viii. ) give it up kc and the sunshine band. ix. ) i feel love donna summer. x. ) enjoy the silence depeche mode. 

side b: “punch break” 

xi. ) mr. brightside the killers ━  “ but it’s just the price i pay, destiny is calling me / open up my eager eyes ‘cause i’m mr. brightside ”

this part of the songs reminds vanellope of the sugar racers’ prank, in which they told her about a fake road in order for her to get lost. before being a part of the group, penelope ( who very preferred going by ‘vanellope’ at the time. naïve and sweet child she was ) was a very optimistic, innocent person, hence why she felt right into their trap. afterwards, something broke. things stopped clickling. the girl became more doubtious, careful and bitter -- it was the price she paid. the lyrics resonate with that tiny optimistic bit left inside the girl, that no matter how many times it’s been damaged, still manages to keep her going. 

xii. ) kill your heroes awolnation ━  “ i say ya kill your heroes and fly, fly, baby don't cry / no need to worry 'cause, everybody will die ”

vanellope used to put the sugar racers on a pedestal. tiffany, francis, candice and carolina, they were like heroes to penelope. they were filthy rich, they were ambitious, they were fakely sweet and they were great drivers. there was no flaw to them, and thus, pennie idolized them. things eventually got heated, and now all the girl feels towards them is disdain. it was because of them that she shed so many tears and became the person she is today. the song, speaking about not worrying and ‘killing your heroes’ is somewhat of an anthem of reassurance for the girl. 

xiii. ) the love club lorde ━  “ i joined the club and it's all on / there are fights for being my best friend / and the girls get their claws out / there's something about hanging out with the wicked kids ”

xiv. ) pity party melanie martínez ━  “  maybe it's a cruel joke on me / whatever, whatever //  maybe if i knew all of them well i wouldn't have been trapped inside this hell that holds me ”

again, the racers. empty promises -- fame, money, friends, fun, time of her life, yada yada -- lured penelope into the clique. at first, things were coming up roses, but things took an abrupt turn around torture lane and became sour. the group isn’t what they claimed to be, and penelope feels angry at herself for noticing this too late. the lyrics speak about a club very similar to that of the racers, hence why these song can be found in this playlist. 

xv. ) can’t pin me down marina & the diamonds ━  “ you can paint me any color and i can be your clown //  yeah, you can't pin me down //  do you think i'm stuck-up ‘cause I'm always picking fights / you might think I'm one thing but I am another / you can't call my bluff ”

if there’s a thing the girl prides herself in, it’s her resilience. despite the pranks and mockery, despite the struggles caused by her dislexia, penelope’s stand remains high. she’s a battler ( a person who refuses to accept defeat despite the difficulties. ) she’s a tough cookie, a forced to be reckoned with ( unfortunately, this may lead to her getting into unwanted fights ), and despite her size, penelope von schweetz has got strength to spare. 

xvi. ) afterlife ingrid michaelson ━  “ you and me we’re beautiful / we all we’re gonna be alright /  we always got the fight in us /  we all we’re gonna live tonight like there is no tomorrow ‘cause we’re the afterlife ”

xvii. ) gold owl city ━  “ go on, It's got to be time, you're starting to shine cause what you've got is gold ”

in most playlist, there is a song of encouragement. that melody that fills the hero with energy and pushes them back into the battlefield. that sweet tune that heals wounds and pulls lips into smiles. this is penelope’s. the upbeatness and enforcing lyrics hit a soft spot inside her. it may be cheesy to feel inspired by a sound, but this is the case. the lyrics glitter her day with hope when listening to it. 

xviii. ) new paul mccartney ━  “ all my life i never knew what I could be, what I could do / then we were new //  we can do what we want / we can live as we choose / you see there's no guarantee / we got nothing to lose ”

this fits penelope’s love for racing. she has known it’s what she wants to do ever since she got behind that wheel on that unfateful day, and even though it ended in misery, the girl discovered her true passion. racing is what she aims to devote her life to; it’s in her code. she’s not very good right now, but she hopes with all her heart that training and some contacts-acquiring can get her there one day.

xix. ) jump van halen ━  “ i get up, and nothing gets me down / you got it tough / i've seen the toughest all around / and I know, baby, just how you feel / you've got to roll with the punches to get to what's real ”

such an epic song had to be a part of the playlist. not only does pre-2000 music have a special place in penny’s heart due to her parents & their love for that kind of music, but also because this song, like a couple before, revives the hint of optimism inside her. it’s a hopeful song, whose vibe makes penelope feel somewhat younger. 

