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hello!!!!! i felt like i didn’t talk nearly enough about the final soshad mix as much as i like, could have (partly becuase it got a less traditional set of liner notes, in the form of a booklet, which is was a quieter labor of love)
and because i’m feeling Emotiosn about my boys and love rambling about things, let’s uh,
let’s talk about it!
first of all if you haven’t checked out the booklet, then please do, it may not be quite as fancy as the one i made for that aqua mix a while back but it’s still, good, okay, it’s good
anyway uh
general facts are that the soshad mix has been in the making for Two Years, since my first semester of college, and it’s gone through... a lot? there have been a lot of songs that have come and gone, it was pitched as a “happy soshad mix” that i never fully intended to make---or at least didn’t see myself making before ATR ended because i didn’t think
they would be a thing, before ATR ended
but uh then sora demanded ch110 happen so it did
and uh
yeah
section 1: start
hiding is a song i stole from the last soshad mix for part 2, because “if you give a little so will i” was a thing that mattered then, but it still matters now, you know? hiding is a good thing for the Start of them becoming friends, because it’s the agreement to work together towards something better.... and that’s where they start
who is in your heart now? is... a song i kinda wish i’d found when making the DI soshad mix because its’ VERY MUCH re: “shad having a crush and not knowing what to do with it”, though actually i think it’s probably for the best i didn’t find it until making it’s about choice, because it’s a happier song, it’s kind of an acceptance? augh it’s become a Big Shad Song for me....
just, agh, some of these lyrics
do you ever feel like falling / for someone you never thought of falling for?
all your friends and foes they thought they knew ya / but LOOK who’s in your heart now
it’s so good and so him....
bonus here’s the art that got slapped on this for the booklet
which is........ a callback to atr99, the bit where sora’s heartspace drops a pillow into existence for him and he’s like “fuck you” but takes it anyway, because it smells like sora, and,,,, yeah :’)
((the colors are absolutely symbolic))
section 2: realization
crush is kind of... generic, but i needed something for the mess that is atr103-110, that is sora realizing oh god i’m in love and then having to, yanno, Deal With That, and this song makes me tendo.... also “the possibility that you could ever feel the same about me / is just too much, jsut too much” AUGH end me,
and the lyrics “why do i keep running from the truth? all i ever think about is you” is... very... sora post atr103 aslkdfjlsjkf, and also a callback (admittedly to a shad lyric) in a later song, we’ll talk about that, we’ll get there
OH FUCK ME and “it’s a chance we gotta take / because i think we could make / this into something that’ll last forever” is very VERY adjacent to sora’s confession in atr110, isn’t it? oh boy it is........ aaaaaaaaaaaa
delicate is like, not Perfect, because the main story of hte song isn’t them, but the chorus makes me tender constantly so i had to keep it. sora wondering if this is okay, if this is too soon, it’s delicate, it’s delicate, ....but i like you
also the fact that “my reputation has never been worse so / you must like me for me” being a line from shad just fucking WRECKED me when i realized it, hhhh
black butterflies and deja vu is one of the songs off this album by the maine (lovely little lonely) which i... listened to basically nonstop while writing atr107, the album made me kinda tender and this song in particular becuase it’s Very Sora Themed, like, being about how much he loves shad but how much he can’t / is terrified of saying it...
for the booklet i ended up giving half the song to sora and half of it to kano becuase i thought that was good too, becuase kano being just as fucking baffled by how much he loves sora, paralyzed by his love and his fear of bieng in love that it’s hard to speak is... it’s good
a lot of this song is good alskfjslkjf jsut check out the booklet, the lyrics are all so good
the sora art is for this song but also for This Section, which is more about sora realizing oh fuck i’m in love than it is about kano realizing that, because kano... has known he’s been in love for a while. his is more about accepting that its’ okay.
section 3: confession
aquaman is a Big SoShad song i’ve had under my belt probably the longest of any song in this mix (other than hiding).... the lyrics that get me the Most are “you see the thing you’ve been chasing honey / you’ll never find it wearing a life vest / you gotta risk your neck / know in your heart it will be worth it”
because the Big Thing about them / the confession is sora going no, look, if you want something good out of this then you can’t keep shying away from it, is about kano gathering the courage to accept this... it’s........ a good song...... it always makes me emo about them....... gets on my fucking knees......
