( & // he laughs, something akin to disbelief ) no. ( he’s said it before: he’s only ever gotten into relationships because he was bored ) nothing serious, anyway. i doubt i’ll ever be in a serious relationship. i’m pretty sure that’s impossible for me. ( it goes back to the lack of emotions again, and the fact that he doesn’t think he’s felt anything romantic in his entire life ) i don’t think i even have the time for a “just because i’m bored” relationship right now, and who knows how long it’ll be before i do. maybe i’ve outgrown that phase of my life by now, anyway. i can’t even imagine myself dating girls for fun anymore. ( girls have always been easier to mess with than boys for him, for some reason, and it’s not because he gets more attached to the boys. he doesn’t think he has the energy anymore– for the leading people on, for the dates, for the pretending. he wants the love, but he doesn’t want to give it )
( & // a smile crosses his face immediately ) i would kiss anyone i’ve ever kissed again, just so we’re clear. unless it was a girl. ( he makes a face of disgust. despite his preferences, he has kissed a few girls, to ultimately decide he never wanted to again if he could help it. that went over well with his high school girlfriends, naturally, and was why eventually he stopped bothering with them ) i don’t actually know who the last person i kissed was. ( another smile, this time a little sly. it’s a toss up between spencer and bomin, because he’s kissed them both a total of quite a few times in the last month, and he doesn’t remember the timeline of it all ) but i’d kiss them both again. ( they’re so different, just like their kisses. with bomin, it’s always soft and brief– pecks, something relatively appropriate for friends. he’s his best friend– someone he really treasures, but wouldn’t really consider himself attracted to. sure, he’d kiss bomin more if he ever wanted to, but jihoon would kiss anyone. it’s not something he places a high value on. spencer is…different. with spencer it’s far from soft– rough around the edges, maybe a certain kind of hunger. the attraction is there, something magnetic, and jihoon doesn’t know how he feels about him, just knows he’s something like fascinated. there’s fondness there, too. maybe spencer is magical, and he likes it )