[cleverasthedevill-blog]

Beauty Killer: a carla devil mix

“The fashionable woman wears clothes. The clothes don’t wear her.” ― Mary Quant

SIDE A: CLEVER AS THE DEVIL

i. applause - lady gaga // ii. ain’t your mama - jennifer lopez // iii. 24k magic - bruno mars // iv. you gotta not - little mix // v. primadonna - marina & the diamonds // vi. greedy - ariana grande // vii. salvatore - lana del rey // viii. fab - jojo & remy ma // ix. work bitch - britney spears // x. gucci coochie - die antwoord & dita von teese // xi. national anthem - lana del rey // xii. ego (remix) - beyonce & kanye west // xiii. bounce back - big sean

SIDE B: AND TWICE AS P[R]ETTY

hard out here - lily allen

Sometimes it’s hard to find the words to say / I’ll go ahead and say them anyway / Forget your balls and grow a pair of tits / It’s hard, it’s hard, it’s hard out here for a bitch

The fashion industry is hard to break into. Almost everyone is trying to put you down in some way, and Carla knows that. She has had no support throughout her career. Her parents have even told her to give up and let her dream go. This song is her reminder. She has to work twice as hard and be twice as better. She will never censor herself and never let someone walk all over her because of who she is. She knows she has a gift and she is determined to to make it big. No matter what.

f.f.f. - bebe rexha & g-eazy

Fuck fake friends, we don’t need ‘em / Only thing they’re good for is leaving / And I ain’t got the time, money on my mind / I’ll say it to your face, fuck fake friends

Carla hasn’t had many friends. Most of the people in her familys’ inner circle were stuck-up and insincere. THe only friend she ever had was when she was younger, but the girl ended up ditching her when someone new and richer than her came along. This song reminds Carla that she doesn’t have the time nor the energy for friends.

grown - little mix

About time that I let you know / My ride and I assume control / You blew it baby years ago / Can’t get with me, now I’m grown

Believe it or not, Carla used to be really insecure. She was surrounded by beautiful models and the girls her age looked like goddesses. When it came to boys, she was normally the last resort. They thought she was easy because of how insecure she is. It took a few years for her to gain the confidence she has in her appearance, and once she had it, the boys started flocking to her. And how did she handle it? With all teasing and no pleasing. This song reminds her that she is not easy and she will not let the people from her past think they can take advantage of her.

young and beautiful - lana del rey

Will you still love me when I’m no longer young and beautiful?

Age is not something that Carla is a big fan of. The older she gets, the more obsessed with looking young she is.This song represents her vulnerability, and how deep, deep, down she just wants to be loved and remembered. 

[tidewashed]

FRACTURED MOONLIGHT ON THE SEA: the ariel triton mix

“today, chasing the tide feels a little less like dying and a little more like coming home.” — dictionary poem ix: seaside // t.e.

SIDE A: THE WORLD ABOVE

i. stay - zedd & alessia cara // ii. boy problems - carly rae jepsen // iii. forever - haim // iv. roman holiday - halsey // v. settle down - the 1975 // vi. octahate - ryn weaver // vii. 2AM - astrid s // viii. meteorite - years & years // ix. sometimes - britney spears // x. dive - ed sheeran // xi. your song - kate walsh

SIDE B: PART OF YOUR WORLD

liability - lorde

they say, you’re a little much for me / you’re a liability / get you wild, make you leave

ariel relates to this song in the sense that she feels like she is a liability — with her muteness, there’s added effort between her and the people she’s interacting with in an attempt to understand her. and although she’s learned to embrace her muteness, she can’t help but feel like it’s a burden that shouldn’t have been there in the first place.

never let me go - florence + the machine

and it’s peaceful in the deep / cathedral where you cannot breathe / no need to pray, no need to speak

this song relates to ariel and how she feels towards the ocean. though the lyrics are quite metaphorical, it definitely emphasizes how she feels most herself when she’s underwater. there’s no need to push herself further to make her presence known; and to her, she finds solace in the sea. it’s the cathedral where she finds sanctuary, in a sense, and when she’s there, all her problems seem to wash away.

breakaway - kelly clarkson

i’ll spread my wings and i’ll learn how to fly / i’ll do what it takes ‘til i touch the sky / make a wish, take a chance, make a change / and break away

all ariel really wants in life are two things: to find her voice again, and to feel like she belongs in the world she lives in. life on the tiny island of nantucket isn’t enough for her — she wants to see more, do more, and be more; and she feels like her ambitions stretch way past her hometown.

crazy for you - madonna

this song holds sentimental meaning to ariel, as it was her mom’s favorite song. it was the song played at her parents’ wedding for the first dance, and she even dreams of slow-dancing to this song at least once in her life.

paradise - coldplay

when she was just a girl, she expected the world / but it flew away from her reach / so she ran away in her sleep / and dreamed of para, para, paradise

there was so much ariel wanted to do when she was little — one of them becoming a famous singer and traveling all over the world to share her voice. but because of her surgery, her voice was lost and there was no way she could do that anymore. until she can find her voice again — if it’s even there — all she can do is dream of a life she believes she should have had.