the art i dropped here in teh booklet is the art i used for the cover, but it’s... it’s art of the confession, it’s like, Literally I Took Lines from atr110, it’s the moment where Sora grabs Kano’s hands and tells him do you want this? then choose it. who cares if you don’t deserve it. and aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
best worst mistake is a song that i wanted to shy away from due to the title and That Phrase being like a big thing for, them, ((though for the record: the characters in the musical have been like, Together for three years and are just kind of terrified of taking it further, from the context)
and like it’s... a song I Had To Do becuase it’s so very VERY soshad, it’s very Sora Tells Kano He Has To Take A Risk, while Kano Being Terrified Of Doing So
and the banter between them moving into the confession.... it’s good
aquaman is the leadup to it, best worst mistake is the actual confession, i choose you (the next song) being the affirmation of the confession,
anyway the best lyric in this song is “it’s not that i don’t love you, becuase i don’t not love you, and it’d be a lie to say i’m never sometimes always thinking of you” its just... so Very Kano
i choose you IS HERE BECAUSE THEIR CONFESSION IS SO CENTERED AROUND CHOICE LIKE, I COULDN’T NOT, YOU KNOW??? their thing is about choosing each other, choosing love instead of choosing to be scared, choosing love instead of shying away from it because they don’t “deserve” it
section 4: triumph
this section is about... the aftermath of the confession, and what it means for the two of them, which is a lot about kano actually but you know what that’s fine
drummer boy well i found most of these songs on accident (as you do) but it is very shad centric, because the whole message is “what did i do to deserve you?” and if that’s not his contstant mood re: sora i don’t know what the fuck IS
it’s a triumph because it’s “what did i do to deserve you?” but it’s not lamenting, it’s a celebration. i don’t deserve you but i have you anyway. good. SHIT.
open up the sky isssss a sora song that alright is only halfway adjacent, but it’s like. i mean his entire thing through 103-110 is him bottling up his feelings (i even, uh, put cloud related metaphors in 103 and clear sky metaphors in 110 just to tie into this song a little ALSKJDFLJS)
anyway just “i’ve tried to explain away what i’m feeling / but i wont’ be the one who never tried / so open up the sky”....... sora stopping bottling up his feelings and letting them out is a thing, so here’s a song for it
kaleidoscope another song!!! about shad!!! fucking basking in how good sora is too him and how much he thinks he doesn’t deserve it but alright!! guess he has it anyway!!! you keep turning, you keep turning my life around is.... exactly what sora keeps doing for him. so. will smith poses
it’s a reflection between what his life used to be and how much better his life is now that sora’s in it, and also like, how much better it is now that he... lets himself has it. instead of shying away from it. nods.
never stop - for the record, i was going to put in the wedding version initially (two years ago) but then i went. no. don’t they deserve something a little more triumphant.
so in goes the original
it’s just... yano.... a triumph....... a declaration of love........ tosses out sappy confetti.........
no okay the chorus is kind of Fucking Loaded with soshad shit, especially since “i’ll never stop choosing you” is a line and their whole thing is About Choice, there’s also “you are my life i don’t deserve you / but you love me all the same” (kano mood) and “i’ll never get used to you” (kano mood)
it’s a good song........... they’re a good ship...........
1. hiding - florence and the machine || 2. who is in your heart now? - studio killers || 3. crush - david archuleta || 4. delicate - taylor swift || 5. black butterflies and deja vu - the maine || 6. aquaman - walk the moon || 7. best worst mistake - if/then || 8. i choose you - sara bareilles || 9. drummer boy - misterwives || 10. open up the sky - sam tsui || 11. kaleidoscope - a great big world | 12. never stop safetysuit
here’s a collection of good prose that ended up not making it into atr110 for whatever reason
this is less prose more just part of my brainstorm for 110 that explains a certain thing kano does
kano asks “is it really that big of a deal to wait?” and while the conversation frames it as about the beach, it’s not about the beach, and I think. kano knows this. I think enough slips through their link that kano gets the feeling that something specifically about waiting has made sora really jittery, something about waiting for something has got sora all tied up in knots and
Kano’s a little shit. he knows how to pry, how to ask questions specifically to set someone off
And so he knows the problem is waiting
So he asks why waiting is the problem
In the way that’s most likely to get a rise out of sora
This is what he’s good at and while he’s had a change of heart that doesn’t mean his personality hasn’t changed, doesn’t mean he won’t lean on some of those shadow tendencies every now and then
.
paopu fruit,
Also okay he thinsk about the paopu fruits again and thinks no you fucker it’s a little early for even that and he’s not gonna share a fake fucking paopu fruit with kano anyway and—okay he has to stop thinking about paopu fruit
.
sora considrs not confessing to his crush for five seconds just to spite kairi
Him also like also you can’t kiss kano because kairi’s already teasing you enough about how you’re fucking off here to make out with him to begin with and like, there’s no way if you do it once you won’t wanna do it more and then you WILL be fucking off to make out with him and then kairi wins and you CAN’T let her win
But oh god oh fuck I’m so tired of waiting, is spite enough of a reason to sustain me,
.
here’s, the prose of them kissing anyway even though i reused half of it okay bye
so like, sora going
“oh yeah kano”
“hmm”
“there was. Uh. One other thing I was really sick of waiting on”
“yeah? Tell me”
“Actually it’ll be eaiser if I just”
And he kisses kano
And like, it’s not a good, kiss. Sora is well aware that this is the first time he’s kissed anybody ever and he’s no idea what exactly he’s supposed to do but even just the warmth and the closeness the feeling of his heart in his throat and like he can’t even breathe and the shape of kano’s lips pressed into his is good and this is just good even if it’s bad and
When sora pulls back kano just kind of
“hh???”