i’m not a girl, not yet a woman - britney spears

is there anyone that understands ariel triton more than her favorite singer, britney spears? probably, but she wouldn’t know about it. at nineteen, she feels like the song describes her situation perfectly and where she is at the moment. she believes she’s old enough to stand on her own two feet; but her family — especially her dad — still sees her as a little girl that still needs protecting.

both sides now - joni mitchell

ariel has fond memories of her father sitting at the piano and her mother singing along to it, with a wide-eyed fascination and passion in her voice that the girl remembers clearly, even up to this day. and to keep her mother’s memory, it became one of the first songs she learned to play on the piano — it remains one of her favorites up to this day, and holds strong sentimental value to her.

[bambi-king-blog1]

KING OF A KINGDOM, SWINGING ON A SWING: a brandon king mix 

 “hold fast to dreams: for if dreams die, life is a broken-winged bird that cannot fly. hold fast to dreams: for when dreams go,  life is a barren field frozen with snow.”  — dreams // langston hughes. 

SIDE A: THE FIRST SIGN OF SPRING

i. history maker - dean fujioka // ii. closer - tegan and sara // iii. east of eden - zella day // iv. girls/girls/boys - panic! at the disco  // v. 5 years time - noah and the whale // vi. care - bry // vii. cliffs edge - hayley kiyoko // viii. you and i - ingrid michaelson // ix. what’s it gonna be - shura // x. radioactive- marina and the diamonds  // xi. wild things - alessia cara

SIDE B: LIFE MAY BE SWIFT AND FLEETING

renegades - x ambassadors

all hail the underdogs / all hail the new kids / all hail the outlaws / spielberg’s and kubrick’s

this song relates to bambi’s early life, when he met his best friend thumper. they always made each other feel on top of the world. their being polar opposites never limited the friendship, talkative thumper and bashful bambi; the underdogs of olympia, and rulers of the world.

ambulance - eisley

i need an ambulance / i took, i took the worst of the blow / send me a redeemer / let me know if i’m gonna be alright / am i gonna be alright? / ‘cause i know how it usually goes

directly after his mother was shot, bambi had only focused on his own feelings. whether he would be alright or not, whether he could ever learn to live with the grief. it had never occurred to him to think about the effect of her death on any other person but himself, because no one was as close to her as he was.

supermarket flowers - ed sheeran

dad always tells me “don’t you cry when you’re down” / but mom there’s a tear every time that i blink

even though his father had taken him in, bambi kept feeling a hole in his heart- which he thought his dad was supposed to have fixed, but he hadn’t. all the life lessons he was given were intended as a way to distract him from his grief, but it didn’t work all the time. for a long time, when he fell asleep each night, bambi would shed a tear for his mom.

coming home part ii - skylar grey

let the rain wash away / all the pain of yesterday / i know my kingdom awaits / and they’ve forgiven my mistakes / i’m coming home 

slowly, very slowly, bambi had started to heal. it was the little things he noticed, like smiling instead of crying at a good memory. his father helped, too: when bambi came to him for advice, connor helped him instead of pushing him away, and they healed together. connor would always be there to welcome bambi home: the king in his kingdom, awaiting the return of the prince.

little game - benny

this song relates more to bambi’s personality than his life story. it’s the one that made him see that gender isn’t a fixed thing, along with personality. he listened to it, watched the music video, reenacted it in his bedroom. it made him try on different colours of clothing, wear his hair in different styles, and ensured him that his love for feminine things wasn’t something to be ashamed of.

fight song - rachel platten

and i don’t really care / if nobody else believes / because i’ve still got / a lot of fight left in me

Now that he’s come to terms with his mother’s death, his sexuality and personality, bambi’s not afraid to be himself anymore. he’s a little broken, a little beaten and a little odd, but why on earth should that hold him back from doing what he loves most? he’ll defend his life choices against anyone who dares to defy them, because they’re his, and his alone.

[locklanblackwell-blog]

I'm all dressed up with nowhere to go Walkin' with a dead man over my shoulder - Dead Man’s Party, Oingo Boingo

Side A: Kidnap Mr. Sandy Claws

i. Teenage Dirtbag by Wheatus | ii. Love Like Lies by Aesthetic Perfection | iii. Pumped Up Kicks by Foster the People | iv. Buried Alive by Creature Feature | v. Shipping Up to Boston by Dropkick Murphys | vi. Death to All But Metal by Steel Panther

Side B: Beat Him With A Stick

(You’re The) Devil In Disguise by Elvis Presley

You look like an angel (look like an angel)/Walk like an angel (walk like an angel)/Talk like an angel (talk like an angel)/But I got wise/You’re the devil in disguise!

This is probably more how other people see Lachlan than how he sees himself. He’s been told he’s a handsome guy, and knows he can talk his way out of plenty. But that’s just the surface, and most people don’t like him when they notice he’s the devil.

Bitch by The Rolling Stones

You got to mix it child/You got to fix it but love/It's a bitch, alright

 The whole thing about this song is that Lachlan isn’t very romantic. Love is a bitch, even if you’ve got to interact with people. Especially if you don’t want to like anyone yet there you are with a crush anyway (which would be Lachlan if he ended up liking anyone)

Boris the Spider by The Who

Now he's dropped on to the floor /Heading for the bedroom door /Maybe he's as scared as me /Where's he gone now, I can't see/Boris the spider

 This one is easy. Lachlan has had one pet his whole life, a tarantula called Boris, named after Mr. Karloff and this song.Of course, someone in the family ended up killing his one good pet, and he’s just never going to be over it. Plus it’s a good song, Lachlan would like it even if the only reason was because it’s basically the first song that had growling ever

Bound and Gagged by Creature Feature

I'm keeping her bound and gagged/Her clothes soaked in gasoline/Hands tied behind her back/Where no one can hear her scream

This is both related to what Lachlan does for a living, and what has happened to him once upon a time. I’ll let you figure that out

House of Gold by Twenty One Pilots

She asked me, "Son, when I grow old/Will you buy me a house of gold?/And when your father turns to stone/Will you take care of me?"/I will make you queen of everything you see/I'll put you on the map/I'll cure you of disease.

 Lachlan is a mama’s boy, let’s be real, and this is basically them. Except if Lachlan had written House of Gold, there would be less ukelele

Cookies! by Ninja Sex Party

Death and destruction are all around/We're motherfucking evil and we'll never slow down/We are the nightmares you should be afraid of/There is just one thing we love and that's:/Cookies!

Lachlan may be a murderous, awful mobster with no moral compass, but god does he have a sweet tooth.

[astridhxfferson]

Astrid Hofferson: Task01 ↣ Mixtape: For the Fearless

“and they roared as loud as thunder 

and carried lightning in the strike of their cruelty,

but what are thunder and lightning

to fearless girls who are used

to carrying entire storms 

and hurricanes

in their fingertips?”

-nikita gill // for the fearless

SIDE A:

i. wild horses - bishop briggs // ii. born to run - american authors // iii. crzy - kehlani // iv.  iris - goo goo dolls // v. viva la vida - coldplay // vi. sorry not sorry - demi lovato // vii. centuries  - fall out boy // viii. thunder - imagine dragons // ix. the greatest - sia // x. whatever it takes - imagine dragons // xi. (fuck a) silver lining - panic! at the disco // hey look ma, i made it - panic! at the disco

SIDE B:

Umbrella  // Rihanna ft. Jay z

“when the sun shines, we'll shine together

told you i’d be here forever

said i'll always be a friend

took an oath i’ma stick it out ‘til the end”

Astrid can seem pretty rough around the edges but she loves her friends. She is extremely loyal and will do anything for the people she cares about. Whether that be listening to a vent session, being the shoulder to cry on, or planning a murder against someone that wronged them. She’s extremely protective over those she cares about.

Me, Myself, & I // G-Eazy & Bebe Rexha

“oh, it’s just me, myself and i

solo ride until i die

‘cause i got me for life (yeah)

oh, i don’t need a hand to hold

even when the night is cold

i got that fire in my soul”

Astrid is a loner. There is no other way to put it. Yes, she has friends but in general, she isn’t really a people person. It’s not that she dislikes people necessarily, she just doesn’t interact well with them. Astrid would really rather spend her time training and studying than going out and being social. She doesn’t see the point of letting others help her if she could do it on her own. To her the only real person you can count on is yourself. 

Work B**ch // Britney Spears

“bring it on, ring the alarm

don’t stop now, just be the champion

work it hard, like it's your profession

watch out now, cause here it comes”

This is the song that never ceases to motivate her and is a great contribution to her workout playlist. Astrid is above all else a hard worker. She’ll probably work herself to death if she isn’t stopped. If given the opportunity, Astrid would probably never sleep, living off of only caffeine and adrenaline. However, she has been told that this is unhealthy. Repeatedly. Astrid is extremely hard on herself, so when she makes a mistake, she often views it as worse than it really is.

Trust Issues // Olivia O'brien

“please don’t tell me you want me

please don’t say you do

honestly, it’s not you, it's me

i just have trust issues”

Astrid has built her walls up high and it takes a lot to gain her trust, in turn making it hard for her to connect with others. They need to earn her respect and prove to her that the relationship is worth it. She doesn’t readily show her true emotions either. Due to this, she often bottles them up, partly because she sees it as weakness but mainly because she’s afraid that if her loved ones see her crack then they might do the same.