Makes that startled noise that Sora adores so much
“clouds. Really. Really.” Listen I started this symbolism back in ch103 and it was good then so yes in fact I will push it as far as I can, especially since a) it’s good shit b) yeah I will bend over backwards to further cement my ties with songs from the mix which you will see soon hopefully c) my good good dude tell me that that quiet symbolism for all the things sora’s keeping bottled up and the skies clearing when he confesses is not tight as hell
anyway. atr110. grabs you by the hands. sits you down. this is the one that gets really gay
yall knew this was coming from 103 i’m sure but anyway just. lays here on the ground. wait i’m still holding your hands in this metaphor. does that while also holding your hands tbh. im having Emotions and you can’t stop me. listen
soshad’s canon now????
thsi was like, inevitable, has been inevitable since fucking dead inside 232 though to be HONEST, i’ll admit the four years between then and now have been a long and weird ride of me still trying to backflip out of them dating because thatnks internalized homophobia??????????????? thankfully that died on its sorry little rock of my heart like at least a year ago. has it been two years??? i stopped keeping an exact timeline
the point is Don’t Ask Me About Early Potential SoShad Endings Because They Were Very Bad
i could sit here and wax poetic for a while about how atr110 is a culmination of their plotline---it is, really---and about how it’s important to me for deep reasons but tbh i just like
i love my beautiful gay sons
and i’m really glad that two months ago it was like
sora: you know that convo we had drafted about me being tired of waiting
me: yeah
sora: i wanna tell kano i love him at the end of it
me: okay but......... i didn’t want to rush it........
(two days later)
sora, banging pots and pans: HEY YOU KNOW THAT CONVO WE HAD DRAFTED ABOUT ME BEING TIRED OF WAITING
me, staring at the pieces of this puzzle which is like a box i have built around myself on accident and cannot escape: holy shit
sora: BUDDY I’M CONFESSING TO KANO JUST TRY AND STOP ME
me: ..........well now i have to rewrite three chapters so that your anxiety about waiting is palpable to the readers and not just to us but alright fine you earned this
anyway
smiles wistfully at the ceiling from where i am laying onthe ground
(yes i am still holding your hands) (at least one of your hands) (i’m squeezing the fuck out of it to try and convey my emotions, you’ve probably lost feeling in it by now, sorry)
they’re so????????????? good?????????????????????
i’m so glad i like, let msyelf do this, instead of holding back,,,
which i was really only holding back because i didn’t want to Force this to be a Big Plotpoint, a Checkmark on a list of thigns we had to do before ATR ended, i didn’t want to make them an endgame ship, etc
but this feels............ Not Like That.......... and i’m happy
and i realized that ultimately this was kind of The Ideal place to write it happenign anyway, like yes i could construct a Technically Perfect moment in for which it could happen, one that was soft and cute and good, but like, well, let me copy+paste this note i left to myself in
What’s more realistic than sora confessing in the heat of the moment because he’s mad at aqua and sick of waiting for all these things that he wants to have and maybe it’s not smart
Maybe it’s not perfect
But it’s real
there was no way i could construct a moment more authentic than this one
(homestuck has also taught me that sometimes Things Happen and it’s not perfect but because it’s not perfect or the technically ideal circumstances its more realistic,,,,) (thanks,,, homestuck,,,)
anyway
it’s been really fun to write sora’s overwhelmingly gay thoughts And Also Him Dying Because He’s Trying Not To Say Them Aloud for the past two months, it’s been refreshing to lean into it instead of like, shy away from it
just
agh
they’re so cute and it’s so good
sora’s whole thing about choice makes me cry like a fuckin babie (this is the dialogue i was referring to that i “felt so strongly my chest ached” from this post,)
and kano being brave enough to make the choice even though he’s terrified him admitting that yes he does want this agghghhhh he’s come...... really far......... my beautfiul boy
like really the only thing i’m disappointed about in this chapter (it’s only a very low-key disappointment, too) is that like. i wrote some really cute prose about them kissing i didn’t get to use alskjflasjfsf
but in the end i was like “okay no exploring further how Kano feels about this turn of events is probably, the superior option” so i yeeted them kissing out the window
and into a separate 1800 words of prose that’s even gayer aslkfalskjf i’ll post that tomorrow or smth
ANYWAY
I’M GLAD TO BE HERE
I’M GLAD THAT THIS IS THE FINAL TRAJECTORY OF SOSHAD
I’M LOVE MY BEAUTIFUL CHILDREN
CHANCES ARE I’M CRYING OR YELLING IN EXCITEMENT OR BOTH ABOUT THIS CHAPTER AT ANY GIVEN MOMENT
